Chapter 71
Yunqi does not understand the waves of the big people, originally he usually eat is general, today dad in, is more absent-minded, every few moments to feed into a mouthful, Xu Chengchu looked at Situ Xu Xu Xu’s gentle patience and the little guy’s carelessness, silently endured a few moments, can not help but get up and go over, took over the bowl of rice in her hand, said in a low voice: “You go eat, I’ll feed him. I’ll feed him.”
Yunqi see changed into the father sat in front of him, pursed lips at the father smiled eyes curved, Xu Cheng primrose looked at the pair of God like Situ Xu Xu’s clear eyes, the heart of that point of inexplicable fire suddenly disappeared, touch his black hair, softly said to him: “Yunqi, eat well!”
Situ Yunqi tilted his head, through the intelligent and cunning clear eyes staring at his father for a while, Xu Cheng Snapdragon always light expression, unlike the usual every time with infinite tenderness and love to look at him, the little guy raised an eyebrow, actually not like to Situ Xu Xu Xu like left and right, obediently open his mouth to eat his feed over the rice, at first, or in the mouth, but see his father’s face staring at him all the time, do not dare to slacken off, and try to chew, and then swallowed down, but also actively open the mouth to eat, and also to eat. He also took the initiative to open his mouth to show him, signaling that he finished eating.
Xu Cheng Snap praised him in a warm voice, “You’re so obedient!”
The little guy raised his eyebrows and pointed to himself, saying slowly and methodically, “Yunqi, smart kid!”
Situ Xu Xu, who was eating beside the father and son, heard this, and immediately pinched a chopstick of vegetable heart into Yun Qi’s small bowl, Xu Cheng Snap cooperated and pretended not to know that his son didn’t like to eat vegetable heart, and fed him a mouthful of it, and Yun Qi, who had just complimented himself, couldn’t turn back on his words, and could only bitterly try to chew it with a bitter face, and his bun-like face bulged, and the two thick eyebrows, which are identical to Xu Cheng Snap’s, wrinkled with a slight sadness.
Xu Cheng Snapdragon turned his head to look at her, and the two of them looked at each other with a faint smile under their eyes.
Xu Sa at this time with dishes from the kitchen out, see is Xu Chengchu feeding rice, busy pick up told him to eat their own go, she to feed. Xu Cheng Snapdragon back to the position, Situ Ming did not say anything else, cheerfully greeted him quickly eat, but also gave him a large chopstick dish, Xu Cheng Snapdragon in fact do not like to eat vegetable heart, always feel a bitter taste, today but ate without change of color, do not feel the mouth of the bitterness.
After eating, accompanied by Yun Qi to play for a while, Yun up to point to take a bath and go to bed, Xu Cheng Snapdragon should also say goodbye. In front of Situ Ming’s face he frankly said to Situ Xu Xu: “I have something to say to you, you send me down okay?”
Situ Xu Xu followed him downstairs and stood in front of his car, but he pulled open the door, “Go inside and talk, it’s cold.” She looked at him, obediently sat in the car, he followed in, and she sat side by side in the back seat.
Quiet winter night, the sound of fireworks from afar seemed to make this car even quieter, Situ Xu Xu waited for a while and turned his head to look at the person who had something to say to her. He was looking ahead, handsome side of the face can be seen God heavy, lines of good-looking lips tightly pursed, the air fireworks light through the window glass in his face fell deep and shallow shadows, Situ Xu Xu look at his expression, know that his heart is not good at the moment.
Knowing that he is not good, her heart actually slightly better – he is not a little unchanged, to do before, such a mood he was afraid that he would have had a seizure.
“You want to tell me what?” Situ Xu Xu softly opened her mouth to ask him, “I have to go back before Yunqi goes to bed.”
Xu Cheng Snapdragon paused, turned his head to look at her, his black eyes deep, a few stoic and a few painful colors: “I don’t understand,” he was clueless, paused, and then said, “Are you not at all hopeful about me …… ?”
Situ Xu Xu gently: “Hope for what? I don’t have any hope for you, otherwise I won’t harbor Yunqi divorce.”
This poked Xu Cheng Snapdragon heart that smothered pus deep wound, his voice changed: “So you plan to find a new person? Situ, can you really accept someone else? You can do it?!” He asked incredulously.
Could it be that she could be so different from him that she could accept someone other than each other for her life?
“Try it,” Situ Xu Xu seemed not to be affected by his emotions at all, quiet and calm, “How can I know if I don’t try? In the past, there were a lot of things that I thought couldn’t be done, couldn’t happen, and then they all became reality. It’s time for me to change my temper and try to submit to life and see if I can get better.”
So drastic love and hate had burned out her youthful infatuation, and by now, it was time to bow down to fate.
Looking at Xu Chengchu’s incredulous expression, Situ steeply felt miserable – he was still the novel hero, she was already a worldly woman.
Xu Chengchu was silent for a long time.
“I understand.” He spoke slowly, “Blame me for being bad.”
“How can one person be blamed for two people failing to get along?” Situ Xu looked at the fireworks in the distant sky outside the window, his voice was calm and depressing, “I know that you say you blame yourself on your lips, but in your heart you must be blaming me, I was the one who was righteous in the beginning, and I am the one who is obeying destiny now, you could have been quiet and down-to-earth and lived a good life, and I stirred up a mess.”
“I did not!” He calmed down as well, his voice deep and firm, “Whether you were righteous or obedient to fate, and no matter what you messed up my life into, I won’t blame you, ever.”
Even if you have not gotten what you wanted, you are still my lifelong dream.
