Chapter 072

After all the fuss, Shizuku was in such a state that Zhen Zhen didn’t dare to leave.

She just stayed with Shizuku, letting her lie in her arms to release her emotions.

Sister-in-law Chen had to go to work, Cheng Chen had to go to school, and the two of them greeted each other when they arrived and left first.

Shui Huaoming and Liu Zhi also went to their workplaces. Liu Zhi went to his workplace to take a half-day vacation, and came back soon after.

He didn’t say anything when he arrived home, picking up a broom to clean up the mess in the house.

Feng granny has gone back to her room, there is no one outside, Liu Zhi cleaned up the floor of the bowl piece of rice, and was smashed scattered stools to pick up out of the pits on the door can not be managed, stay there do not move.

After cleaning up the mess, he directly collected the clothes of the Feng granny drying outside, took the clothes to the Feng granny’s room, said in a tone of no emotion: “Mother, I will help you clean up a little bit, you go back first.”

After this kind of incident, Feng’s heart was suffocating, so she didn’t want to go.

She sat on the edge of the bed, turned her body to the side and said, “You want to drive me away, not even the door, I’m not leaving!”

Liu Zhi did not care what she said, bent down to help her pack up the parcels, pinched her arm and pulled her up, pulling her out of the room while saying, “You go back first, I’ll go back when I have time, and you can beat me and scold me again.”

Feng was pulled into the courtyard by Liu Zhi.

She once again got anxious and shook off Liu Zhi so violently that she nearly threw herself to the ground.

Her voice rasped again as she looked at Liu Zhi and shouted grumpily, “Don’t you pull me! I said I’m not leaving! You must divorce me today, and when you do, I’ll leave!”

Her voice was shouting so loud that it could be heard clearly in the house.

Zhen Zhen didn’t want Wen to hear it, so she raised her hand to cover her ears.

Faced with such a Feng granny, Liu Zhi first lowered his head and closed his eyes, then raised his head again to look at the sky in despair.

A few moments later he suddenly turned around and went into the kitchen, when he came out again he had a kitchen knife in his hand, he directly put the kitchen knife to his neck, his eyes reddened as he looked at Granny Feng, “Mother, are you trying to force me to die?”

Seeing the knife pressed against Liu Zhi’s neck, Granny Feng’s heart sank violently.

She instantly panicked a little, and was so anxious that her voice was raspy again, “What are you doing?!”

Liu Zhi pressed the knife’s muzzle towards his neck, the knife’s edge was sharp, and blood instantly seeped out.

He stared at Granny Feng and said word by word, “If you want to force me to die, I will die in front of you now.”

Seeing the blood flowing out of Liu Zhi’s neck, Granny Feng panicked so much that tears brushed down her face.

She stomped her feet again and jumped and shouted, “You put it down! Put it down! I’ll go ah! I’ll go!!!”

Liu Zhi didn’t press down on the knife again, and Granny Feng took the opportunity to pounce on him, snatching the kitchen knife out of his hand and throwing it away, and pounding on him again, “You ungrateful son, ungrateful son, ungrateful son, ah!”

Zhen Zhen never went out in Wen’s room.

After a while, the noise outside slowly stopped, and the courtyard quieted down.

Zhen Zhen still patted Ah Wen’s back and softly told her, “She’s gone.”

After the nanny put the baby back to sleep, Shizuku’s emotions slowly calmed down.

The nanny carefully put the baby on the bed and whispered, “Fall asleep, I’ll go make you something to eat.”

As the nanny went out, Jen took a handkerchief and helped Shizuku dry her tears.

Shizuku raised her hand and took the handkerchief and wiped herself, and after wiping she didn’t say anything, still lying down in Zhen Zhen’s arms and burying her face.

The first time I saw her was when she was in the hospital, and she was in the hospital for a few days.

***The first time I saw this was when I was a student at the University of California at Berkeley.

Zhen Zhen accompanied Shizhen for a while, Liu Zhi brought the nanny ready meal came in.

Seeing Liu Zhi come in, Zhen Zhen stroked Shizuku’s arm and got up, making room for Liu Zhi to sit down.

