Chapter 001 – A Chance to Start Over

Zi Shan opened her eyes, everything in her eyes was so familiar, so familiar that her eyes stung a little. She blinked her eyes, well, this seems to be her home, how could it not be familiar?

She had just woken up from sleep and was a little bit confused, after gently shaking her head she still had a strange feeling in her heart.

She didn’t wait to think about it, in fact, she didn’t think it was necessary to think about it, when the phone rang, interrupting her thoughts. She reached over the couch and picked up the phone, rubbing her neck with one hand as she softly said, “Hello.” She wasn’t an urban native, but that didn’t stop her from growing up to be an educated woman.

“What are you calling me about this afternoon, I’m in a meeting and can’t hear you.” From the phone came a familiar but distant voice: “You also called three times, do you know that it makes me embarrassed in front of the old boss ah. Well, go back and talk about it, I’ll be home, just have something to say to you.”

The person on the phone also hung up the phone without waiting for Zi Shan to speak, while Zi Shan stayed for a long time before muttering, “Home?” She finally realized why she had a strange feeling that this place was no longer her home a long time ago, I should say, it was no longer her home two or three years ago.

She swam around because she was so shocked that she didn’t think at all about the impatient, reproachful tone of the person on the phone, “It can’t be, it can’t be, how can it be?” She pressed the couch, it was indeed the couch she had handpicked back then, in the purple color she had always loved.

A sudden pain shot through her head, making her realize even in the moment of holding her head that she was by no means dreaming. What was she doing before she woke up? She thought back hard but could remember nothing.

The only thing she could be sure of was that before she woke up, she was never in this house, nor was she sitting on this couch, nor could she have received a phone call from that man and heard him mention the word “home”.

The headache passed and she realized that the phone in her hand was the Motorola she had used a few years ago, not the Sony Ericsson she had used since then, and that there was a piece of paper on the couch, a crumpled A4-sized piece of paper.

She slowly reached out and picked up the piece of paper, seeing the lines of writing on it, her eyes moist, memories are like the water behind the gate, in the heavy gate opened can not wait, rumbling out. It was a piece of paper that she would never forget, and it was even more unlikely that she would forget it today.

Only, all of this is already in the past, no matter how many midnight dreams she has cried her heart out and regretted hitting her head against the wall, those decisions that were done wrong can no longer be changed. Like, right now?

How could this be possible? She looked at the paper in her hand with some confusion.

The paper was the hospital’s diagnosis, which clearly stated that she had congenital heart disease. She couldn’t understand a lot of the terms on it, and even now she still couldn’t, but the doctor’s words were still fresh in her mind – there was something inside her heart that hadn’t grown all the way through, preventing it from closing completely.

But it wasn’t very serious, so she didn’t feel anything special for many years, but after she was pregnant with her child, the burden on her heart became heavier and made her condition visible, but it didn’t draw any attention from her or anyone around her.

Coupled with the subsequent years after giving birth to a child, she was busy with work and children, the heavy burden made her heart more and more bad, often some shortness of breath chest tightness and so on, and sometimes there is some slight bruising lips, but as long as the rest for a while, it will be all right.

Therefore, she has never taken it to heart. If it is not a few days ago because of the old home phone, all of a sudden fainted on the ground she would not go to the hospital to check.

She didn’t wait for the ambulance to come, but was woken up by the doctor downstairs, but she still followed the doctor’s advice to go to the hospital, and the reason why she fell asleep on the sofa was because the words “congenital heart disease” on the diagnosis certificate was shocked – she remembered that. This is what she remembers.

She thought that congenital disease was a very serious disease, and the fact that it was a heart problem made it even more serious, and the doctor told her to go to the hospital as soon as possible to have an operation made her even more frightened. She called her husband right after she got the diagnosis, but she couldn’t get through.

Her husband, at that time, he was still her heaven, her earth, her everything, so when she encountered such a big thing, the first person she thought of was him. Even just hearing him say a few words to her could calm her down quite a bit, but when she needed him the most, not to mention the person even the voice could not be heard.

Never thought that the body will have such a big problem, suddenly she was scared to six, back home sitting on the sofa only know daze, want to wait for her husband to come back to discuss when to go to the hospital to do surgery, just in the process of waiting, she unconsciously fell asleep.

Zixan looked at the paper in her hand, reading and re-reading it, she couldn’t help but wring herself again, the pain made her grunt out, making sure she was really awake, she, back a few years ago? Looking to the calendar laid out on the table, her eyes widened, really back a few years!

Back to the day that she had regretted and hated so many times – maybe it was not too late?

