Chapter 34

At seven o’clock in the evening, Yang Yucan had not returned.

Zhu Yanshu anxiously circled around the room.

Zhang Ma said, “Ma’am, why don’t I go out and look for it?”

Zhu Yanshu decisively said, “No, I’ll go and look for her! You and Yan Yan wait for her at home!” She turned around and went back to the house to change her clothes.

Yang Yuyan came out of the bedroom and said, “I’ll go find Mr. Su and ask him to go to the church hospital to take a look.”

Zhang Ma busily said, “That’s right, it’s New Year’s Eve, the school is already fine, big sister should be at the church hospital! Isn’t that boy Ma Tianbao there!”

Zhu Yanshu looked at the darkness outside and said, “I wonder if Mr. Su is at home now?”

Yang Yuyan: “Yes, yes. He said that he will come back to beat the police for the next two days. I just saw him go upstairs.”

Zhu Yanshu said, “Then go quickly.”

Yang Yuyan immediately ran upstairs, the stairs thudding loudly.

Zhu Yanshu put her coat down and sat down on the sofa, sighing, “One and two, both are not worrying.”

Zhang Ma advised, “Madam, children are too old for their mothers.”

Not long after, Yang Yuyan and Su Chunjun came in one after the other. Su Chunjun had already put on his coat and said, “I’ll hang up a phone and go to the church hospital to ask if Missy went there today.”

The Zhu family has a phone.

Zhu Yanshu let out an ouch and slapped his forehead, “I’m all confused! Teacher Su, go and call.”

Su Chunjun then walked over and picked up the microphone, still reporting his work ID from the Finance Bureau before asking the operator to transfer to the church hospital.

The phone had just been connected when the front door slammed and Yang Yucan came back!

As soon as she entered, she stomped her feet and said, “It’s freezing! Mrs. Zhang, is there any sweet soup?”

Zhang Ma responded in a panic: “Yes, yes, I’ll go get it for you!”

Zhu Yanshu suddenly got angry: “Don’t give it to her! Don’t give her anything!”

The whole room was stunned.

Zhu Yanshu stood up with a huff, pointed at the clock and asked Yang Yucan, “Look at what time it is now! It’s already dark! A room full of people, big and small, are all worried about you! Where have you been? What time did you leave school? I’m going to call the school to protest!”

Yang Yu Cicada was so scared that she stammered, “Mom,I, I forgot the time, I came out a long time ago, but, but ……”

Her shoes were covered in sewage and mud spots, and there were splattered stains on her skirt and coat.

Everyone saw it.

Zhu Yanshu was so angry that she was about to lose her mind, “Don’t you have any money? Did you use up all your pocket money? Or is it because you gave all your money to others, so you had to walk back right!”

Yang Yu Cicada was dumbfounded, that was exactly what happened. She left the school early to go to the hospital and took the last of the money from the fundraiser to Ma Tianbao. They had already spent all their money, and Ma Tianbao’s father no longer slept in a bed, but secretly slept in the hospital’s stairwell. Every day Ma Tianbao went to the doctor to get medicine, begged the nurses to give his father painkillers, and went outside to see his mother in the Chinese herbal medicine store. When she looked over, she saw him walking slowly and carefully on one crutch, avoiding the crowds.

She pulled out all the money she had, along with her own, hoping she could help him think of a better way. She persuaded him to go out and rent a house and get a job as a scribe to help people copy letters for money.

Ma Tianbao held the money, not daring to look up at her, and said, “Thank you, Yu Cicada, you’re the only one who’s been helping me. You’re right, we can’t stay in the hospital, I’m going out to look for a house and move there with my dad and mom. I will also apply for a job as a scribe.” He gave her a deep bow, “I can’t repay the favor you’ve done for me in this lifetime. Although I said to ask you not to come back again, I still had to accept the money you sent me with my face, which makes me ashamed and difficult to face you again.”

Yang Yu Cicada was dumbfounded, she experienced his wounded pride from his bitter words. Perhaps the Golden Mansion had hurt his body, and now that she was standing in front of him, she had been hurting his heart.

She left a hurried, “I’m sorry.” And left.

Leaving the hospital only to realize that there was no more money in her bag, she couldn’t take a car, she had to walk all the way back. The church hospital was too far from home, she walked until halfway through the day when it was dark.

She thought a lot on the way. There was already a deep rift between her and Ma Tianbao. The brutality of the Golden Public House and the abusive beatings inflicted on Ma Tianbao and his parents had not only hurt Ma Tianbao’s body, but also his self-esteem.