Liu Zhi has to coax Ah Wen to eat, there should be a lot more to say between husband and wife, Zhen Zhen feels that it’s not appropriate for her to stay here, so she voices out and says to Liu Zhi, “Take good care of Ah Wen, I have to go back first.”

Liu Zhi nodded in response and watched Jen leave the room.

Zhen Zhen returned home and sat down to breastfeed Xing Yu and Dantong.

Zhong Minfen sat down next to her and asked, “Did you make a scene?”

Zhen Zhen sighed softly and said, “The dining room table was overturned, and the benches were smashed.”

Zhong Minfen didn’t expect it to be so big, frowning, she asked, “How did it get so big?”

Zhen Zhen’s arm palms straining, holding steady the child in her arms, looking at Zhong Minfen, “What was argued before lifting the table I don’t know, and then the noise I heard, Liu Zhi’s mother was very emotional, to force Liu Zhi and Ah Wen to divorce.”

“Divorce?!” Zhong Minfen furrowed her brows even deeper, “It’s not that bad, right?”

The child was born ten days ago, Feng mother-in-law has long recognized, the heart did not hold back the anger to make a fuss in the expected, but not to force the son and daughter-in-law to divorce ah. These days, divorce is not something honorable.

Zhen Zhen thought about it, lowered his head to look at the child, a moment said: “Maybe she knows that Wen can not be born again.”

Zhong Minfen suddenly froze when she heard this and slowed down before speaking out again, “Can’t have any more?”

Zhen Zhen lowered her head and continued, “Mother, we are all women, we know the pain of giving birth to a child, giving birth to a child is really not as easy as they say, even if you are a good person, giving birth to one child after another, your body can’t take it. Even if you’re a good person, your body won’t be able to take it if you give birth to one child after another like this.

It’s true to say that a woman’s birth can be a walk in the dark.

After this experience, even if her body recovers, she won’t dare to have another baby.

Zhong Minfen sighed, “It’s not easy for us as women.”

Zhen Zhen raised her head to look at Zhong Min Fen, “Dame Feng is a woman herself, why can’t she be understanding?”

Zhong Min Fen sighed again, “She sees and treats herself the same way, how can she sympathize with others?”

Thinking about these words, Zhen Zhen couldn’t help but sigh along with her.

There are some words that are of little use to say.

Zhong Minfen only asked again, “What’s the situation now?”

Speaking of this, Zhen Zhen slightly sighed in relief, “Liu Zhi protected Wen and sent his mother back.”

Zhong Minfen also followed with a sigh of relief, “It’s good to go back, separating the two places, at least letting Ah Wen finish her monthly period.”

Zhen Zhen thought about it and held back the breath she wanted to sigh out.

She said, “This kind of thing, I don’t know how many times she’s been through it ……”

After saying that, she still couldn’t hold it back and let out another soft sigh.

Zhen Zhen talked to Zhong Minfen about finishing feeding the baby.

She estimated that Wen should have finished eating, she picked up Dantong and said to Zhong Minfen, “Mother, I’ll go next door to keep Wen company.”

Zhong Minfen didn’t say anything else, only saying, “Hurry up and go.”

Without much delay, Zhen Zhen carried Dantong and went next door.

When she arrived next door and entered the courtyard gate, she only saw Liu Zhi sitting under the porch, still in the position of burying his head.

Soldiers waist and back straight, but can not see collapse.

Taking two steps toward the courtyard, Jen asked out loud, “Is Wen okay?”

Liu Zhi hears the sound and raises his head, his eyes squinting slightly as he looks at Zhen Zhen and says, “She said she was sleepy and fell asleep.”

Zhen Zhen nodded her head oh-so-quietly and hugged Danton as she prepared to turn around and go home.

But just after turning halfway sideways, she turned back.

She carried Dan Tong a few more steps in front of Liu Zhi and said out loud, “Her body is very weak right now, her mood is no better, so when you’re at home, you should spend more time with her and coax her well.”

“I know.” Liu Zhi nodded, “I will.”

