Chapter 445

She didn’t really have any other choice.

So she picked up Jin Julie, followed Yu Yingda.

Yu Yingda’s so-called “shed” is not close to this side, they walked for at least ten minutes, not to exclude because Jin Juli almost no way to walk.

And that “shed”, more like a garbage heap.

It was half a person high, with a few sticks or other things as a support, set up a small space, can let a person get into it to lie down. It was covered with newspapers, billboards, broken quilts, that sort of thing.

She thought Yu Yingda was a Japanese beggar before she recognized him.

Now that she saw the shed, she was sure that Yu Yingda was indeed a beggar.

Moreover, he is a Chinese, in the edge of the Japanese Concession as a beggar.

…… This is not surprising.

She can immediately think of several advantages.

First of all, there would be no hooligans coming over here in the Japanese Concession. Although the Japanese people living in this neighborhood are poor, but compared to the Chinese poor in the same city, the Japanese poor can at least have food to eat, have a job to do, can earn a little money, so the bad guys here are much less.

Secondly, there are only Japanese policemen patrolling here. The Japanese police are mean to the Chinese, but to the Japanese poor, they are probably at best a somewhat vicious bad guy who will beat up and rob people, but not kill them.

Finally, it should be easier to beg for food here.

Yu Yingda did find a “safe” place.

And he was able to hide here because he was disguised as a Japanese. He should be able to speak Japanese.

This is also a little advantage that his past experience brings him, so that he can survive.

Yu Yingda saw that they didn’t go in, he desperately explained, “It’s clean inside, I clean it every day. I clean it every day. The clothes are clean, not dirty, and there are no bugs.” He seemed to be afraid that they would dislike it.

Zhu Yuyan first drilled in to take a look before letting Jin Juli go in.

Jin Juli climbed in and didn’t move, she lay on her side and didn’t scream, as if she was just sleeping.

What is it like for a woman to give birth to a child?

Zhu Yuyan really had no experience.

But she had seen not a lot of them to put it mildly.

The ones she had seen in her previous life on TV were mothers desperately weeping and crying, as if they had to use all their strength to give birth to a child.

Jinjuri definitely couldn’t cry and shout, the noise they made would be too loud and attract people.

But Jinjuri didn’t cry out either, she didn’t move as if she was dead.

From the time she escaped until now, she had been calm. As if, being able to get rid of Yamamoto and walk out of that mansion, she was already satisfied.

Zhu Yuyan couldn’t offer much help.

She had seen women giving birth when she used to go to the poorhouse to deliver supplies.

They would lie on the ground, and the better ones would have a mat, or a sheet, or a piece of clothing to lie on and cover them. The worse ones would just lie down on the ground and give birth, not on the floor of the house, but on the ground outside, and just lie there in a curtain, surrounded by lying patients as well.

It was in these surroundings that the woman gave birth to her child, silently.

“Silently” means that they really make very little noise.

As if they didn’t have the strength – and they probably didn’t – they went hungry for long periods of time.

There was only one meal of porridge, one bowl of soup, and one piece of bread per day in the poorhouse.

In this situation, the children were small and did not grow up in the stomach. The mother has no strength and the child struggles to come into the world.

These children will not all be born to a husband and wife. Nor will all of these women have husbands. For most of them, the origin of the child is not clear.

Sometimes it’s violence, sometimes it’s a trade.

One can’t blame anything, only try to help.

Zhu Yuyan guarded the shed.

Yu Yingda is so happy that he carries out the water he has saved.

“I go to the well every day to fetch water, and the water urn is cleaned every day, and I’ve boiled this water, and it’s all clean.” He put down the water urn with a scoop inside.

Zhu Yuyan was already thirsty and hungry.

She hadn’t eaten much today equal to the day, and the unknown western meal she ate at Yamamoto’s house had long since been digested.

But Jin Juli ate even less.

If she had known she was going to escape today, she would have persuaded Jinjuri to eat more.

She cupped the ladle and took a sip, the water was cool and sweet. She drank a ladleful in one gulp and served some more, bringing it in and feeding it to Jinjuri so she could drink it as well.

“How does it feel? Ever feel like something is falling down?” She touched Jinjuri’s forehead, it was all sweaty and a little hot up.

Ginjuri smiled and nodded.

She held her hand, “Are you in a good position to use your strength? Do you want to turn over? Try lying upright.”

She helped Jinjuri change from lying on her side to lying upright, and her stomach showed.

Unlike the pregnant woman’s stomach she imagined, this stomach, it was positioned a bit down, like right above her butt.

Is this the right position?

And this belly didn’t look like a water balloon – she remembered that the baby was in amniotic fluid and would be born with the discharge of the amniotic fluid.

But just now, Juri Kim had bled a lot. There was blood in the amniotic fluid, which didn’t seem like a good thing in any way.