Although he used to feel inferior because both of his parents were working as subordinates, he still had hope and was grateful to the lord and lady of the Golden Mansion, believing that they were his benefactors for financing his schooling. He even told her in the past that if he didn’t accept the job that the Golden Mansion had arranged for him after graduation, would he be ungrateful?

But he wanted to rely on himself so that his parents didn’t have to be subordinates anymore, so that his future sons and daughters didn’t have to be little servants at birth, and learn to learn to serve their masters, and serve the gentry from a young age.

He had this dream.

He didn’t hate Master Jin and Mrs. Jin, and he even suffered from a guilty conscience for not being able to continue working in the Jin family.

But now the family had been destroyed by the Jin public house. The people he thought were his benefactors were no longer benefactors, but enemies.

He also realizes that he is not equal to the Kim family, and that the two families are worlds apart.

He realized the difference between class and status.

He begins to withdraw from Yang Yuchan and loses faith in this love.

Yang Yuchan sensed his avoidance.

But she also hated him for not having more courage to continue to love her.

She also hated herself for not having more courage to step forward and embrace him.

Yang Yuchan returned home physically and mentally exhausted, and she couldn’t see where the light of day was for this relationship. But as soon as she came back, her mother was furious, she knew she had done wrong, there was nothing she could say, she could only stand quietly and listen to the scolding.

Zhu Yanshu scolded and scolded tears came down, Zhang Ma rushed up to help her: “Mrs., you calm down, big careful just a moment of confusion. Miss, what are you still waiting for? Quickly apologize to your mother!”

Yang Yucan took a step forward and was interrupted by Zhu Yanshu: “I don’t want you to apologize to me! Reflect on yourself and don’t ever talk to me if you can’t figure it out!”

Yang Yucan turned around and went back to the house.

Zhang Ma helped Zhu Yanshu to go back to her bedroom, and then hurriedly came out and ran into the kitchen to make Zhu Yanshu hot tea, she saw Su Chunjun who was still standing in the house and sighed, “Teacher Su, I’m really sorry to let you see this scene. There’s no way I can entertain you tonight, Yan Yan, you can see Mr. Su out.”

Su Chunjun hurriedly said that it was fine, he looked towards Yang Yuyan who had been hiding behind him since Zhu Yanshu’s outburst, and softly said, “I’ll go then?”

Yang Yuyan’s body was tense and her eyes were as wide as bronze bells, like a frightened cat. She followed Su Chunjun to the door in silence.

Su Chunjun opened the door, looked back at her, was silent for a long time, and sighed, “If it wasn’t for what happened today, it wouldn’t have mattered if I invited you up to have a seat. But if I take you away again today, your mom will be even more angry.” He reached out and gently touched her shoulder, saying gently, “Why don’t you go to your room and memorize for a while, don’t worry about what’s going on outside, and go to bed when you’re tired of memorizing. We read it just yesterday, the one you said you liked so much. Petrarch’s Songbook: at this moment all is silent ……”

He softly recited a sentence, and the rest of the sentence came to mind in Yang Yuyan’s mind, she closed the door, turned around and went back to her room, took out the book of poems, flipped to the page, and softly recited, “At this moment all the music is silent, and the winds are calming down …… I die a thousand deaths every day, and am also born a thousand times ……”

Su Chunjun muttered the verse under his breath, slowly took a step up the stairs, opened the door, entered the room, and closed the door, “Fighting is my part …… Only when I think of her, my heart gains a little comfort …… I am still a long way from happiness. ”

The next day is the first day of the Lunar New Year, the street is extraordinarily noisy, I do not know where to come from a section of the sound of gongs and drums, festive.

Zhang Ma urged both Yang Yu Cicada and Yang Yu Yan to get up early in the morning.

“Hurry up and pack up, you guys should go to that surname Yang’s place to pay New Year’s greetings. Why do you all look like you haven’t slept well!”

Yang Yucicang’s eyes were red and swollen, Yang Yuyan’s eyes were black and blue, exasperated, Zhang Ma said, “If that Yang sees this, he’ll think we’re not as well off as he is!”

Zhu Yanshu never came out, Yang Yuchan kept looking at her bedroom door. Zhang Ma urged her to eat breakfast and said, “No need to look, your mom won’t come out. Last night, she was so angry at you, she regretted it to death! Alas, you mother and daughter are also really, no one dares to persuade you when you quarrel, and both of you regret it afterward.”

Yang Yucan bit her lips, thought for a moment, put down the dishes, walked to Zhu Yanshu’s door and knocked gently.

