Chapter 110: Falling Apart

Zi Shan looked at Lin Hao’s eyes, for a split second she felt her whole body’s muscles stiffen into wood, one hand was still holding the money clip in her bag – she had originally wanted to settle the lawyer’s fee with Lin Hao before dinner, although she wasn’t a rich woman, but she was still considered to be a small fortune now, even if Lin Hao’s lawyer’s fee was a bit expensive, but without him it still It really wasn’t always possible to get away so smoothly, so she thought it was still worth the money.

She did think that Lin Hao as her old classmate, may not accept her money, but one size does not fit all, in the matter of money should be counted clearly, especially friends. Because she regarded Lin Hao as a friend, and a very good friend that she could socialize with, then money should be counted even more clearly.

This was the experience she had gained in life, this was the secret to maintaining a long-lasting good relationship between friends, or even siblings, and she had thought of the words to convince Lin Hao of this, but she had also decided that she would accept the discount Lin Hao had given her – she was a single mom now, and her career was just starting, so if Lin Hao wanted to take care of her as a friend, she would would naturally accept it.

But, she hadn’t expected Lin Hao to say something like that. Admittedly, she knew that Lin Hao had been secretly in love with her since high school, and it wasn’t until after she graduated from college that she confessed her love to her and met again, even though Lin Hao was still single now, but she didn’t think that Lin Hao would still be interested in pursuing her.

First of all, Lin Hao has changed, is no longer the former youthful young man, his maturity and stability means that he is not the same as before, a lot of ideas, views have changed, so he likes the woman of course will not be the same as before, especially how can he like a divorced woman?

Furthermore, Zixan had just gotten out of a bad marriage, and because of the blood lessons she had learned in her last life, she knew how to do the right thing, but the divorce was also like a battle, and it was really smoke and mirrors, making her life a mess. Although she had never shown her weakness in front of people, she had not failed to feel the grayness of her future in her midnight dreams.

All of this had left her exhausted and added different wounds to her body – in her last life, she had insisted on not divorcing, which had caused her own suffering and the baby’s accident, and now that she had changed her decision, the divorce was just as much of a knife, and it had also hurt her in many ways.

This is why Zishan did not and Feng Dayong because of the transfer of property and entangled in the reason, she is tired, she really want to be able to Feng Dayong from life kicked off, can live quietly, she does not want to make life worse because of the divorce, and more do not want to see her daughter’s baby again because of the dispute over the divorce and be hurt.

The child is the most innocent, the child is also the most hurt – what she can do is to minimize the damage.

In the moment of getting the green certificate, Zishan almost dropped a tear, ahead was a new life, there would be no more Feng Dayong, no more Liu Yun, but the new life she thought would never include the appearance of a new man.

It wasn’t that Zi Shan wasn’t going to remarry, she hadn’t even thought about it, especially now that she had just gotten out of that bad marriage, the scars formed by those injuries hadn’t healed yet, there was no way that she would accept a man or a marriage.

Lin Hao raised his wine glass up again, ”Zisan, I know my words are abrupt, but as I said, I’m not asking you to accept me, or accept my feelings, I just want, you to give me a chance, a chance that will give you, and me, happiness. Well, and you don’t have to answer now, you can take your time and think about it until you do and then come back and tell me.”

Zi Shan picked up her wine glass to gently touch it with Lin Hao, “Lin Hao, to be honest then. Right now, I’m really not ready, and I really can’t accept any more people. I’m sorry.” She, refused.

Lin Hao smiled and took a sip of wine, “I understand, I’ll wait. I’ve waited for more than ten years, there’s no harm in waiting any longer. We are, still friends right?”

Zi Shan smiled, she was really afraid of losing a friend because of this, a friend who had helped her immensely during her most difficult times, “Of course.” Lin Hao was a gentleman, not forcing anything and respecting her decision, she put her wine glass down, “Let’s figure out the lawyer’s fees, all pro-brothers have to settle their accounts ……”

Lin Hao listened to her finish everything and gently nodded, “Good. Well, I want you to just give me half, can you promise this? Take half of the money, it is a good friend also need to keep the accounts separate, so we can be a long time friend, do not take the other half of the money, because we are friends, old classmates, is supposed to help each other.”

Although Zi Shan thought that the discount was a bit big, but seeing Lin Hao so painfully agree to collect the money, the big stone in her heart fell down, and she thought seriously, “Good. Then when you need to order boxed lunches in the future, you won’t have to pay us.”

“That’s a different matter, not to be mixed up.” Lin Hao gently shook his head, “It’s fine if it’s your business alone, but it’s three people’s business. Zi Shan, I congratulate you and believe that you can have a happy, joyful future with your baby.”

Zi Shan didn’t say anything more to Lin Hao and accepted her congratulations, the two of them started to talk about some irrelevant and pleasant topics, and the awkwardness that was caused by Lin Hao’s sudden confession just now had all disappeared, and she and he were still good friends and old classmates.