She gently put her hand on her stomach.

The stomach was hard.

Zhu Yuyan thought about it as an afterthought – giving birth to a child seemed like a very time-consuming affair.

Some people would give birth for days.

But they obviously couldn’t give birth for days here!

But what was to be done?

It’s not like this world had oxytocin!

Zhu Yuyan drilled in again to check on Jin Julie and asked her, “How much do you hurt now? Does it hurt a lot?”

A bad pain should mean that she is about to give birth.

Jin Juli’s expression is still very wooden, but she is nodding, “It hurts a lot.”

But looking at the expression, she looked like she couldn’t feel the pain.

How well she could endure pain in the end.

Zhu Yuyan really didn’t know anything about how to give birth, she could only give Jin Juli a boost, holding her hand and saying, “If it hurts, push harder and pull it out like shit.”

Jin Juli nodded her head and held her hand tightly.

“Come on, cheer up.” She whispered as she held Ginjuri’s hand.

“Come on.”

“Come on.”

Yu Yingda was on guard outside and he heard the voices inside.

He had seen the birth, when Mrs. Liao gave birth, he was already in the Liao family.

The Liao family used to have fewer houses, and when someone in the family had a baby, they hired an outside midwife to deliver the baby, and he had seen how the midwife did it, and to be honest, it was a bit scary.

Now he was outside and heard that the second young lady was a bit at a loss for words, thinking that even though she had married, she had not yet given birth, so she should be very anxious now.

He whispered outside, “Second Miss, you help her press her stomach.”

“What?” Zhu Yuyan asked in alarm.

Outside, Yu Yingda whispered, “Press her stomach. Help her press her stomach to press the baby out, she doesn’t have the strength to give birth, you help her push.”

“Press” her stomach?

Pressing the baby out?

This was really beyond Miss Zhu’s ability to accept.

In her impression, both the mother and the child were like tofu that could not be blown or slapped, so how could she need to press her stomach when delivering a baby?

It was like squeezing a ball out of a bottle, relying on brute force.

There is a possibility that the bottle will be squeezed out, and there is a possibility that the ball will be squeezed out.

Zhu Yuyan didn’t dare.

Jin Juli also heard it and she put her hand on her stomach.

She said, “I’m fine, you squeeze.”

Zhu Yu Yan’s two hands shook and shook, “I can’t, I don’t dare to push, what if it breaks!”

Yu Yingda had seen Jin Juli’s appearance, although he didn’t recognize who that woman was, but in the middle of the night, the second young miss helped a clearly strangely dressed woman with a big belly to come over, the most horrifying story of the inner house he could think of was just like that.

But Second Miss was a good person, she was definitely here to help this woman.

Yu Yingda whispered, ”Second Miss, you must help her give birth. Something will happen if the child is smothered in her stomach.”

The child didn’t matter.

Zhu Yu Yan did not care about the death of this child, she only wanted to save Jin Juli.

Yu Yingda: “If the child is not born, the mother will suffocate.”

–She is afraid of this!

What she is afraid of is that having this baby will cause problems and kill Jin Juli.

Jin Juli pressed Zhu Yuyan’s hand: “Press it, press it out and I’ll be relaxed, I won’t have anything to be afraid of anymore.”

Zhu Yu Yan had no choice, kneeling straight, both hands on the stomach, trying to push.

The stomach was hard, it couldn’t be pushed at all, and there was no reaction inside.

–Could it be that the child is already dead?

Zhu Yu Yan: “When you feel it, I will press again.”

Jin Juli nodded and pressed her hand.

When Jin Juli exerted force, Zhu Yuyan pushed her stomach and pushed down.

The place where she was kneeling quickly became moist, not knowing if it was blood or water.

Jin Juli’s face in the dark also white glowing, if not her hand has been pressed Zhu Yu Yan’s hand, Zhu Yu Yan would have gone to feel her pulse.

I don’t know how many times passed, Zhu Yu Yan suddenly felt the stomach under her hand became soft.

Jin Juli stretched her neck and relaxed all over, holding her breath for a while.

When Jin Juli started to try to catch her breath, Zhu Yuyan didn’t dare to take off her pants – she just realized that she didn’t help Jin Juli take off her pants at all.

Those suit pants were also strange looking, the position of the buttocks was made especially fat, I don’t know what style it was.

Jin Juli’s two legs were as thin as chopsticks, and now her legs were relaxed.

Zhu Yuyan: “Born, born?”

Jin Juli looked at the top of the shed and through the gap, she could see the night sky.

Her eyes were open, tears running down her cheeks.

Her voice was extraordinarily calm, steady.

“Drown that child, throw it in the river, drown it.”

Zhu Yuyan silently pulled down her pants and found the “child” that had slipped under her crotch.