Zhen Zhen and Liu Zhi didn’t have much to say to each other, she only added, “Then I’ll go back first, if there’s anything going on with Wen, or if you need my help with anything, just come over and look for me, I’m always at home.”

Ryuushi nodded again, “Thanks.”

With those words Zhen Zhen hugged Dantong and went home.

When she arrived home, she naturally joined Zhong Minfen with the child, not in her usual good mood, and thinking about Wen from time to time.

But since Liu Zhi was at home, Zhen Zhen didn’t frequent next door to disturb her much.

In the evening she went to the cafeteria to get her meal, and on her way back she just happened to bump into Sister-in-law Chen who was returning from work.

After exchanging greetings at the entrance to the alley, Sister-in-law Chen took hold of Zhen Zhen and asked, “What’s the situation at Ah Wen’s place now?”

Zhen Zhen told her, “Dame Feng has left, and it’s peaceful for now.”

Mrs. Chen sighed, “No one can bear to have such an old woman. Luckily, we don’t live together and don’t see each other much. If we did, Wen wouldn’t be able to live in peace for a single day.”

Zhen Zhen said, “I didn’t realize she was so depressed.”

Sister-in-law Chen: “She’s a bit of a pushover. She doesn’t want people to know that she’s not doing well, and she doesn’t want to cause trouble, so she doesn’t want to say anything. She keeps everything bottled up in her heart, so she’s afraid that sooner or later she’ll get sick.”

Zhen Zhen thought about Shizhen’s state during this period of time after giving birth, and couldn’t help but worry in her heart.

Compared to when she first moved here, the depression in Ah Wen’s body was obviously heavier now, and she didn’t even have the joy of looking at her child.

She wanted to help Ah Wen more, but she simply didn’t know where or how to start.

Just like Sister-in-law Chen said, Ah Wen herself was not willing to say anything.

Zhen Zhen and Sister-in-law Chen stood and spoke for a few moments before Servant Huai Ming came back from work.

Seeing Squire Huai Ming, who had entered the line of sight, Chen’s sister-in-law put away her worried frown and smiled, saying, “Your family’s back, so I’ll leave first.”

Sister-in-law Chen pushed her bicycle home, and Zhen Zhen stood still for a while waiting for Shi Huai Ming.

When Shui Huaiming walked up to her, she greeted him, “You’re back.”

“Uh-huh.” Shi Huai Ming directly took the lunch box and pulled Zhen Zhen’s hand, pulling her back towards home.

Zhen Zhen was naturally embarrassed, pulling her hand out of his, bumping him with her arm and heading side by side into the alley.

Passing by the gate of Liu Zhi’s house, the two tacitly turned their heads to look inside.

Zhen Zhen whispered to Squire Huai Ming, “Liu Zhi sent his mother back, he’s at home with Wen.”

“Uh-huh.” Shui Huaiming nodded and said nothing more as he and Zhen Zhen continued to head home.

When they arrived home, they washed their hands and sat down to eat.

After eating a few mouthfuls of rice to settle his stomach, Servant Huai Ming looked at Zhen Zhen and said, “It’s been ten days since Wen gave birth, should we tell Li Shuang and He Shuo, and ask them to bring Spike back.”

Telling Li Shuang not to tell Li Shuang about this, Zhen Zhen asked Wen.

She pinched her chopsticks and lifted her head, looking at Squire Huai Ming and said, “Ah Wen doesn’t want to tell sister-in-law Li Shuang for now.”

Although Ah Wen didn’t say why, the odds were that it was because, she didn’t want Li Shuang to see her in her current state.

Her state for so many days was that she couldn’t wait to see anyone and didn’t want to talk to anyone.

Since this was the case, Servant Huai Ming had no choice but to nod again, “Fine.”

Then let’s wait until Shizuku’s mood becomes a little better and her body recuperates a little better.

After eating dinner and working for a while, they washed up and went to bed.

Before pulling out the light, Zhen Zhen leaned over the bed and tilted her head slightly, blinking and staring.

Serving Huai Ming got into bed and sat down next to her, looking at her and asking, “Still thinking about Ah Wen?”