These words, of course, Seo Seung Snap couldn’t possibly say out loud, that was his most hidden, all-encompassing vulnerability, and if he held it out and then got smashed to pieces by her, then he really wouldn’t be able to live on.
“Can you find someone to help you take care of Yun Qi? It would be good to do some chores for you, and your mom could make it easier.” He felt like he could barely catch his breath and had to say something else.
Situ Xu Xu also breathed a sigh of relief and went along with him, “The bellhop comes every day, the two little girls who help me ship from the store are very good, I’m usually not too busy, and your family often picks up Yunqi to go over there, so you don’t have to worry.”
Yunqi had just been born and he had arranged for a sister-in-law and a nanny, it was she who was not used to eating and living with people. A little further back, the assets he gave her at the time of the divorce were enough for her to lavishly raise several Yunqi’s, but in the past few years she quit her kindergarten job and took care of her online store, not touching the money he gave her, and she didn’t move into the real estate he gave her at the time of the marriage, she didn’t even move back into her parents’ compound, bringing Yunqi to live in the small apartment she bought herself.
Xu Cheng Snapdragon knew that those were her gestures and the last remaining pride that he could not interfere with.
But this time, Xu Chengchu thought about it and insisted, “I’ll find a reliable, not talkative one who doesn’t annoy you, go to your place in the morning, and she’ll leave at night after Yunqi sleeps.”
Situ Xu Xu felt that there was no room for concession in this matter, “I don’t want it.”
“Situ Xu Xu!” He suddenly raised his voice, not in anger, but some sort of outburst of powerlessness to the extreme.
Situ sucked in a breath, turned his head, and looked straight into his eyes, “Seo Seung Snap look, that’s how we are, there’s no way out.”
Who doesn’t give anyone hope? Between them. When they first came together with each other they were full of expectations and confidence ah, but so what?
The young thought as long as there is love can last forever, time gently and cruelly let them learn: happiness is not so easy.
Happiness isn’t that easy, and that’s what makes it so fascinating. Xu Cheng Snapdragon was once so deeply, deeply addicted, he knew how good it was, so he could not bear to lose.
But at this moment, looking at her calm and suppressed eyes, thinking about her speechless and gentle side face during dinner just now, Xu Cheng Snap was in no position to say that the pain was tough.
Master Snap, who had never been the best in the world, feebly rested his forehead against the back of the seat in front of him, closed his eyes and let out a deep, silent sigh.
“Xu Cheng Snapdragon ……” she called out to him softly.
Xu Chengchu moved slightly, burying his face in the shadows, making it impossible for her to see his expression.
After a long time, Situ Xu Xu heard his voice, extraordinarily tired: “Good, you can try, if …… if you can find, before you make a decision to tell me, I want to see …… what kind of person that is. ”
“Good.” There was a long silence in the darkness as she agreed. After another moment, she said in an astringent voice, “I’m going back, it’s time for Cloudy to go to bed.”
“I’ll walk you.”
The two were silent all the way up the stairs, Situ Ming saw the person who had just asked to be sent, and sent the person back, smiled and looked at the faces of the two people, but looking at Situ Xu Xu’s face of indifference and loss, and Xu Cheng Snap’s face was actually a little pale, Situ Ming could not understand.
Yun Qi is still awake, Xu Sa just gave him a bath, wearing a goose-colored even small pajamas on the bed, like a cute little duck.
Xu Cheng Snapdragon bought balloons floating in the ceiling, long lines hanging down, the little guy stood on the bed just enough to reach, he pulled down the Pikachu a moment later pulled down Snow White, his mouth softly chanting words, is playing with a lot of fun, and suddenly saw his father to return to the bedroom doorway, he gently “ah” a sound, opened his eyes, and immediately! He opened his eyes with a soft “ah” and immediately smiled with joy and opened his hand to ask him to hold him.
Xu Cheng Snapdragon hugged him and put him on the bed, Yun Qi is quiet and good natured, and did not struggle, as long as Xu Cheng Snapdragon did not go he obediently lay there, beautiful black eyes staring at his father without blinking. Xu Cheng Snapdragon lovingly pinched his son’s adorable little face, turned to the side of Xu Za smiled, and said softly, “I want to stay with Yunqi, I’ll put him to bed!”
Xu Za saw that he did not look right, his smile stiffened to an unheard of level, he gave a “hmmm” and without saying anything, he covered the door and went out.
Only father and son were left in the room, Xu Chengchu knelt on one knee beside the bed, cupped his son’s white face with both hands, and sighed as if calling out softly, “Son!”
Yunqi blinked his eyes, adorable, Xu Cheng Snapdragon asked him softly, “Yunqi, do you like daddy?”
The little guy thought about it, but didn’t answer straight away, reaching out a hand from under the covers to pull his hair, inviting, “Daddy sleep sleep!”
Xu Chengchu obediently lowered his head against him, Yun Qi enjoyed rubbing against his dad, stretching out his soft and tiny hands to touch his dad, like touching his mom’s earlobes every night when he was on the verge of going to sleep, his two hands rubbing against his dad’s earlobes, a position close to embracing, Xu Chengchu’s sour heart was slightly soothed by the soft and childish affection, and closed his eyes to close close against his son.
Yun Qi was tightly pressed against his father, feeling playful, learning from Situ’s usual coaxing him, muttering in Xu Cheng Snap’s ear, “Daddy~Daddy hurry up and go to sleep~Daddy be good~”
Xu Cheng Snapdragon was coaxed by his son, hugging his small soft body, quiet and motionless. The dim light only illuminated a circle around him, and his large shadow was cast on the wall like a mournful mountain.