Chapter 105
Song Baoying was angry and aggravated, her tears were falling, she really didn’t want to see her in-laws, so she covered her face and ran upstairs
She heard her big aunt say, “Mom, don’t upset BaoYing, I’d better take it off!”
“Just wear it! It’s just a piece of clothing, and she’s still petty and crying! This dress was bought by Leilei, you are Leilei’s sister, it’s not like you can’t wear it! I was really wrong! I saw her on a blind date, she was quiet and sensible, and although her education was low, she was barely good enough for Leilei Now that we’re married, there’s so much going on! This is not marrying a daughter-in-law, it’s marrying an ancestor She’s just wearing her clothes and she’s still crying! It’s bad luck!”
“Don’t talk too much!” The eunuch spoke
“Am I wrong? You don’t know! She’s a teacher and doesn’t work in the fields, so what’s so dirty about her clothes? You can wash them after one day! Doesn’t the water cost anything or the pancreas? And the pots and pans, you don’t know how many times you have to wash them! I just bought a bag of lye noodles and I’m running out of it ”
Song Baoying was so aggrieved that for the first time she began to wonder if she had made a mistake in getting married
She really can’t stay in her in-laws’ house, packed up a few clothes, and went downstairs again
Seeing that she was about to leave, the eldest girl hurriedly went forward to pull her back, “Baoying, don’t be angry! It’s my fault for wearing your clothes, I’ll take them off for you later”
Song BaoYing really didn’t want to talk, shook her head and broke away from her big aunt’s arm and walked away
If you really want to take it off, where is the need to wait for a while? It’s just that she doesn’t want to talk to her
When Song Bo Ying arrived at her home, she found that the room she lived in was full of clutter
Mom and Dad were a little embarrassed to see her, “Why are you back?”
Song Bo Ying had just been wronged, and when she arrived home and saw that her room had been taken over, she lost her temper and said, “Am I not your daughter now that I’m married? Why don’t you give me my room?”
Both parents’ faces did not look good, especially the father, who had always been a man of honor in the family, when did he ever receive such an accusation from Song Bo Ying, he got annoyed on the spot, pointing at her and scolding, “Song Bo Ying! You’ve gotten married, haven’t you? Why do you come home to make a scene? You married out and don’t come back to live, so what’s wrong with putting some things in that house? Why don’t you just clean it up later?”
Her mother also blamed her, “Why do you yell when you’ve been married for a few days? Why don’t you learn from your mother-in-law?”
Her mother had always looked down on her mother-in-law, thinking that she was too small and petty to be recognized
Hearing her put Song Baoying in the same category as her mother-in-law made Song Baoying even sadder
Song Baoying said this, sobbing uncontrollably
Xu Wen dug into her pockets and didn’t find anything
As a modern person, she was used to relying on paper towels rather than handkerchiefs, and often forgot to bring them
With a twist of her head, she saw a piece pinned to Dongsheng’s collar, and drew it down and handed it to Song Baoying
Song Baoying took the handkerchief and thanked him
Xu Wen realized that Song Baoying should be really well educated, ladylike temperament is engraved in the bones, even when crying, but also half-lowered head, silent tears, will not make a sound that should not have
Her crying half didn’t affect the people around her, even if Xu Wen kept looking at her, she didn’t say that she was crying to the point of tears and snot kind of thing
Song Boying stabilized her emotions, and the corners of her mouth hooked with difficulty, ”I couldn’t persuade my parents, and ran away from home again It wasn’t even spring yet, and it was quite cold I didn’t even wear a jacket I was not only cold, but also cold-hearted I thought I would have two homes after I got married
But I didn’t realize that I didn’t have a home after I got married My mother-in-law’s family treats me as an outsider, and my mother’s family treats me as a guest”
Song Baoying smiled self-deprecatingly, “I felt at that time, I only have Shi Lei left, if not him I have nothing”
Before Shi Lei went back to his office, he left her a phone number and said he could call her in case of emergency
Song Baoying called
The phone changed hands a few times before it reached Shi Lei
Song Baoying cried to him about what happened
Shi Lei said, “Is that all?”
Song Baoying’s eyes were still tearful, but the corner of her mouth was hooked upwards, “This is the man I’ve been longing for! I’ve suffered so much, I don’t know who to talk to except him, but he just lightly said ‘just this? As if I was being unreasonable I suddenly didn’t know what to say I just hung up the phone!”
Xu Wen sighed softly, she guessed that it wasn’t that Shi Lei didn’t care, it was just that they were particularly straight-laced a lot of the time
The phone number they left was for people to contact when there was a hard time
When she heard the phone call, she thought it was an urgent matter, but when she answered the phone, it was just a conflict caused by a piece of clothing that had caused Song Bo Ying to be aggrieved
That’s why she said, “Is that all?”
And Song Bo Young worked hard all day and came home to find her clothes worn and her room rummaged through
She’s supposed to be a person with a strong sense of boundaries, and it’s especially rude for her to have people come into her room without her permission
As a result, none of her in-laws and aunts have spoken up for her, and when she returned to her mother’s home and found her room occupied, she complained and was lectured, so she was aggrieved to the extreme
The only spiritual pillar Shi Lei also came to say “this is it!”
Putting himself in his shoes, Song Baoying should have been in a particularly difficult position at that moment
Xu Wen thought for a moment and comforted, “When people are in a negative mood, they will magnify the unpleasantness and ignore the beauty around them It shouldn’t be that Instructor Shi and your family’s aunts don’t care about you, they just didn’t feel your aggression in the first place”
Song Boying nodded, “Uh-huh After I hung up, Shi Lei called back I didn’t pick up He then called to a payphone near his home He asked people to call his in-laws to listen to the call He should have been angry with his in-laws My in-laws came to my house to look for me, and my parents realized that I was aggrieved and looked for me all over the streets as well”
“What happened after that?”