Zhen Zhen dropped her gaze to look at Squire Huai Ming, “Uh-huh.” There’s no way not to think about it.

Servant Huai Ming said, “There is no good solution, either follow Liu Zhi’s mother’s wish for a divorce, or Liu Zhi’s mother shut up from now on, or let Wen and Liu Zhi’s mother never see each other again in this life, it depends on how Liu Zhi handles it.”

Standing in Liu Zhi’s position, he definitely wanted family harmony, but the reality was already completely impossible.

Granny Feng can’t accept not having a grandchild, she can’t get over this hurdle in her heart, and when she can’t hold it together, she will definitely still go crazy and spill her guts, and it’s impossible for Wen to risk her life to have another one just to pass on the family name to the Liu family.

Zhen Zhen looked at Shui Huai Ming and blinked, and said for a moment, “If Liu Zhi divorces Wen, I will despise him for the rest of my life.”

Servant Huai Ming thinks about Liu Zhi’s behavior during this period of time and says out loud, “I don’t think so.”

Zhen Zhen: “It’s best if it won’t.”

If it will, this kind of emotionless and inhumane man should be put in the frying pan.

Zhen Zhen imagined those bad results, and then imagined the grievances that Ah Wen had suffered over the years, and couldn’t help but feel angry again in her heart. Then she didn’t say anything more, she and Shihuaiming talked about something else, relaxed and went to bed.

The next day, she woke up to freshen up and went to work as usual.

Liu Zhi also went to work as usual today, and Zhen Zhen went next door to keep Wen company after dinner.

Even if she didn’t say anything, just being there next to Wen would put her mind at ease.

When Liu Zhi returned home from work at noon, Zhen Zhen was also back.

She ate lunch at home and took Xingyu and Dantong for a nap.

After the nap, she got up, washed her face and put on clean diapers for Xingyu and Dantong, and then carried Dantong to the next door.

After entering the yard and heading inside, Zhen Zhen went straight to Ah Wen’s room.

There was no one else outside the room, so Zhen Zhen walked to the door of the room and raised her hand to clasp it to the door panel and knocked.

Before, someone would say come in, sometimes it was Shizuku, sometimes it was the babysitter, but this time no one was inside.

A little puzzled, Jen pushed the door open and stuck her head in, only to see that there was no one in the room.

The nanny wasn’t in the room and neither was Shizuku.

Thinking that Shizuku had gone to the bathroom, Jen called out, “Shizuku, I’m coming.”

Her voice spread through the room, but she didn’t get a response from Shizuku.

A little puzzled, Zhen Zhen hugged Dantong and went straight to the restroom door.

When she arrived, she found the restroom door half-open and empty, with no one in it at all.

Sticking her head out and scanning up into the restroom, Zhen Zhen’s heart instantly developed a bad feeling.

She went back to Wen’s room, and when she entered, her eyes swept over the bed, then the whole room, and found that the child was not there either.

The bad feeling in her heart became even stronger.

Zhen Zhen’s heart suddenly panicked a little, busy holding Dantong to go out.

Fast steps just went out to the yard, just bumped into the nanny back.

The nanny was very polite to Zhen Zhen and greeted Zhen Zhen with a smile, “Comrade Lin, you’re here.”

Zhen Zhen stabilized her expression and breathing, looked at the nanny and asked, “Where’s Wen? Where did she go?”

The nanny was a bit puzzled, “She’s at home, I just went out to buy some vegetables.”

She was carrying a vegetable basket in her hand, which contained the very same vegetables she had just gone out to buy.

Realizing something, she busily put down the basket and ran into the house to open the door to Wen’s room.

After searching the room for a while, she ran out again and asked, “What’s going on? The baby is gone too.”

The person who was in the middle of her monthly cycle suddenly disappeared, and so did the child.

Zhen Zhen was so panicked that she didn’t stand there anymore, and busily carried Dantong home, and when she arrived home, she handed Dantong over to Zhong Minfen with a panicked look on her face, and hurriedly ran outside the yard again.

