Chapter 070: To be or not to be?

In the distance, the flower racks cascaded, although the season is now the end of summer and the beginning of fall, but the weather is still very hot, the plants are still very strong, in those thick or light emerald green, hidden in the middle of a person.

Green is one of Zixan’s favorite color, because this color can remind her of hope, vitality and so on, but she didn’t think that one day a piece of green will cover and hide a person she disliked the most, that person’s clothes are also light green, plus Zixan didn’t think that Li Yaoshu will come out to walk with her, it is a different purpose, so she didn’t take a closer look at the past, and that’s why she let that person hide until now.

“Yang Guoying?” Zi Shan looked at her, the tears that were still trying to flow out again were suddenly all gone, she was not going to let Yang Guoying see her tears, she would never say a single word to Yang Guoying even if she was bitter, tired, hurt or in pain. Because once upon a time when she wanted to say to Yang Guoying, Yang Guoying didn’t give her a chance, and now she likewise doesn’t want to give Yang Guoying another chance to hear.

Her business was her business and had nothing to do with Yang Guoying.

Zishan looked at Li Yaoxu, with twelve points of disappointment: “I thought ……” she said here after a long inhale, her tears can only be seen by her closest relatives, and obviously Li Yaoxu is not enough for that qualification, as for the sentence did not finish the words, there is really no need to finish it. There is no need to finish it.

If Li Yao Xu would really understand, he wouldn’t have arranged this meeting between Yang Guoying and her, and now that Li Yao Xu obviously didn’t understand, it was useless to say more. Zi Shan thought she might as well save some more breath, not wanting to say anything more to Li Yaowu, she had already said too much in the past, and had just changed her mind about Li Yaowu, thinking that her father finally understood, finally knew, but she hadn’t thought that Li Yaowu’s treatment of her was good, but that he actually had an agenda.

She is hoping to have a father, do not need how great a father, also do not require Li Yao Xu’s heart, eyes only her, as long as there is she can have, such as the most usual kind of father can be.

If Li Yao Xu can not do she will not have much disappointment, after all, the number of disappointment is too much, more to her age has been accustomed to, Li Yao Xu can not take her as a daughter, Li Yao Xu can even only love Li Rongqi them, but Zi Shan can not accept Li Yao Xu’s deception, or purposeful deception.

Zi Shan took another breath and tried to calm herself down, at least on the surface, “I’m going back. I don’t think you need me to take you back.”

“Zi Shan.” Seeing Zi Shan’s look, Li Yao Xu knew that he had really angered his daughter and wanted to do something to remedy the situation, “I don’t mean what you think, I ……”

Zi Shan interrupted him, “Now there are more suitable people to accompany you to walk, accompany you to talk about old times, do not need me. Dad, you can dislike me, you can not treat me as your daughter, but please don’t lie to me or use me, okay?!” She finally didn’t hold back and spoke the hurt in her heart to Li Yao Xu.

Yang Guoying had already walked over, looking at Zi Shan and Li Yao Xu opened his mouth several times, but in the end, he just said softly, “I’m sorry, I ……”

“Sorry? You want to apologize for which thing trouble you say clearly, otherwise I really do not know to whom you are saying, and why and say sorry, lest cause me misunderstanding to come, think you are to me to say sorry, will be really embarrassed.” Zi Shan snaps, “You’re here to talk about the old days too, about the old days that you had no choice but to talk about, very well, you can talk to him about it.”

Zi Shan turned and left, she is a second can not stay, afraid that they will be angry, also afraid that they will be hurt even more, some wounds have never healed, the pain of tearing open again not many people can withstand.

Yang Guoying hurriedly walked two steps: “Zishan, don’t misunderstand, I look for your father just want to sit down with you and have a good talk ……”

“What is there to talk about?” Zishan turned to look at her: “Do you want my left kidney or do you want my right kidney, directly open the mouth looks very difficult, so first you let Feng Dayong to do things, and now you are using Li Yaoxu, as a mother, you want to have no thought that these two people are what kind of person to me, they cooperate with you to do this kind of thing to me how much harm? ”

Yang Guoying’s lips trembled: “You really misunderstood, I ……”

She turned around and pressed the past step by step: “You are not here to ask for my kidney? Then you just want to reminisce about your impulsive youth? What do you want to say to me, and what do you have to say to me? To both of you I’m a redundancy, I’m someone who shouldn’t exist, someone who hates that I wasn’t there in your remembered past! I know all that, and you need not say it to me again.”

Yang Guoying was forced to step back, looking at Zi Shan his eyes reddened slightly, “Zi Shan, do you hate me that much?”

