Chapter 264: You guys choose

Yang Guoying’s eyes had widened, but Jiang Tao’s words hadn’t finished, “You kneeling like this is like forcing Zi Shan to forgive you, to have to forgive you, there is no intention of apologizing to Zi Shan sincerely, much less to make amends to Zi Shan, you want Zi Shan’s forgiveness to force her like this?!”

“If you kneeled down and she forgave you only because you’re her birth mother, not because she actually forgave you for what you did – how can you erase what you’ve done like that? Next you’re putting your life in Zixan’s hands, do you even realize what you’re doing? You’re not atoning for your sins, you’re making Zi Shan take the blame for killing her mother – whether you do or don’t do the surgery had nothing to do with Zi Shan, but you had to tie it to Zi Shan, forcing her to talk and letting you do the surgery.”

“Like Zixan said, what you’ve been doing is not asking Zixan what she wants, not thinking about her, just purely from your point of view, as long as you’re happy and get by, as long as you’re happy, as long as you’re happy, as long as you’re happy, as long as you’re happy, as long as you’re happy, as long as you’re happy, as long as you’re happy, as long as you’re happy. Do you know what Zixan is angry about? Don’t say anything about atonement, don’t say anything about forgiveness, what you’ve done will only make Zi Shan even more cold-hearted.”

Jiang Tao glanced back at Zi Shan: “Let me say this as an outsider, since you have left Zi Shan behind for decades, you should continue to disappear, don’t bother Zi Shan, let her forget about the past, at least she won’t think of the pain that she doesn’t want to think of every day, and that would be a great ‘gift’ to her. ‘ now.”

“One last thing, it’s none of Zixan’s business whether you have the surgery or not, legally she has nothing to do with you – she’s an adult now, and if she’s not an adult, her guardians are her legal parents, and it’s none of your business either. You want to change your kidney is you want to change it, you don’t want to change it that’s also your business, at most it’s the Shen family’s business, it has nothing to do with Li Zishan.”

He looked at Yang Guoying, “Did you hear me clearly?”

Yang Guoying froze, staring blankly at Jiang Tao without saying anything, while Shen Yang was going to say something but was stopped by Shen Zhi, the person Shen Zhi was looking at was Zi Shan – the words weren’t coming out of Zi Shan’s mouth, so they couldn’t be taken as accurate. But, whether it was to Shen Zhi’s father and son or to Yang Guoying, these words were really a bit embarrassing.

Zishan’s emotions in Jiang Tao’s words actually began to calm down, as if Jiang Tao’s not too small, with a little magnetic voice can bring her inexplicable feeling, and those words are even more miraculous stroked over the pain in her heart, she did not think Jiang Tao will understand what she was thinking, will know so deep.

Her hurt and her pain, she never said to anyone, since reborn she is used to bear alone, not intentionally, naturally she buried everything in the bottom of her heart, did not think to say to anyone, even with Lin Hao together, she did not mention the hurt in her heart to, how many times in the dream woke up crying, looking at the dark roof she thought that no one in the world can understand her deeply buried bitter.

Even if she said it, no one would empathize, because no one is her, and today’s Jiang Tao said the words, although not so intense, but it is what she thought in her heart, it is the reason why she was angered by Yang Guoying – why should she bear the life and death of Yang Guoying?

Jiang Tao understand, just in that moment she felt that she really relaxed some, although Yi then do not have to say anything, but someone understands the feeling is really different.

Xue Jing and Chu Xiang is also very surprised, looking at the arms of Zixan no longer so out of control, they know Jiang Tao is right, as Zixan’s best friend, they know Zixan on Yang Guoying’s feelings, but has always been strong Zixan did not let them think that there will be a time of vulnerability, not to mention thought that she will be buried in the bottom of the heart of the deep bitter.

The person who understands Zi Shan the most is not them, but actually Jiang Tao, who has always been Zi Shan’s “ordinary” friend.

Yang Guoying is still frozen, she heard every word of Zi Shan, also heard clearly Jiang Tao’s words, she really did not think that she did wrong again, really just want to get Zi Shan’s forgiveness, other than that she really does not have any other thoughts, and even more do not want to add to Zi Shan’s pain, but it seems that she really did wrong.

Especially Jiang Tao’s sentence “you really for the sake of Zi Shan, you just for their own”, let her want to retort but do not know how to retort.

Shen Zhi saw that Zi Shan didn’t say anything, saw the look on Zi Shan’s face, he finally realized that Jiang Tao’s words were what Zi Shan wanted to say, think about it, it is also true that there is a lack of consideration, between Yang Guoying and Zi Shan’s matter, it really isn’t as simple as kneeling down to solve the problem, and even more so, not saying that putting their lives into Zi Shan’s hands can show their sincerity– they really ignored the reaction of Zi Shan, they really ignored the reaction of Yang Guoying and Zi Shan. They really ignored Zi Shan’s reaction.

He went over and gently helped Yang Guoying to come and said seriously to Zi Shan, “I’m sorry.”

Jiang Tao turned around, “Zi Shan, we are–” he can’t make the decision, whether it is good or bad can make the decision only Zi Shan alone, some things he can block for Zi Shan, but the decision he can’t do it on behalf of Zi Shan, because he respects Zi Shan.