Seeing her like this, Zhong Minfen asked loudly at the back, “What’s wrong?”

Jen didn’t have time to say much, and met up with the nanny, and the two of them went out together to look for Ah Wen.

Zhen Zhen and the nanny are both anxious, in the compound searched for a circle did not find people, more anxious head full of sweat.

The nanny was so anxious that she was on the verge of tears, holding Zhen Zhen’s hand and saying with a sobbing voice: “Comrade Lin, what can we do, if we can’t find the person, will Comrade Liu shoot me?”

Zhen Zhen herself was nervous.

But she had to stabilize and pacify the nanny, “It won’t happen, people can definitely be found back, I’ll go give Liu Zhi a call.”

Zhen Zhen used Liu Zhi’s home phone to call his office.

After making the call, she hurriedly put down the phone, and immediately took the nanny to run out again, and together they went out of the compound to look for Wen.

They headed out to the neighborhood of the compound, shouting at every place they went.

Both of them were so anxious that their eyes were spinning with tears, but neither of them cried out.

***

The fresh grass was turquoise on the bank of the river.

Shizuku was sitting on a rock, holding her baby wrapped in swaddling clothes in her arms.

A pleasant breeze blew from the lake, ruffling her messy hair on her forehead and ears.

She squinted her eyes and stared at the sunlight breaking up on the lake, not moving for a long time.

After sitting like this for a while longer, she suddenly stood up with her child in her arms.

Then like a wooden doll, she walked down the riverbank with the child in her arms and took one step towards the river.

The toe of her cloth shoe touched the water and instantly got wet into the shoe.

The other foot stepped forward again, and the river water directly submerged her ankle.

Not far away from the riverbank, seeing Wen, who was walking towards the river with her child in her arms, Zhen Zhen was so scared that her heart was about to jump out of her chest.

She and the nanny simultaneously accelerated their steps and ran this way, shouting with all their might, “Shizuku!”

Shizuku didn’t seem to hear and was still taking steps into the river.

Jen and the nanny ran over in time and grabbed Shizuku’s arm.

The nanny quickly grabbed the baby from Shizuku’s arms and held it in her arms.

Jen pulled her toward the bank, shouting in a shaky voice, “What are you doing? What are you doing?!”

As if her soul had been drained, Shizuku said in a weak voice, “Sister Zhen Zhen, leave me alone.”

Zhen Zhen tugged at her with both hands and looked at her with bloodshot eyes and said in a heavy voice, “Go home! You’re coming home with me!”

Shizuku was weak after all.

She was dragged by Jen to the riverbank and fell to the grass as her feet gave out.

Jen tugged on her arm and pulled her up as hard as she could.

When she couldn’t pull her up, Zhen Zhen suddenly collapsed, squatted down and hugged Shizuku, crying in pain, “What do you want? Have you ever thought about us, or your parents? I will hate you!”

Shizuku tilted her head against Jen’s shoulder, still breathless.

Her eyes were full of tears, and she choked on her voice, “Sister Zhen Zhen, I’m so tired …… I’m really tired …… I just want to end it all, end it all right away… …”

Zhen Zhen hugged her tightly, “No, no ……”

Shizuku blinked her eyes twice slowly, and for a moment suddenly said again in a false voice, “When I married Liu Zhi, I was so happy …… I thought I would live a fairy tale life ……”

It was rare that Wen wanted to pour out her bitterness.

Zhen Zhen held her still and didn’t make a sound to interrupt her mood.

Ah Wen pause for a moment to continue to say: “Before the birth of DouDou, are still good, about to give birth to DouDou, his mother came over, said to come to wait for my month, I was in the heart of the heart can be touched. But doudou was born out of the day, I and doudou just out of the delivery room, just outside the door of the delivery room, in front of the nurse and other maternal family members, she threw up her hand to give liuzhi a slap, just because the nurse told her that doudou is a girl ……”

“The slap looked like it was on Liuzhi’s face, but it was actually on my face ……”

“I was shocked, my heart fell into an ice hole, the joy of being a first-time mom was gone, I was especially happy ……”

