Chapter 160: Meeting Under the Moon

I didn’t want to hear any more, and Lushan didn’t want to say any more either.

However, since he had decided to talk about it today, he had to face his own wounds. After a few minutes of heavy breathing, he finally spoke again: “Chengyi, I’m afraid I’m going to cry.”

“If you want to cry, then cry. A man who sheds tears is not necessarily not a real man.” I said calmly. At this time, I felt that my attitude could give Lu Shan strength.

“No, it’s not that I’m afraid of crying. It’s just that, where I come from, there’s a saying that you shouldn’t cry too much for someone who has passed away, because it will make them feel attached to this world and prevent them from entering the cycle of reincarnation. Although Pema can’t reincarnate… my wish is always the same, I hope she can reincarnate. She was so kind, and once her soul is liberated, there will always be something good waiting for her… so I keep telling myself not to cry too much for Pema.” Lushan lit another cigarette while he was talking.

Now his emotions must rely on these things to stabilize.

I also had a cigarette because I knew that Lushan would definitely say it, but it would definitely be a tragedy. I also needed a little strength to face it, even if it was the strength of a cigarette.

“Baima was made into a living instrument… The drum you saw, the skin of the drum is the skin of Baima… The soul power of Baima is sealed inside, and the soul will of Baima is suppressed by secret methods. Chengyi, do you understand now?” After Lu Shan had smoked almost half of the cigarette, he finally spoke to me and told me the truth.

Although I had expected it, my hand still couldn’t help but tremble a few times, and the cigarette fell out of my fingers, burning my chest… I quickly picked it up and let out a long ‘sigh’, as if only this pain could suppress the shock and anger in my heart.

Such a beautiful girl was made into a living weapon? And what kind of torture did Lushan have to face? Carrying this drum around with him every day? I had only thought that Pema’s soul was sealed inside the drum, after all, I had seen it… Today, through Lushan’s account, I learned that the truth was so cruel, and although I had already prepared myself mentally.

“In fact, Baima knew she would be made into a living instrument, but at that time I didn’t know how those Lagan Temple liars brainwashed Baima… She was so kind that she felt that by sacrificing herself in this way, she could make a group of people feel the power of heaven, so she resolutely decided to do this. It was just… it was just the day before the sacrifice that she found me.” Lushan had already said the most painful part, and it was obvious that her breathing had become smoother, but another kind of anger was irrepressible.

“Baima volunteered?” I can’t imagine Baima would voluntarily endure such a thing… I don’t want to think about that cruel term, but in fact it was “living sacrifice,” which is unimaginable pain for ordinary people.

“Yes, she volunteered… Baima’s kindness and mercy are not understood by ordinary people. Later, I learned that the people of the Lagan Monastery had deceived her… If she could make a living sacrifice, it would open a heavenly path for the suffering people! She almost didn’t think about it and agreed directly… It was just that she came to me the night before the living sacrifice. Lushan took another puff of smoke, and his voice became painful again.

“She came to you. Why didn’t you run away with her? Could you just stand by and watch this happen?” I couldn’t help but ask Lushan.

“How could I possibly agree? And at the time, I didn’t even know about the grand ceremony… The most crucial and final secret ceremony, which only a few people attended, was the living sacrifice of Pema, turning her into a living sacrifice… And the night Pema came to me, she didn’t say a word to me.” Lu Shan’s breathing became a little short.

“Then why did she come to you…? What was it for? And how could she come to you?”

“We have been together for five years, so we naturally have a language that only we understand… That time, she also left a line of words in my room, which was very obscure, but I knew… that she was asking me to meet her outside the Lagan Temple… I don’t know how excited I was at that time… and when the night finally came, I left the temple, and at that time, I was already free to leave and enter the temple.” Lushan said in a low voice.

That night… was a beautiful night, not as beautiful as tonight, with the stars in the sky, but there was a beautiful full moon.

The moon on the plateau is always so big on a clear day… as if only this size can reflect the artistic conception of the reunion of man and moon.

