Chapter 67
Household chores seem simple, but it is not easy to do them well.
Yang Yuyan sat on the yellow car intentionally want to ask Yang Yucan this morning at home how to live, is not very worried about the school, worried about Ma Tianbao, and so on, but see her face did not dare to ask.
When you enter the door, don’t ask about glory and blight, but when you see the face, you will know.
When she saw Yang Yucan’s face, she knew she was in a bad mood.
Yang Yuyan turned to ask, “What’s for lunch today?”
This should be the safest topic.
“Sister, what did you make for us to eat?” Yang Yuyan was really quite curious about what she would eat for lunch.
Before she left home today, she listened to Zhang Ma’s intention to eat something simple, letting Yang Yucan go to the market to buy a few pounds of noodles, and then buy some vegetables and cooked food, so that the family would eat the simplest noodles in soup at noon, and then stir fry two more dishes on the line. And Yang Yuchan do not have to fry, she just in Zhang Ma home before the vegetables bought back, simple clean up, can let Zhang Ma home directly after the do it, plus cooked food do not have to do, just need to cut everything on the plate or to the steamer on the hot a little bit, Yang Yuchan’s work is simplified for the buy vegetables, wash vegetables, cut vegetables these three.
So easy!
She was quite curious as to what kind of dishes Yang Yuchan had bought.
Yang Yuchan said in a nonchalant manner, “You eat what I buy!”
Then what exactly did you buy?
Yang Yuyan returned home with a curiosity that was about to roam out, once she entered the door, Zhang Ma hadn’t returned yet, Zhu Yanshu was already back instead. She was changing clothes in the bedroom, and when she heard the door slam, she said in a loud voice: “Mrs. Zhang? Zhang Ma, you quickly go to the outside of the Hefu residence to ask them to send a table of food up, I saw the dishes that big sister bought, there is no way to eat ah!”
After hearing this, Yang Yu Cicada’s face instantly turned red.
Yang Yuyan went into the kitchen and saw a big pumpkin on the ground.
She asked Yang Yucan in surprise: “Boy, it’s so big, how did you carry it back?”
Zhu Yanshu changed her clothes and came out, saw Yang Yucan’s red face standing in the middle of the house, she glared at her in a bad mood: “You go, go to Hefuju and order a few dishes to come back, I want to eat yellow croaker, order a small chop for your sister, the cornish hen that you love to eat, and then ask for two fresh veggie dishes, one plate each of bad chicken, bad fish, and they will also send two small dishes. Go and come back quickly! By the way, I want a bucket of rice, and if you want soup, I want two, you watch what kind of soup you want, one sweet and one savory.”
Yang Yu Cicada turned around and went out, listening to her stomping footsteps running down, Yang Yu Yan sighed in her heart, and turned to ask Zhu Yanshu curiously, “How is Miss Jin doing? Is she sick and hospitalized?”
Zhu Yanshu sighed heavily, beckoned her over, wrapped her arms around her and sat on the sofa, rubbing her arms and said, “Miss Jin …… is not sick, she ah, was in conflict with her family and was locked up.”
Half an hour later, Zhang Ma and Su Chunjun also rushed back, and Hefuju also sent meals, and also sent an urn of osmanthus wine, which is rice wine with a low degree and sweet.
Yang Yuyan can also drink, Zhang Ma gave everyone at the table a cup.
Zhu Yanshu then started talking about what she had seen at the hospital.
She had purposely turned to Apricot Flower House and bought another snack before going to the hospital.
She had only spoken on the phone last night, and Mrs. Jin had deliberately invited her over, so Sun Zhao deliberately waited at the entrance of the hospital and led Zhu Yanshu in when she saw her.
“You also deliberately went in through the south door, afraid that you are worried about being seen again when you go in through the north door.” Zhu Yanshu frowned, “And that kid surnamed Sun, humph, used to be crazy like what, now he has become an errand boy, no longer crazy.”
Sun Zhao last time in the Zhu family’s affairs and Miss Jin’s affairs in two times, Master Jin is not as valued as before, even his father has to re-tailored to be a man, also can not care about him, so he is now like an ordinary subordinate, to see Zhu Yanshu is also put the posture very low.
Miss Jin lives in a very remote ward, the whole floor seems to have few people, her ward is in the innermost part.