“Before Doudou was even a month old, she started pushing for a second child, writing letters and trying everything she could to urge her ……”

“I was planning to have a second child, so then I got pregnant with MiMi, which was a happy event, but because of her, I started to get anxious after I got pregnant, and my pregnancy reactions were extremely painful ……”

“When she gave birth to MiMi, her reaction was not as intense as when she gave birth to DouDou, but she told me with a look of disgust that the beggars on the roadside could give birth to a dozen or so, so hurry up and then give birth to that is it ……”

Wen suddenly laughed, laugh a moment to continue: “I do not want to give birth, but she rushed more than before, do not meet the time is okay, she just wrote a letter to urge, but as long as we meet, she will always Liu Zhi scolded to the head, scolded a lot of many difficult to listen to harsh words, I know that Liu Zhi heart of the pressure is also very big, so we discussed another to have a… …”

“In my heart, I thought that if I could have a son, all this would be solved, and we could live in peace, and it would be good. But also because of thinking so, the pregnancy was more anxious and painful, even to the point of some rejection ……”

“Can’t sleep …… can’t eat ……”

“Sister Zhen Zhen, I have not wanted you to know all these bad things about me, and I want you to think that I am living a good, good life, but I just can’t hold on now …… I’m so tired …… so tired… …”

Jen sniffled, “I know, I know all that. I know that you are very repressed and hard, I know that you have suffered a lot of grievances. Don’t keep everything to yourself, tell me when you’re wronged, I’ll always be there for you to rely on. Listen to your sister, go home with me, and I’ll make you a good meal, okay?”

Listening to Zhen Zhen say this, Ah Wen’s tears came down again.

The nanny was holding the wailing child next to her and had also cried her eyes out.

She choked and said, “God is unfair, why do you ask us women to suffer these sins!”

Without letting Wen cry more, Zhen Zhen took out her handkerchief to help her dry her tears and held her arm to help her up.

She helped Shizuku walk back along the riverbank, but within a few steps, Shizuku’s eyes rolled back in her head and her legs went limp, and she fell down again.

She fainted, and Zhen Zhen’s head was sweating with anxiety.

Nanny is also anxious, holding the child quickly said, “I go back to find someone.”

She held the child did not go far, just happened to run into Liu Zhi looking over.

Liu Zhi exchanged a few words with the nanny, and quickly ran over to the direction the nanny pointed out.

Seeing Zhen Zhen sitting on the ground and holding Wen in her arms, he rushed to Zhen Zhen and Wen, stooped down and picked up the fainted Wen, and without saying a word, ran up again at a fast pace.

Zhen Zhen couldn’t keep up with him, and after a few steps behind him, she began to pinch her waist and gasp for breath.

She was quite relieved to see Shizuku being carried away by Liu Zhi, and then she ran for a while and then walked for a while, alternating back to the compound in this way.

When she got home and realized that Liu Zhi hadn’t brought Shizuku back, Zhen Zhen went back to the hospital without stopping.

When Zhong Minfen asked her what had happened, she still didn’t stop to answer, pinched her waist and waved her hand at Zhong Minfen and left.

When she arrived at the hospital, she found Wen’s ward, where she was already lying on the bed with a hangnail.

She came into the ward with a big gasp and asked Liu Zhi, “How is Wen?”

Liu Zhi said, “Too weak.”

Zhen Zhen walked to the hospital bed and sat down, lowered her head and covered her face.

Covering her face for a while before her breath slowed down, she lowered her hand and opened her eyes, only to see Shizuku lying in the hospital bed with her eyelashes fluttering as she slowly woke up.

The two stared at each other for a moment, neither one speaking.

Then Shizuku slightly tugged at the corners of her mouth, looked at Jen and said in a false voice, “Sis, I want to eat grapes ……”

Zhen Zhen suddenly laughed out, her eyes also wet at the same time, she reached out to hold Ah Wen’s hand, nodded and said, “Good, sister go to buy for you ……”

The author has something to say:

Postpartum depression: changes in hormone levels after childbirth, physiological changes in a woman’s body, and conflicts with family members are all causes of postpartum depression