At least, that was how Zi Shan felt. Lin Hao, didn’t make her feel nervous or aggressive, it was easy and comfortable to be with Lin Hao.

In the next few days, Zi Shan was very busy. She and Chu Xiang, so and so quiet every day to the guests of the boxed lunches done, and then go to the house she lives and the store’s transfer procedures, etc., every day busy home to fall asleep, every night are extremely sleep, not a little dream.

And the baby since the initial tension is slowly relaxing down, until Saturday when she saw Feng Dayong, she knew that the parents divorced in fact, the change is not big – Feng Dayong in the past few years and not much in the house, Saturday or Sunday will accompany the daughter to go out to play, and now, still the same.

The child’s requirements are not high, since her mother is still her mother and her father is still her father, she has no other problems. Even though she doesn’t like Feng Dayong as much as she used to, she still has an attachment to him.

When Feng Dayong came to pick up the baby, the ice on his face still moved when he saw Zi Shan, who was busy in the kitchen in her housecoat – he was extremely surprised by Zi Shan’s vigor.

He thought that Zishan would be disheveled and depressed, that she would want Chu Xiang and Xue Jing to keep her company, and that she would spend her days tearfully accusing Feng Dayong, but in fact, Zishan is now alone with her baby and is doing very well, with none of the sadness that comes with a divorce, but instead, she is full of vigor and sunshine as she fights for her own future and for the baby’s. Even in his eyes, selling boxed lunches is a good way to make a living for the baby.

Even if selling boxed lunches wasn’t a real business in his eyes, he was still a bit shocked by Zi Shan’s total dedication to it, and looked at him on the other hand, no matter whether it was mentally, professionally, or in life – it seemed like he was the one who had been abandoned. This kind of discrepancy made his heart feel even more uncomfortable, but he couldn’t say it out loud, so he could only make his face a little tighter.

Zi Shan did not make a face at him, not to mention the property he transferred with him, just a simple greeting, then took out the baby’s small backpack, water bottle and what not and handed it to him: “Remember to give the child more water, she is a bit on fire these two days, although it is said that now there is some autumn one morning and one night, but there is no need to dress her up too thickly, the child’s fire is strong to dress too thickly instead of muffling it up. .”

What she said was all about the child, every word was related to the baby, after finishing, she kissed the baby on the forehead, “Be good and listen to daddy, if daddy is busy, don’t mess with grandpa, uncle and them, got it? Don’t eat ice cream anymore, you’re a girl you can’t eat too cold, the weather is no longer suitable now. Baby knows best, right?”

The baby gave her mom two hard kisses on the cheek, “I know.” She took her cell phone out in her backpack, “I’ll call mom.” The cell phone was given to the baby by so-and-so Jing, it was a cell phone she didn’t use, in order for the baby to give Zi Shan some peace of mind when she left Zi Shan to spend time with Feng Dayong.

In fact, Chu Xiang disapproves of Zi Shan letting the baby and Feng Dayong meet each other every week because her son was taken away by his father using this kind of opportunity, while Xue Jing is worried that Feng Dayong and the Feng family will teach the baby a bad lesson.

Zi Shan has a different view, the divorce is already a sorry child, she can’t deprive the child of his need for a father’s love just because she hates Feng Dayong, Feng Dayong is the baby’s father, and this matter won’t change because of any changes, so she still thinks it’s right to let the baby get along with Feng Dayong, unless the child really doesn’t want to see Feng Dayong again – -That is also hurt, not that the child doesn’t need a father’s love.

Feng Dayong wanted to say a few harsh words to Zi Shan, but when the words came to his mouth, he didn’t know what to say, and finally picked up the baby with a stern face: “I know. The baby is also my daughter, I will naturally take good care of her. At six o’clock in the evening, I will send the baby back on time.”

He hated Zi Shan, now the business of the company and the factory had slumped, and the people’s hearts were unstable – all of it stemmed from Zi Shan, but he didn’t know why he had uttered that last sentence, as if to put Zi Shan’s mind at ease, to tell her that he wouldn’t take the baby away without giving it back to her.

Even if he had said those words, he still hated Zi Shan, hated her from the bottom of his heart. He had never hated a woman so much before, only Li Zishan.

Zi Shan nodded, “The baby has already had breakfast, if you guys leave please help me bring the door with you, I still have a lot of things to do, so I won’t see you off.” She lacked a good feeling towards Feng Dayong and didn’t intend to be friends with him, so she dispensed with all the courtesies.

She simply ignored the hatred on Feng Dayong’s face, and she didn’t care how Feng Dayong looked at her now, because these couldn’t affect her life anymore, and she, who was going to work hard for herself and her child, had a really good busy and fulfilling day.