Lushan and Pema stood silently on the summit of the mountain where the Lakang Temple was located. The silhouettes of the two of them were silhouetted by the moonlight, and the wind blew their clothes. Lushan once thought this was a dream, a dream he had hoped for all his life… he couldn’t believe it was real.

The white horse in front of him was less than three meters away, and it was no longer wearing the solemn dress of a holy woman, but had returned to its very simple attire, just as it had been when they first met. The familiar smile between her eyebrows and the kindness in her eyes were just as dazzling as they had been back then. Even though everything was just as it had been, at that time, there was a great distance between Lu Shan and the white horse in his heart.

This distance made him feel powerless, thinking that it was all just a dream.

“Back then, the last thing I thought was that you would really find the Lagan Monastery and find me.” Bai Ma spoke softly… The moonlight shone faintly on her, and at that moment, Lushan even felt faintly that she would soon leave the mountain top and float away towards the moon… For many years, without close contact, she had become even more sacred.

Even at that time, Lushan was also a cultivator who was used to all kinds of miracles… It took a lot of effort to calm down the fluctuations in his heart that he dared not profane, and he said, “But what if I find it? Our distance has not been shortened because we have met, but has become farther and farther away with the passage of time.”

“It’s not far… it’s just that I’m the holy woman of the Lagan Temple, and you’re the cultivator of the Lagan Temple… don’t you understand that getting close to me will bring you disaster?” Bai Ma said softly.

Lushan was stunned. He had never thought of this aspect… he was only puzzled, but he was a smart man. As he learned more about the Lakang Temple, he thought about it carefully and realized that it might really be the case… it turned out that Pema was concerned about himself?

Some misunderstandings cannot be resolved simply because a person is smart. When emotions are involved, nothing makes sense. Even the smartest person can be blinded by their own emotions, unless the person they love and care about personally says something, otherwise the emotions in their heart will always be sour, and this sourness is not hatred.

“But I’m not afraid of any disaster… a day in heaven is more blissful than countless years in hell… if I can be close to you, what does disaster matter?” Lu Shan’s heart was filled with great comfort, and in the excitement, he couldn’t help but confess his feelings once again.

“But I care, do you understand?” Bai Ma suddenly turned her head and looked deeply at Lu Shan, and said these words.

The words were simple… but the affection behind them was already apparent. This was the first time that Baima had said such ambiguous words to Lushan. Lushan, looking at Baima’s sincere eyes in the moonlight, couldn’t help but be stunned… it was like a dream had really come true, and the first reaction of a person was not ecstasy, but simply disbelief.

However, Baima smiled at him… This smile was not full of that kind of holy light, but rather like laughing at him for being a fool… Baima was flawless, but this was the first time that Lu Shan felt that she was so full of human “interest,” so close to himself.

Lushan couldn’t help but take a step forward, and Baima also took a step towards Lushan… Under the moonlight, Baima took the initiative to lean into Lushan’s arms: “When we first met as young people, we had no suspicions for five years… At that time, our hearts were pure, but we were not ignorant of love… You are smart, tall, handsome, brave, and most importantly, you have a tough heart… When you appeared in front of me again, I knew why I had been thinking about you for so long. I also realized that although I am a holy woman, I am not a real god or Buddha, and I can’t always see through the word “love” in my heart… Even if I have more to pursue, I don’t want to deny that you have come close to my heart.”

Two lines of hot tears fell from Lu Shan’s eyes… He had never thought that Baima would say these words to him in his whole life… She was in his arms, but he didn’t dare to hold her tightly for fear that if he did, she would disappear like a dream and then disappear… Then he would fall from heaven to hell.

“No matter what happens in life, there are always things that can’t be done at the same time, and things that are regrettable… But the choice is still to continue. I owe you a beautiful beginning of a relationship, and I will make it up to you tonight… Then, your life will continue. I heard that you are a promising cultivator… I hope you will have a glorious day, and at that time, please take care of Tao Bai for me.”

Baima did not leave Lushan’s embrace, but leaned on him and said these words in a low voice, which made Lushan’s heart tighten all of a sudden.