Chapter 80: The future

In the end, Huigen never said who Zhang Haiyan was, but I learned from Chengyuan that Zhang Haiyan was a little girl in the courtyard, and Huigen and Chengyuan were in the same courtyard.

This made me worry a little. Master Hui’s wish was for Huigen to become a great monk, but can a great monk have a mortal heart? I have seen monks drink and eat meat, but I have never seen a monk fall in love.

Although Huigen is still young and doesn’t understand the feelings of men and women, if she does, it’s at most a good impression, but if this continues?

After my master left, I found that it was really bad not to feel dependent. Everything had to be solved by myself. This is the price of growth. You always have to lose something, and then be forced step by step by these losses to grow, to take responsibility, and finally mature.

No wonder I was still immature at the age of 27. It turns out that I never got rid of my dependence on my master.

I lit a cigarette and leaned against the porch in a somewhat depressed mood, looking out at the night outside the porch. I always felt that my future was like the night outside, dark and unclear, with no direction.

I didn’t know when Ruoxue stood next to me and asked softly, “Are you upset about Huigen?”

I nodded. The understanding between Ru Xue and I was tacit and did not need to be spoken. With one look, she might be able to know what I was thinking.

“Nothing is gained without loss. If you don’t experience it, you can’t say you’ve seen it through and let it go. Chengyi, some things aren’t won by avoiding them, but by enduring them.

But my heart suddenly brightened. Yes, if Huigen had never experienced love between a man and a woman, and if he were to say that he had seen through it and let it go, that would definitely not be true. If Huigen really had the wisdom, then he would always find the right path, no matter what detours he experienced along the way.

Taoism emphasizes governing by inaction. In fact, I only then began to understand the meaning of inaction, which is that you should never deliberately avoid something and then decide on a certain direction. This is a shallow interpretation of inaction.

Only by doing nothing can we not destroy and not establish!

I really wanted to hug Ru Xue, because she always knew how to solve my problems and understand my confusion. But when I thought about our situation, I could only smile at Ru Xue and then turn away without saying anything.

Ru Xue had already turned away silently.

How helpless does one have to be in life to finally be able to see through a heart?

We stayed in the bamboo hut for almost a month, and during that time, we discussed the matter of finding a master almost every day.

Finally, after we decided what to do, we were faced with the prospect of going our separate ways.

Just as the masters devoted their lives to Kunlun, we are destined to devote our lives to it as well, which means that this matter cannot be accomplished in a short time, or even in a year or two.

During this long period of time, we will need to collect a lot of clues, and we will need some money to support ourselves and continue our practice. We will also need to prepare for the possibility of traveling all over China in the future.

In addition, we also have some responsibilities. Unlike the generation of our masters, who were mostly orphans, we have parents and relatives, and we all have some responsibilities.

Therefore, we also have to take on some responsibilities before we can set off on a long journey.

Master left at the age of 81, and we can’t wait that long. We have agreed on a time, and after that time, we will gather together like Master and his disciples, and then embark on this journey without regrets.

But if there is a major clue in the meantime, we must also go together to explore it.

This is our agreement.

It was at this moment that I suddenly remembered that Master had always disappeared in sections, was he looking for clues to determine the answer? Especially that three-year period! And what was the writing that Master had written on Master Hui’s hand at that time? I guessed it might be Kunlun.

Of course, this clue was not found by chance. We discussed it for a month, and of course we also discussed the method of finding clues. However, the workload was too great, involving all kinds of people, a large amount of secret documents, and some dangerous places. We had to take things one step at a time.

First, we need to find a job that can support ourselves. I am also responsible for Huigen. We all rely on Master. This time, everyone except for the eldest brother needs to be independent.

The eldest brother was decided by Master Li at the beginning, to inherit his work in the relevant department. This is also the rule of this lineage. The descendants of the two lines of fate and divination must serve and contribute to the general trend.

I don’t understand the reason for this, just as I don’t understand why there are so many people from the Destiny and Divination line who stayed by the emperor’s side in history. On the contrary, people from other lines preferred to live freely in the human world. However, that was after all the business of other lines, and I didn’t want to go to the bottom of it. In short, the rules set by the master were just to be followed.

As for us, we could actually enter the relevant departments, but after considering it, we all decided not to. Chengzhen was used to being free with his uncle Wang, and Chengxin felt that the masters of the medical pulse were at ease in the folk world, and there were many folk prescriptions worth studying.

My thoughts are similar to those of Chengxin. I don’t want to be bound by anything when I’m looking for clues. Besides, the pillars of the relevant departments are the older generation, and I’m part of the younger generation. I can’t really make a big difference. I’m already a person who has been recorded in the relevant departments. If I’m needed, of course I’ll be obliged to come forward.

The future direction is basically set, but what do I want to do? I was still a bit confused until I packed my bags and found a treasured booklet that suddenly gave me direction.

This booklet is a notebook that my master gave me when I left him that year. It records some of his clients, and he also took me with him to establish a certain network of contacts. Isn’t this just arranging for me in the future?

In fact, I am not incapable of doing anything else, but I have followed my master for so many years, and I think in my heart that I should do this.

I think my fellow apprentices will also do their own jobs.

The Bamboo Grove was locked up by me, just like the most precious memory in my heart was locked up by me. I think I won’t be able to come back here for a long time, or I dare not come back here, for fear of touching some memories and being sad.

Uncle Li’s grave is here, but we Taoists don’t pay much attention to annual worship. I came back to pay my respects to Uncle Li, but I don’t think I’ll come every year. The more intimate this bamboo hut is, the more I can’t touch it.

We parted at the town station, and once again we were going to different places. I didn’t go out of my way to say goodbye to Ru Xue. In my life, I’ve grown tired of all goodbyes, and I didn’t want to face the goodbye with Ru Xue.

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Chengyuan, Qinhuai, and Huigen boarded the train to Beijing. Huigen still had to go to school, so I had to take him! During the holidays, I would take him to find Master Jueyuan, and then decide whether to transfer schools or not.

Qin Huai will naturally return to Beijing.

As for Chengyuan, she told me that she wanted to finish her university studies quickly. In addition, Yuanyi didn’t want to stay in Beijing anymore. He could now take care of himself, and the relevant department had arranged a special nanny for him, so Chengyuan would be much more at ease.

After sending Huigen to Beijing, where should I go next? I have some clarity, but I am also confused. I can’t stay with my family very often, so I am destined to be a wanderer. Without a lover or a master, I can only be sure that after going to Beijing, I will stay with my parents for a while, and the rest will have to be left to fate.

I thought I would finish my business in Beijing quickly, but I didn’t expect to meet someone here that I had never thought of.

His appearance surprised me, but now that I think about it, he was bound to appear.