Inside the house, Zhu Yanshu is still lying on the bed, she didn’t sleep well all night last night, when she hears the door ringing, she thinks it’s Zhang Ma, and raises her voice, “Zhang Ma, I’m not going to eat breakfast.”

The person outside the door paused for a moment and said, “Mom, I’m sorry.”

Zhu Yanshu sat up from the bed in a flash, looked at the door with regret and anger, and finally didn’t answer, and lay back down again, still covering her head with the quilt.

Yang Yucan stood outside the door for a while, only to go back to the dining table and sit down to continue eating breakfast.

Zhang Ma found both of their clothes and shoes and laid them out on the sofa for them to change.

She was so busy that her feet didn’t touch the ground, and when she went to the table to see that both of them hadn’t eaten much, she couldn’t be bothered to scold Yang Yucan for fear of irritating her even more, so she had to ask Yang Yuyan: ”How come you’ve eaten so little too? Teacher Su didn’t come today, and no one ate your leftovers.” After saying this, she muttered, “She used to come every day, but she didn’t come today.”

Yang Yuyan was listless.

Last night Zhu Yanshu angry, immediately remind her of her own birth mother, last night even dreamed dream, her birth mother is still angry, angry at a small child on the ground, but also next to her grandma angry, grandma face her birth mother is a bit weak, probably can not quarrel with her, but also can not help but to talk back, the small child on the ground is crying loudly. She somehow thought it was her sister or brother. When she woke up she could not sleep any more, and turning over in her bed, she remembered that her mother had thought of having another child, believing that the first would be stupid and useless, and that the second would be smart and clever, and would be a good remedy for preserving the marriage.

She had also envisioned that because of her suicide, her mother and father would feel guilty and come to their senses, repenting and changing their ways. It was always pleasant to imagine that.

But after last night’s dream, she suddenly woke up to realize that with the character of the biological mother and father, they will only blame each other after her suicide, and then the biological mother will not admit defeat, may really have another one to be used to bolt the father; and the biological father, although he has always wanted to get a divorce, but it has always been divorced not to leave home. So he will also definitely step into the trap again and get another child he doesn’t want.

Yang Yuyan suddenly realized yesterday that people don’t change; people will always step into the same river, make the same mistake, fall for the same person’s tricks, and fall for the same deception.

This is how her birth mother and father messed up their lives. She herself, impulsive and reckless, cynical and pessimistic, jumped off a building the last time she couldn’t solve her problems, so what about this time? Will she still have problems she can’t solve? Would she still choose the same path?

She doesn’t think Yang Yuchan and Ma Tianbao are right for each other, but what if the next person Yang Yuchan falls for still sucks? Will she continue to tear them apart?

At the end of the day, the problem lies with Yang Yuchan and not Ma Tianbao.

Without Yang Yuchan, their family wouldn’t even know Ma Tianbao ah, so what does it matter to them what kind of person they are?

Zhang Ma urged them to hurry up and wash up after breakfast, come out to comb their hair, change into their clothes, and then bring their New Year’s gifts.

When she carried the gift box to Yang Yuyan, she was not happy about it and said, “Still want to give him something?”

Zhang Ma said, “It’s just a pair of door couplets, it’s not appropriate to come to the door without giving something. It’s not worth much money, so take it.”

Yang Yuyan took it without a trace of humor.

Zhang Ma sent them downstairs, while continuing to instruct them, “Go and meet the people and then come back, you don’t have to eat at their house, I’ve already prepared a meal at home. If they stay, don’t say yes, what can we eat at home? I’ve cooked a lot of good food today!”

When she met her neighbors, Zhang Ma said loudly, “It’s New Year’s Eve, and the children go to kowtow to their own fathers! Yo, you have to go every year. Alas, I can’t remember these two children over there. We can’t teach our children not to recognize their own fathers, it’s all about filial piety!”

After spending a little while on the stairs, Zhang Ma was satisfied and led them downstairs, got in the car, and added: “Don’t eat there, come back and eat!”

Yang Yuyan still twisted her head as she sat in the car, “No one would eat there!”

Neighbors who knew about the Yang family’s past laughed, and Zhang Ma also laughed and slapped her thighs, “Second Miss, you can’t talk about this during the New Year, so let’s give a yuck!”

Yang Yuyan then twisted her head downward and gently bawled.

The crowd laughed again.

Someone said, “Good! This is the same as pooh-poohing on that Mr. Yang’s face!”

“Second Miss, see your own father spit in his face!”

Zhang Ma exclaimed, “You people, she’s a villain, she should take it seriously!”

Yang Yuyan turned her head and shouted again, “Only a fool would take it seriously!”

Now everyone laughed even louder.