It was small, so small that it looked like a piece of meat, not a child.

It was about the size of two palms.

Its body was blood red, not the skin, but the color that came through, and the blood stains that hung on it.

Its eyes seemed unusually large, the lids bulging and taking up half of its face.

The nose was small, and the mouth was a bit large, but the face was small, like huge eyes and mouth on a very small face.

In all honesty, I can’t say it’s cute, it’s not even remotely close to cute.

But, “pathetic.”

A, poor, life.

For a moment, Zhu Yuyan thought of her own birth. Her real parents, before she was born, had stormed into a big war. Her father had an affair and wanted a divorce, her mother had to face such unfortunate news before she gave birth to her child, she was unemployed, her husband made a lot of money but didn’t want to share it with her, and her child was useless and would only tire her out.

In fact, she has no right to resent her mother.

The world gives parents and children too many beautiful words, so that parents and children have too many expectations.

In fact, parents may not be loving and children may not be filial.

Everyone is opening a blind box and no one is luckier than anyone else.

It is unfortunate for innocent children to meet unloving parents.

It is also unfortunate for loving parents to meet unfilial children.

Zhu Yuyan once thought it would be better not to be born if she was not loved by her parents. More than once she cried out to her biological parents.

“Why did you give birth to me?”

“You all don’t want me, so you might as well not have had me!”

She had also made the choice to leave. The choice to leave that world.

But now, she didn’t think that way.

If she could choose again, she still wanted to live.

Even if she wasn’t loved by her parents, even if she had to face a lot of unpleasantness after being born, she still wanted to live.

She touched the child.

It didn’t move.

It was dead, I think.

Its hands and feet were relaxed… should a newborn’s hands and feet be tightly curled? Or relaxed?

It didn’t cry or breathe.

Sure enough …… it was dead.

This is good.

She breathed a sigh of relief.

She wrapped the baby in old clothes from the shed.

She turned her head to Jin Juli and said, “Born dead.”

Jin Juli’s eyes were incomparably bright, incomparably godly, and she said contentedly and happily, “Okay.”

Zhu Yuyan: “I’ll go throw it away, you sleep for a while.”

She comes out holding the packet.

Yu Yingda stood not far away, seeing her come out he rushed over and looked at the things in her hands.

Zhu Yuyan: “I’m going to bury it, it hasn’t moved a muscle since it was born.”

Yu Ying Da sighed, “Then it’s better for me to go, I’ll go bury it, second miss, just don’t move.”

Zhu Yu Yan thought about it and felt embarrassed to let someone else go, but she couldn’t leave Jin Juli too far away, and it wasn’t good to bury it near this shed, this was after all where Yu Ying Da lived.

She hesitated for a while, then Yu Yingda said, “Second Miss, give it to me, I’ll be fine with this kind of thing, you go take care of that madam.”

He took the initiative to take the packet, turned around and trotted away.

Yu Yingda didn’t run too far, he knew that there was a puddle in the neighborhood, shallow yes, but with all the rain lately, there was still water, burying it in that neighborhood would be dug up by the wild dogs that went there to drink, not good.

This is a person after all.

He first went to the puddle there, want to give this child a wash, to go, clean.

Who knew that just as he put the child into the water, the child struggled and twisted, and opened his mouth to cry, and he immediately covered the child’s mouth with his hand.

–The child did not die!

Yu Yingda froze.

He had always wanted to have a child.

He had thought of marrying Ms. Zhu and loving and showing off the first and second young ladies as if they were his own daughters.

He also kept a concubine, wanting her to help him have a child.

Then the city was in chaos and the concubine ran away.

Until now, he had fallen into this situation, where every day was just about living, and he had long since stopped wanting children.

Because what he wanted was a decent life, a respectable life. He imagined a family to be in a hall with clear windows, a beautiful wife, and smart children.

Now he’s a beggar, ah, and to raise a child, that would be like sharing his rations.

–This child, he certainly can not raise.

He thought so, but he couldn’t let go.

–The child is still alive, surely he can’t bury it.

He washed the child, wiped him clean, took off his shirt and wrapped him in it.

–It’s a little boy.

The second lady is waiting for him to return.

The second lady is delicate, can not let her wait there alone for a long time.

Yu Yingda put the child on the ground and looked around for grass and leaves to cover him up so that no one would find out.

-Wait for him to send Second Miss away, and then come back to find him.

Looking for him for what?

He thought in his mind.

–I’m sure I can’t keep it.

–Put it on someone’s doorstep and maybe someone will pick it up and raise it.

–He could still visit it once in a while.

–He could just look at the door.

He’s the boy’s benefactor.

He doesn’t want him to return the favor.

He just wanted to look in from time to time, that’s all.

As if there was a thread pulling on him, Yu Yingda was rarely happy.

He went back with excitement.