Chapter 81: Profanity

But Master Liu didn’t seem to want to explain this person in detail. He said wearily, “This involves Shen Xing’s personal affairs, so I won’t say more. In the other room at the end of this corridor, you can go and see Shen Xing.”

When I heard this, Cheng Xin stood up and left, and I quickly followed him. Standing in the hallway, I grabbed Cheng Xin and said, “Cheng Xin, I know that Shen Xing is a very good girl, and it’s normal for men to like her! But in the end, time is short, and I hope you can let go.”

Chengxin’s eyes were a little red, caused by the exhaustion of several days of insomnia. He looked at me with bloodshot eyes, then leaned against the wall, and then his hoarse voice from fatigue and sadness entered my ears: “Chengyi, Ruoxue is perfect, right? So, I was also attracted to Ruoxue once, and I had a good feeling, but that was just attraction, just a distant liking, I never thought of owning her! Because Ru Xue is like the clouds in the sky to me, very beautiful, but also very far away…”

When I think of Ru Xue, I am silent. I had the same feeling when I first saw Ru Xue. She was beautiful, but she was also very far away… It was just that she and I could not escape our fate. Just like the song says, you were careless at first, and I was young and inexperienced. The relationship in the mortal world was only because of the life that was rushing by without saying a word…

I felt a little sad, but Brother Chengxin continued to say, “But what is Shen Xing to me? She is the happiness I thought I could easily get! She is very real in my life, unlike Ruoxue, who is so far away. She is beautiful, smart, restrained, and tough. She has all the qualities of the girl I like. Most importantly, I pity her. When I hear that she is alone in the old forest, I am still curious about her. People say that liking someone starts with curiosity, and if you are still curious about her when you like her, it will become love! Chengyi, I don’t know how to explain it to you clearly. Do you know? When I was a child, I lived with my master. After he passed away, I felt a deep loneliness that went to the bone…”

I looked up and said, “I know!” Yes, loneliness that penetrates the marrow… and sadness!

“But in this situation, a girl you like appears, and her appearance gives you hope that you will not be lonely in the future. It is not strange that liking turns into deep love! I just don’t want to say it out loud. I’m just like you. I’ve been lonely for so long that I’m afraid of getting hurt, so I’ve been hiding it… Don’t use time to measure my feelings. On the last day, I spent time with her, laughing together, walking the streets together, drinking together, and watching the sky together. It was like a dream. She was cruel. When my dream was at its most beautiful, she let me wake up hard But I don’t want to wake up, so… so… I want to keep her. Don’t give me any big ideas. I really want to…” At the end, Chengxin’s words sounded like a soliloquy. In fact, I know the five of us very well, because we all have the same wounds. Otherwise, don’t let us get involved in relationships. Once we get involved, it’s already very deep.

He may seem to be a playboy, but he is actually quite popular with girls because he is gentle and warm-hearted.

I can’t say no now, because this weak Cheng Xin Ge is the first thing I saw. I just kept quiet for a while and said, “Let’s go and see Shen Xing… We are not lucky, you are dying, and I am leaving, but we have to face it, don’t we?”

Chengxin didn’t say anything else, and followed me into the room at the end of the hallway.

Stepping into this room, I thought it should be the cleanest and warmest room in this building.

A small, neat bookshelf, a clean closet, a writing desk with some pretty knick-knacks, and a floral curtain in the same pastoral style as the bedsheets…

There was also a big doll on the bed, and a photo frame on the bedside table. I didn’t have the third eye, so I hadn’t seen Shen Xing yet.

When Brother Chengxin walked in, he was a little uneasy, so I sat him down on the small double sofa next to me.

I didn’t rush to open my third eye, but instead walked over and picked up the photo frame. Inside was a photo of two people in their prime, smiling so brightly. One of them was Shen Xing.