She violently scratched the paper into a heavy ball and closed her eyes, in order not to let the tears flow. After many years, she had gotten used to smiling, and the more pain she felt, the more she had to smile, never letting the tears flow.

If she wasn’t strong, who would she be weak to? No, even if she died she would never let anyone see her tears again.

Now she needed to think about what she was going to do next. There wasn’t much time, she was in an emotional state, her heart was in turmoil, there was too much unbelievability, and all those real, past years in her life, all the sweet and sour left for her, it wasn’t easy to calm down, even if she knew she had to now.

Even if she knew that she had to be calm now, not for anything else, but for the sake of her child, for the sake of her baby, who was still only a few years old, she also had to be calm.

Thinking of her child, Zi Shan stood up violently. Yes, her daughter, her daughter! Her daughter was alive and well now! She clasped her hands around herself, tears welled up again nearly rolling out of her eyes, and between trembling lips she murmured thanksgiving to the heavens, “God has eyes, God has eyes.”

For the sake of her daughter, and not to make it all over again. She unfolded the confirmation of the diagnosis again, slowly sat back on the sofa, desperately telling herself – to be able to start over again is the gift of God, absolutely can not waste such a good opportunity, once done wrong, never can be wrong again.

Suddenly, there came the sound of the door lock gently turning, and then the door opened and came in a tall and handsome man, her Zisan’s husband, Feng Dayong.

Dayong saw his wife on the sofa who was looking at him with unblinking eyes frowning slightly, a wave of disgust surging up in his heart. He could no longer tolerate this woman, literally no longer. He was fed up with everything about her, her nagging, her immaturity, her lack of growth, her mannerisms, her dress – in short, just fed up with everything about her.

“What did you call me about?” Even though he was sick of the woman in front of him, he still hadn’t forgotten that she was the one who had accompanied him since he had come from nothing, so he asked instead of being busy with his own business. He had always been a person who knew how to return favors, and he certainly was at the moment.

Zixan looked at her much younger husband, well it seemed that everything was true, she had really gone back many years, and it was only now that she truly believed it.

“Nothing important,” she pushed the confirmations on the couch gently behind her, “I thought you said you had something to tell me, what is it?” Even if she already knew what it was that he was going to say, her heart shrunk into a ball the moment the question came out of her mouth.

She couldn’t forgive him.

Dayong did not expect Zishan to speak so simply this time, did not ask him if the road was good, did not ask him if he was thirsty or hungry, did not ask him if the company was something …… to do, this time not shivering at all directly asked him what things to say, snapped his mouth as if it was blocked by something, and it was somewhat difficult to speak the prepared words.

Of course, he came to the road has thought clearly, no, should say in his “business trip” three days of time, has thought very clearly, just before entering the door, he did not feel that those who will have to say out words, what is difficult to open, but now he can not say that those who want to open the door to the mountain words.

“Oh, by the way, you are going to the hospital today to get the results, how is it?” Involuntarily he asked such a sentence, in order to try to let himself be able to take a breath, no matter what, he definitely had to make things clear today.

Although he was a person who knew how to return favors, he would not put his whole life on the line for favors, he was also a human being, and he also had the right to pursue his own happiness.

Zi Shan was stunned to hear this, the Feng Dayong in her memory had never asked her such a sentence, but rather just laid things out and then told her – I want a divorce. What’s going on, right now is a little different from what happened originally?

She looked at Feng Dayong: “Been there, no big deal, just need to do a surgery, you sit down.” She looked at her husband who stood stiffly after hanging up his clothes: “You’d better talk about your business first, you’re busy, time is short, the matter of having an operation, we have to go to the hospital and talk to the doctor.”

Feng Dayong coughed twice and sat down opposite his wife, looked around, “Surgery ah, these days surgery is like taking cold medicine, tomorrow and the day after tomorrow I will take the time to find a good chief surgeon.” The matter of his wife’s fainting was dismissed in this way, because he was not meant to be concerned about her in the first place.

But he still didn’t know how to speak next, he looked around, “I’ll pick up the baby later, let’s go out for dinner.” The words came out of his mouth he really wanted to give himself two slaps in the face, he had to know that he didn’t have time to accompany Zisan and the baby to dinner tonight, what’s wrong with him today, he always says the wrong thing.

He couldn’t help but glance at his wife, always feeling that there was something wrong with her today that made him say the wrong thing one after another.

Zishan did not think that he would accompany his daughter and himself to dinner, thinking of the person he would accompany tonight could not help but sneer, “You, really have time to accompany your daughter to dinner?” The current him still loved his daughter, it was just that this love had since become thin.