There was a maid and an old maidservant taking care of the place. Mrs. Jin came once a day in the morning and once in the afternoon.
When Sun Zhao brought Zhu Yanshu over, Mrs. Jin was sitting on a bench outside Miss Jin’s ward, silently shedding tears, and when she saw Zhu Yanshu coming over, Mrs. Jin quickly wiped away her tears and stood up.
Zhu Yanshu thought that Miss Jin was half dead, but when she entered the ward, Miss Jin was sitting on the head of the bed, looking out of the window, ignoring Mrs. Jin’s tears. The maid stood aside, and the old maids didn’t dare to speak. There are flowers and fruits, books and newspapers in the house.
It looks quite good.
Mrs. Jin seems not quite dare to talk to her daughter, borrowed Zhu Yanshu to come, carefully probed to Miss Jin and said: “Ms. Zhu came to see you.”
Only then did Miss Jin turn her head and politely said, “Ms. Zhu, thank you for coming to visit me, I don’t have anything.”
She turned around, Zhu Yanshu saw that she had wounds on the corner of her forehead and neck, and both of her hands on the quilt also had wounds, as if they were abraded on top of a stone boulder, and now the wounds had long since scabbed over, with reddish brown swaths all over the place.
Ms. Jin refused to say anything more after she greeted her. She didn’t talk to Zhu Yanshu, nor did she pay attention to her mother. She also drank water when the maid asked her to, and she also took the clothes when the old mom wanted to drape them over her. But she just refused to say a word to them.
Zhu Yanshu didn’t stay long, she left her visiting gift and left.
In addition to thanking her for coming to visit, Mrs. Jin mentioned Yang Yuyan a little more, as if she wanted Yang Yuyan to visit Miss Jin as well.
Zhu Yanshu then realized that Mrs. Jin didn’t invite her, but wanted to invite Yang Yuyan, probably thinking that she would bring her daughter over to visit. She immediately brought up the fact that Yang Yuyan was preparing to go to college, had already paid a visit to a teacher and was tutoring, and had no time to spare.
After she came back, she couldn’t even bother to change her clothes, and first made several phone calls in a row, and only then did she barely manage to find out what had really happened.
At the Lantern Festival at the Golden Mansion, Master Jin and Mrs. Jin had been quite nice, and only Miss Jin hadn’t shown up.
“I guess she was probably locked up in the house at the time, and then probably avoided the guarding maids, which is why something happened.” Zhu Yan Shu sighed, “This child is too miserable.”
There was silence on the table.
Zhang Ma sighed, “This is just to find the child how to get into trouble again, how to be a parent yo.”
Yang Yuyan put down her chopsticks and said, “Mom, I want to go see her.”
Zhu Yan Shu frowned, “You should not go! The Jin family is in a mess right now, they can even force their own daughter to be like this, and they are even more capable of dealing with outsiders like you.”
In the past, when Zhu Yan Shu said something, Yang Yu Yan never objected, because she felt that Zhu Yan Shu was not her own mother, and still treated her so well, no matter in which aspect, she was not qualified to play temper in front of Zhu Yan Shu.
But this time, Yang Yuyan insisted on going to see Miss Jin.
“I want to go.” Yang Yuyan’s heart had a strong premonition.
That was that Miss Jin didn’t accidentally fall down the stairs.
She might have tried to commit suicide.
Those who had also been forced by their parents and had chosen this path had deep feelings about this.
People who weren’t in the same situation wouldn’t understand.
She said it to others more than once back then too. Friends, strangers online, people who knew her or didn’t seem to think her parents were that guilty.
If her father didn’t care about her and her daughter, she grew up well. Where did she get the money to eat and drink and go to school? Where did she get the money to eat and drink and go to school? Where did she get the big house? It is not all the father’s money?
Mother then scolded her, her own heart is also very bitter ah, her husband’s affair, she is also very sad ah, she is a victim ah, she is the daughter of why can not be more sympathetic to her?
She is a victim, why can’t she, as a daughter, be more sympathetic to her? Not to mention that she is not sick, her father is still rich, and she is also a rich second generation!
There are people in the world who are much worse off than her, so who is she to moan and groan about being sick?
But no one knows what it’s like to be hated and ignored by your parents!
Then what’s the point of her existence?