Zi Shan laughed as if she had heard the world’s funniest joke, after laughing, she looked at Yang Guoying, “Well, you seem to be very aggrieved, I shouldn’t hate you, should I? Then you come to tell me, I grew up alone and lonely, alone and alone to face everything, there are diseases and pains to be borne by yourself alone, there are heavenly things no one can discuss ……”

“Pain when you can not find the embrace can shed tears, bitter when you can not find people can comfort me, tired when more can not find a place called home!” Zishan reached out and grabbed Yang Guoying’s collar, “Even so, I don’t have only hate for you, but you appeared in front of me just to ask for one of my kidneys, instead of coming to look at me as a daughter, you say I don’t hate you then what should I do?”

Facing Yang Guoying, she barely suppressed her emotions every time, but Yang Guoying refused to let her go, finally forcing Zi Shan to hold back no longer, she grabbed Yang Guoying’s clothes tightly: “You won’t give up until you reach your goal, and you won’t let go of me until you get my kidney, right? Fine, don’t you want a kidney, then come on.”

She took out the key in the bag, there is a fruit knife on it, of course not very big, she opened the knife and stuffed it into Yang Guoying’s hand: “You said, you gave birth to me so I owe you, think about it, you gave half of my life, he gave half of my life, and now you want to take it back when you have not thought about how I grew up! –Well, if you want you come and get it yourself.”

Yang Guoying was shocked, he hadn’t seen Zi Shan act so “crazy” the few times he had seen her before and after, “No, no ……”

“You just want my kidney, come and get it, you don’t want it very much, and spend money and buy people, and spend so much effort is to want my kidney, I know, I now concede to give you what you want – I’m not Nezha, I don’t have the courage to pick out the flesh to return to my mother, pick out the bone to return to my father, but a kidney I still can spare. kidney I’m still willing to give up.”

Zi Shan’s eyes glared, the muscles in her face crisscrossed, the person who had originally given off a peaceful feeling became as evil as a demon: “You come and get it yourself, come on. It should be here, all you have to do is take it out with a knife and it’s yours, come and get it.”

All her negative emotions erupted, forced into a full-blown outburst by her own father and mother, completely devoid of reason, just holding Yang Guoying’s hand with wide eyes and viciously slashing at herself.

Yang Guoying screamed in fear, desperately trying to grab the knife back: “Help ah, Li Yaoxu, what are you waiting for, not come over to save your life?!”

Zi Shan stared at Yang Guoying, “Don’t you want my kidney to save your life, I’m saving you, why are you screaming for help?” She became so strong that Yang Guoying couldn’t fight with Zi Shan on his own, and the knife almost hurt Zi Shan several times.

Li Yao Xu came over to pull Zi Shan, “Xiao Shan, calm down.” He really regretted that he shouldn’t have tricked Zi Shan to come here to meet with Yang Guoying, he and Yang Guoying combined their efforts, their strength was greater than Zi Shan’s, and they finally snatched the knife away completely.

When they fought for it, they accidentally hurt Yang Guoying’s fingers and Li Yaoxu’s palm. They couldn’t care less about their small wounds, and they looked at Zi Shan who was panting and was very nervous, fearing that Zi Shan would do something horrible again.

Zi Shan stared at Yang Guoying: “I gave it to you but you don’t want it?”

Yang Guoying softly said, “Zishan, listen to me to say a few words, okay, I just heard that your body is not good, that Liu Yun ……”

“None of your business!” Zishan stared at her fiercely, “I’m just asking you, do you still want my kidney?”

Yang Guoying looked at Zi Shan for a moment and didn’t know how to answer, to say no would be to not want her own life, but now to say yes would be to take Zi Shan’s life, she really didn’t want Zi Shan to have any accidents, even if she and Zi Shan didn’t have any mother-daughter love, she didn’t want to harm Zi Shan’s life for her own sake.

Zi Shan pressed up again, “Just tell me, do you want it or don’t you? If you do, I’ll give it to you right now, if you don’t, then get the hell out of my life and never show up in front of me again!”

Li Yao Xu yelled, “Yang Guoying, do you really want to force Zi Shan to die? You’ve ignored her for so many years and now you want to force her to die? She doesn’t owe you, she doesn’t owe us, it’s us who owe her.” He went over to pull Zi Shan: “She doesn’t want it, she doesn’t want it, let’s go home.”

Zi Shan just stared at Yang Guoying and asked again, “Do you want it or not?”

Yang Guoying looked at Zi Shan’s eyes and painfully closed his eyes, “Zi Shan, this time I really came just to help you, I am not here to discuss ……”

“The ultimate goal is still the same, don’t talk so nicely,” Zi Shan interrupted, “Even if you do more, it’s not because you have mother-daughter love for me, you’re still trying to get my kidney to save your life, so please don’t say the ‘help ‘ this word, it’s just too disgusting for me to hear.”

She forced herself in front of Yang Guoying, staring at her eyes softly as if whispering, but with a voice as cold as Sanjiu’s: “A very simple sentence, just say it directly, to be or not to be?”