Zishan glanced at Shen Bo stood up: “I think I should go to the hospital, give the police a call, as for Shen Bo ……” she glanced at the bottom of the eyes of Yang Guoying still flashed pain: “to you guys, you want to do how to do it! How to do, I am not going to say a word more.” She made it clear that if the people of the Shen family wanted to exonerate Shen Bo, she would not tell the truth to the police.

This is what Yang Guoying has just done, not Zi Shan heart is really hard-hearted heart blocked a breath of seizure can not come out, now let you make the decision, is to Shen Bo to the police, or bring him home to the police lie – all by Yang Guoying and Shen Zhi, you two parents to make the decision.

Shen Zhi glanced at Shen Bo heart slightly sank, if Zi Shan did not go and wait for the police to come, he will at least have an explanation in his heart to himself, not that he is a father who is ruthless, but there is no way, now let him decide Shen Bo’s future – how to say that there is a record of the case is not a good thing, and kidnapping is a felony ah.

Yang Guoying’s eyes also turned, she looked at the person but Zi Shan, lips mumbling but did not say a word, she knew that this is Zi Shan is punishing her, but she can’t say pleading words – the palm of the hand are meat ah, Shen Bo is also her own, is more she single-handedly raised, at this time to plead words to Zi Shan, is it not equivalent to If she pleaded with Zi Shan at this time, it would be tantamount to sending Shen Bo out with both hands.

But if she let Zi Shan go out, she would still be in a dilemma, she has to choose between Shen Bo and Zi Shan, and neither one of them is the one she wants to hurt, she really can’t do it if she hands Shen Bo over to the police to be convicted, but if she takes Shen Bo back home, how can she have the face to see Zi Shan in her whole life, and Zi Shan will never be able to forgive her in her whole life, and she won’t want Zi Shan to recognize her as a mother. Zi Shan would never forgive her, let alone let Zi Shan recognize her as her mother.

Now she understands Zi Shan’s feelings better than she did when she heard Jiang Tao’s words, and realizes that she shouldn’t have put her own life in Zi Shan’s hands–wouldn’t it be even more of a dilemma for Zi Shan than it was for Shen Bo? It’s a pain to do it any way, and she’s really irresponsible.

Zi Shan ignored Yang Guoying’s gaze, stood up and tried to make herself stand firm and straighten her waist to walk out, she didn’t want to let the people of the Shen family see her vulnerability again, the loss of control she had just had made her very dissatisfied with herself.

Shen Bo took two steps forward: “I, I ……” Zi Shan did not turn around, this is not just a matter between him and herself, because there is a Yang Guoying, because her last name is Li and his last name is Shen, so the little hesitation she had towards Shen Bo disappeared. This matter can be on the other side of the right and wrong, but in her case there is no right and wrong, if she did not do it then she really can not explain to themselves.

People live a lifetime she really do not want to make themselves unhappy again, she is unhappy days really too much, Yang Guoying did the first day, she is only doing the fifteenth only.

After leaving the hotel, Zishan only feel tired, words also do not want to say into the car on the closed eyes, Jiang Tao did not let Chu Xiang and so and so quiet opening: “We send Zishan home, sleep well, tomorrow the sun will still rise as usual, we are still the original that person.”

Zishan opened her eyes and glanced at Jiang Tao, “Yes, the sun will still rise tomorrow.” Once again, she was surprised, unexpectedly Jiang Tao had the same feeling as her – even if something heavenly happened, the sun would still rise tomorrow, life would go on, she would stand up even if she had no strength, she had to stand up, and she was really able to stand up.

Because, she has a daughter, because, she does not want to let something tragic happen. As long as the sun will rise tomorrow, everything is no big deal.

When the car was halfway there, Jiang Tao parked outside a bar and got out to buy Zi Shan a cocktail out, “I asked a friend to mix it, the alcohol isn’t too high.”

Zishan shook her head, “I don’t drink.” Because she is afraid of getting drunk, afraid that after she drinks the wine will reveal all her vulnerability, afraid that she will cry out in pain, more afraid of forming a dependence on the wine, and from then on to buy drunk and forget those bitter, those pain, she is a mother, need to be strong rather than indulgence.

Jiang Tao shook his head, “I can’t exactly say it’s wine, I just want you to drink it to be able to relax a little bit, to be able to sleep, believe me, you have to believe in yourself as well, and I believe in you as well, but right now you really need to get a good night’s sleep.”

Zi Shan looked at Jiang Tao’s eyes, saw herself in his eyes, finally sighed and sat up to get the glass of wine, but she saw someone there at the car window behind Jiang Tao, only that person was so different from her usual appearance that she thought she was mistaken, and reached out to press Jiang Tao towards the seat – it was her, it was really Shen Yi Yi!

Jiang Tao knew what had happened, and hurriedly turned back, so and so Jing and Chu Xiang both saw Shen Yi Yi, only now Shen Yi Yi didn’t look like a rich girl at all, so drunk that she couldn’t even walk anymore, crookedly supported by a man and a woman.

“Call the police!” Xue Jing took out her cell phone to grit her teeth, “Let the Shen family see that this matter really has nothing to do with us.”

Shen Yi Yi seemed to have seen them as well, raised her head and shouted two sentences of something that was so blurry that people couldn’t hear it clearly, and then she was helped into the car, while Jiang Tao glanced at the license plate number.

Chu Xiang was a little hesitant: “Should we go over and ask?”