She should be grateful to her parents and love them. She wants to love! But they don’t love her! She held her love in her heart and tried to give it away, but no one wanted it!
She was meaningless to them, they didn’t love her, they didn’t need her.
It was pathetic.
She thought she was pathetic.
They say that if no one loves you, you have to love yourself more.
But how do you love yourself?
Spend a lot of money? Buy a lot of things?
But Yang Yuyan could say that it was useless for her to spend more money and possess more famous brands!
Sometimes she even felt that the biggest reward she got from going shopping was that the counter sisters and counter buddies would smile warmly at her, call her name affectionately, leave her messages on WeChat, call her, and tell her as if they were thinking of her, “Baby, the color you wanted last time is here! I saved it for you!”
She’ll go to the expense of that one sentence.
Make your own family?
Is that going to make boyfriends? Make girlfriends?
But can her girlfriends understand her feelings? When she complained about her parents to her best friend, she would say, “Just leave your parents alone and spend their money!”
And she does, she spends it hard, but she’s still not satisfied.
If only people could change their parents.
It doesn’t have to be too good, just ordinary ones. Just like girlfriends parents, the relationship is not love than gold, everyday will also fight for the child parents, but they will sit together every day to eat and watch TV, ordinary life, which is very happy ah.
Desperation is when you don’t want to take a step forward.
She regretted it after she jumped, but it was too late. When she came to this world, she realized that the other Yang Yuyan in this world was also punishing herself for her parents’ mistakes, she regretted even more.
In fact, what the strangers on the internet and her girlfriends and friends advised her was right, just like they couldn’t understand her, she couldn’t understand them either. They were in two worlds.
In fact, there was only one step between despair and hope.
It was only after she jumped that she realized it wasn’t that hard to abandon her parents, and it only took a moment to figure it out.
After she figured it out, when she thought of them again, she didn’t feel despair, but rather, she felt that they were troublesome.
There is a solution to a problem.
If Ms. Jin was already in despair now, then she might be able to go and give her a hand, and use her own personal experience to tell her that perhaps there was still another path she could take.
Yang Yuyan: “I guess Miss Jin wasn’t an accident, she jumped down on purpose. She wanted to kill herself.”
Zhang Ma instantly covered her mouth and let out a cry of shock, tears instantly overflowing.
She recalled the scene when she saw Yang Yuyan lying on the bed with pill bottles everywhere.
Zhu Yanshu also recalled that scene, that was the most terrifying day of her life. When that day passed, she was all incredibly glad that Yang Yuyan had survived and never thought of Yang Xuhe again, he disappeared cleanly from her heart, not even a single fur left.
Yang Yucan remembered the day she was called back from school, she rushed back to her home and from her home to the hospital, her father turned into a villain, he heavily hurt everyone in this family. She also remembered that Yang Yuyan admired her father very much when she was a child, because she was older and read and memorized poems faster and more, Yang Xuhe liked her more because of that, the little Yang Yuyan always tried hard to memorize poems trying to win her father’s gaze and praise. All the child’s admiration for her father was shattered like crystal that day.
For the first time, Yang Yuyan’s face faded away from innocence and fastidiousness, and she looked as stoic as a deep pool, with all the fluctuations of her feelings hidden beneath the surface.
“I want to persuade her.” Yang Yuyan said.
Su Chunjun sat beside her and looked at her quietly, remembering was the time he rushed home and heard that his father was going to marry a new man while his mother was still lying in her hospital bed. It was his father’s impatience that sent his mother’s last breath away. When she closed her eyes, her father stood in front of her bed with his young fiancée, who had come to say goodbye to her “together”.
He was furious and angry, disgracing everyone in the hospital room – in the words of his uncle and cousin.
He ran away from the wedding, leaving in a hurry, without taking any luggage with him.
There was no one to trust in that magnificent house, that huge family, surprisingly.
There was power and influence, scenery and hustle and bustle, everything but affection.
Zhu Yanshu sighed softly, “Alright, I’ll call Mrs. Jin, tomorrow I’ll accompany you to the hospital.”
Yang Yuyan said softly, “Thank you mom.”
Zhu Yanshu glared at her and hummed, “You’re being kind, do I have to stop you? You’ll be blessed if you accumulate more blessings. Alright, alright, eat quickly.”