Chapter 150: Ru Xue (Part 2)

Ru Xue obviously did not expect me to make such a request, and she was stunned for a moment… Perhaps in her heart, this feeling had already become a taboo… She was such a stubborn girl, and she would force herself to continue, believing that it would only hurt.

Thinking about this, I felt a little sorry for Ruoxue… She always forces herself like this… guarding the village, and finally guarding the dragon tomb… How much has she endured? Not less than me.

If it were in the past, according to my twisted personality, I would have also guarded myself from crossing the line like Ru Xue.

So, looking at Ru Xue’s dazed expression, I suddenly smiled… I no longer suppressed all my feelings and tenderness, just looked at Ru Xue like this, and then suddenly sat on the rock, patted the side, and said to Ru Xue, “Our lives are actually so short. In a month, there will be a battle to the death… Ru Xue, Chen Chengyi may disappear at any time, so why are you so stingy with a song? You can think of me as an old friend or a friend… please sing another song for me.”

Ru Xue looked at me deeply. At that moment, the smile on my face was met with a hint of pain in her heart. She didn’t say anything, and in the end, she sat down next to me.

Many years ago, we often sat side by side like this… Now, on this clear, starry night, she is closer to me, and I feel as if I’m dreaming… I don’t want to think about anything else, so I naturally put my hand on her waist, then slightly pushed, and pulled her into my arms.

Ruxue’s body stiffened instantly. She whispered, “Chen Chengyi, have you forgotten our promise?”

“Ru Xue, don’t move, just like this.” I didn’t answer her, but looked at the sky and water blending into one another in the distance, and whispered these words.

Ruxue’s body was still stiff, but she subconsciously didn’t move.

I didn’t care what she was thinking at the moment, but I whispered, “You may think I’m being rude, or that I’ve forgotten our promise… I just want to say that I haven’t forgotten our promise, and the reason I haven’t forgotten it is because I haven’t forgotten you, and I haven’t forgotten me…”

At this point, I couldn’t say anymore… I’ve known Ru Xue for so many years, and I’ve never said I love you to her so directly. I still can’t say it now, but she should understand what I mean… because I could feel her body shaking slightly.

Then I felt her struggle a little, and then she said to me, “Chengyi, whether you forget or not, the result is already predetermined. Why do you have to?”

“Ru Xue, what if Chen Chengyi is about to die? Are you still willing to insist on this? Why don’t you let me have a dream at the end?” I looked at Ru Xue, and a hint of sadness appeared in my eyes… I didn’t say anything specifically, but I believe she understood my eyes.

“What are you talking about? After a big battle, you think you are destined to…” Ru Xue has always been cold, but at this time, she couldn’t help but look at me with a slight anger.

I smiled and said, “No matter what, whether it’s a big war or not, let me dream… From the time you left until now, I’ve forgotten how many years it’s been, because I don’t want to remember these things… I don’t want to talk about how I miss you. For so many years, I’ve hated and resented… because you were so willing to not see each other, but in the end you still loved me… whether it’s to celebrate for me or to comfort me, are you really willing to not even give me a dream?”

Ru Xue looked at me and suddenly stopped talking. The next moment, she leaned lightly on my shoulder, just as she did back then…

“Chengyi, you won’t be without it… you won’t be…” I didn’t expect Ruoxue to lean on my shoulder like this. All kinds of emotions in my heart suddenly came together, and before they could subside, Ruoxue had already gently grasped my hand and whispered to me.

The next moment, I wanted to say something… she gently covered my mouth with her hand and then softly sang, “Half cold, half warm autumn… it is comfortable next to you, quietly watching the light dance… the red leaves in the wind…”

Once again, the familiar song echoed in my ears. After so many years, I finally heard the sound that had haunted my dreams and soul.

The night is beautiful… The night wind blows across the lake, causing ripples on the surface. The starlight dances with the lake, so beautiful it takes your breath away… If I could, I would really like to freeze time at this moment, never to have a future… Unfortunately, who will time stop for?

The song was over, and in the midst of the lake and mountains, Ru Xue and I did not move for a long time. The night wind might be cold, but we could still warm each other, couldn’t we?

But a dream is ultimately just a dream. If I had a choice, I would choose to end it on my own initiative, so that my heart wouldn’t hurt so much. I originally planned to tell Ru Xue about Dao Tongzi and Wei Chaoyu, because it seems that Ru Xue knows nothing about it.

Some painful memories, if only one person remembers and knows, that is enough… Why should Ru Xue suffer because of this? Even after Chen Chengyi disappeared, she still didn’t know that in addition to the reason for my strong spiritual awareness, there was also the reason that she had brought her mark to this world.

Thinking this way, I gently let go of Ru Xue and stood up… I said with a pretense of being cool: “It’s late, Ru Xue… I have to go back. Thank you for the dancing light. This dream is very beautiful. At least in the dream, besides the starlight, it’s all you. The night wind is very cold. Don’t stay here for too long.”

After saying this, I turned around and left… With only three days left in my life, perhaps I can be a little more reckless, but my recklessness does not mean that I want to give Ru Xue the pain of a lifetime. If she senses anything, the most likely person to discover that Tao Tongzi is not me will be Ru Xue.

Because Dao Tongzi would never look at Ru Xue and smile like a child.

But every time I took two steps, my sleeve was pulled. I turned around and saw that it was Ru Xue who was pulling my sleeve. I couldn’t understand why Ru Xue was doing this, so I couldn’t help but ask, “Ru Xue…?”

But she didn’t say a word, and suddenly she crashed into my arms and hugged me tightly.

I was stunned for a few seconds before I realized what had happened and hugged her tightly. She didn’t look up, but buried her head in my arms and said, “Chengyi, the years in the Dragon Tomb are without time because they are cold and plain. I have no regrets, but I still need support, and the one who has always supported me is your presence. I may have stubbornly isolated us from each other, because in reality, even if I wasn’t stubborn, we were already destined to part. Once I entered the Dragon Tomb and abandoned the mortal world, I was a person who had already abandoned the mortal world. How could I burden you?”

“Ru Xue.” I didn’t know what to say, so I just held the person in my arms a little tighter.

“Chengyi, I’m afraid to see you… But you can’t live without me! As I said earlier, you are the reason I exist… I feel full of courage when I think that you are alive somewhere in the world. So, you must never say that Chen Chengyi can’t live without you.” Ru Xue’s voice was soft, and even though her feelings were so strong, she expressed them lightly.

My heart was torn apart. How could I possibly answer her? It seemed that fate could no longer be reversed… but Ru Xue didn’t seem to need an answer from me. It seemed that my silence already gave her an answer.

She looked up at me and suddenly touched my lips gently… I felt the cold tears, and at this moment, I couldn’t help but hold her tightly… and then kissed her back.

It had been many years since then, and feelings are not something that can be suppressed just because you and I have agreed to it.

In the entanglement with Ru Xue, I seemed to have forgotten the time… Having such a kiss was like a complete fulfillment of life… In the end, Ru Xue gently pushed me away, then turned and left without looking back, only a sentence drifting in the wind: “Tonight, it was also a dream for me.”

The taste of Ru Xue still lingered on my lips and tongue… I looked at her back and didn’t call out to her. I was grateful that she expressed her feelings for me at the end of my life and gave me a sense of completeness. Nothing mattered anymore, including how she appeared twice for no reason. I didn’t want an answer.

I shouldn’t have left her with pain… Even if she lived a good life in the cold days of the Dragon Tomb, it wouldn’t be a consolation to me.

The wind blew away my sighs, and it was already late at night.