At that time, she was more youthful than the one we saw. She was hugging the neck of the other person in the photo and smiling so happily. Her eyes and eyebrows were full of happiness…

The other person in the photo was a man, clean-cut and gentle, wearing glasses. Compared to Shen Xing’s unassuming happiness, he was slightly shy, and his smile was much more reserved. In the photo, his eyes were still on Shen Xing, and his eyes were filled with love and tenderness.

Just by looking at the photo, you can tell that the two people in the photo are very much in love.

“Can I see the photo?” Cheng Xin said in a low voice.

I don’t know if the happiness engraved in this photo will also be a kind of harm to Brother Chengxin, but we are from the same family as Old Li, and we have long understood that life is not just about good things. Brother Chengxin should not be so fragile, so I just hesitated a little and handed the photo to Brother Chengxin.

Chengxin took the photo and looked at it greedily. After a short while, he took off his glasses and let the tears drip onto the glass of the photo frame. After a long time, he said, “He seems like a good person. He seems to love Shen Xing very much. Is this the hurdle I can’t get over?”

I didn’t answer, but at that moment, a voice seemed to enter our minds at the same time: “Yes, he is the one I can’t get over. His name is Guan Rui, and he is the most important person in my 27 years of life. The year he died, we were about to get married.”

This is the unique way of communication of the spirit body. It was still the familiar voice of Shen Xing.

At that moment, I opened my third eye and saw Shen Xing for the first time. Under my third eye, she was still wearing the light beige trench coat she was wearing the day she died. She looked very fresh and sat on the bed with a calm expression.

When Chengxin heard Shen Xing’s voice, he collapsed. He stood up immediately, tears rolling down his face. Then he sat down again, holding his head, crying in a low voice, “Shen Xing, where are you? I can’t see you…”

I sat down next to Brother Chengxin and patted his shoulder to comfort him. I pointed to the side of the bed and whispered to Brother Chengxin, “She’s there. Don’t get excited.”

“Yes, can you two big kids be a little more calm and act like a mature man… especially you, Su Chengxin, in my heart you are not such a fragile person, it really makes people worry, it makes me feel like I have hurt you deeply, do you want me to leave with regrets?” Shen Xing spoke.

Chengxin quickly dried his tears. Deep down, he was also kind-hearted. He wanted to keep Shen Xing, but Shen Xing had just expressed his intention to leave, and he didn’t want Shen Xing to leave unhappy.

We were silent for a while, and in the end, it was Shen Xing who spoke first: “In fact, Master Liu has a way to let you see me. Otherwise, how could I possibly speak to you so clearly with my little ability? Unless you were in a dream, I had a dream! But I refused. When I finally chose to leave, I didn’t want you to worry about me any more. Su Chengxin, do you understand?”

Brother Chengxin shook his head and said, “I don’t understand, and I don’t want to understand! I can make you happy again. Why do you insist on choosing this way?”

“Haha, actually I don’t know if my choice is right or wrong, but I know I’m too extreme. Don’t look at me as being rational, I’m actually very extreme at heart… because I’m an orphan, I grew up in an orphanage, so I’m very extreme and very defensive. I can’t allow my cherished feelings to be desecrated.” Shen Xing’s voice came faintly.

I didn’t say anything, but I saw her expression suddenly become sad. I didn’t plan to explain this to Brother Chengxin, as it would only make him feel worse. Besides, it was also Shen Xing’s wish to not let Brother Chengxin have any more worries.

I was silent, but Cheng Xin Ge’s voice was full of anger: “Why is it blasphemy? How is it blasphemy? I don’t understand, I really don’t understand you!”

In fact, I understood what Shen Xing meant, but only because I was not a party to the situation and was not confused by it.

“Because… because I found that I would like you, or even fall in love with you in the end.” Shen Xing’s voice began to sound sad.

Chengxin fell off the sofa and stared at the empty bed, saying, “Why? Why is it blasphemy for you to like me?”

After saying that, Cheng Xin Ge excitedly picked up the photo and asked, “Because of him?”