“Later on, my parents advised me that being someone’s daughter-in-law to fit into someone’s family is a difficult task in itself I’m a stuffy person and like to keep my unhappiness inside My parents said I should tell my in-laws about the points I minded, and we’ll all try to find a balance to get along”
“Have you found it?”
Song Bo Ying nodded and shook her head, “Making that scene temporarily solved part of the problem My great aunt returned the clothes to me My in-laws have also changed, although they still take things from me without permission, they are much better than before, at least they will tell me afterwards They also know how to wash the dishes after cooking”
“Isn’t that good?”
Song Bo Young shook his head, “It’s not like there’s more to life than just scrubbing pots and pans and washing dishes and clothes! After this conflict is resolved there will be the next, and the next So many, so many that you’re embarrassed to communicate anymore It’s impossible for people from two different worlds to live together
About the relationship because I called and complained to Shi Lei, mother-in-law has a lot of opinions about me She often hides me from Shi Lei and writes to him to complain about me
Do you know what? For example, when Shi Lei’s aunt came to my house, I didn’t call her first It’s not that I didn’t, I just didn’t do it first, that is, I didn’t call my aunt before she opened her mouth Just like that it’s said that I’m rude and disrespectful to his family”
“What’s Shi Lei’s attitude?”
“What attitude could he have? He just asked me or reminded me about it Later, I couldn’t stand it so I wanted to go back to my mother’s home to live, but my parents didn’t agree, saying that I’d be laughed at if I stayed in my mother’s home when I was already married I then applied for a dormitory at school”
Xu asked:””
Is Shi Lei wrong?
Was Song Baoying wrong?
Neither is wrong
It’s just that the marriage is a mess, and she’s all the only one who has to bear it
Xu Wen sighed softly, “The sadness of a long-distance relationship Why don’t you follow the army?”
“My parents won’t let me, saying that this is an iron rice bowl for me, and it’s not appropriate to lose it Besides, my disappointment with Shi Lei also started when I said I would follow the army
Shi Lei didn’t have a summer vacation since he graduated, and he went back home before he reported to the unit he was assigned to
I discussed with him about following the army As long as he takes me away, I will quit my job
At that time, Shi Lei said that he would take me over when he was settled in his new unit I waited, but when he arrived at the place, he told me that he had just been assigned to the new unit, and that the rules of the new unit were different from those of the unit before he went to military school In order for a family member to join the military in this unit, he or she must be a full company-level cadre At that time he was only a deputy company not yet qualified”
“I don’t know if what he said is true or not Anyway, I had no choice but to wait very passively” Song Boying pulled the corner of his mouth, “And then later he didn’t wait to be promoted to full company I got pregnant Pregnant not to mention Shi Lei, is the parents also do not let me come to him After ”
She paused, “Where is there after ah? Shi Lei said to wait for me to give birth to a child when he came home to accompany me But he didn’t come back at all when I gave birth, not even a phone call Yes, I understand that it’s not easy for him, and I understand that he may have this or that mission But I am also nine deaths ah? I am also pregnant with his child
When Shi Lei didn’t come back, my in-laws asked me to give birth at home, saying there was no need to go to the hospital As a result, the baby and I almost died together The hospital wouldn’t let me have a cesarean section, saying it’s not good for the baby, so I couldn’t be a pilot! At that time, I hated Shi Lei and his family”
Fortunately, Song Baoying’s parents are not pedantic people, signed the consent form for surgery
Because Shi Lei is not there, both parents, Song Baoying’s parents prioritized over the in-laws
It was not easy to give birth to the child, Song Baoying day after day with tears
She is also a beautiful person, after giving birth to a child blossom, stomach bulging like there is another
Her in-laws favored sons over daughters, and thought she had a girl, so they didn’t take care of her during the month of childbirth
She took care of the baby by herself for 14 hours a day, night and day, no holidays
Breastfeeding, diaper-changing, and soup-making were all she did for a long time
She suffered from a lot of monthly illnesses
Song Baoying tapped her hands on the side of her waist, “Now every time the weather changes, it’s like having a razor blade on my waist, cutting back and forth”
Xu Wen listened to the heart all suffocated, even comfort do not know how to comfort
Frozen feet are not cold in a day
Song Baoying liked Shi Lei because of his clothes, but also dried up her tears because of his clothes
Seeing Xu Man’s expression, Song Baoying in turn comforted her, “It’s fine Every military wife has experienced this kind of grief If you get through it, you’ll be fearless”
Because life couldn’t be any more miserable
One person is pregnant, one person has a baby, one person lives with her in-laws as the only outsider in the family
Day after day, year after year, it is also numb
When Shi Lei hurried back home, the child was already a month old
At that time Song Baoying is not dead, think a family as long as together still nothing matters, so she once again proposed to let Shi Lei take her with the army
But at that time, Shi Lei’s rank is still not enough
When Shi Lei’s level is enough, Song Baoying has already lived herself into a nun’s mentality
After Shi Lei got enough rank, he was especially excited to call Song Baoying and asked her to come with the army
But at that time, Song Baoying was already used to being a mother rather than a wife
Her love had only begun, and without experiencing the heat of love it had already disappeared in the dawdling of life
Song Baoying no longer thinks about Shi Lei and doesn’t want to follow the army
She worked hard and was recognized as an excellent teacher year after year
Only in the work, there is no need to worry about this ground
Under the persuasion of Shi Lei, he only promised to bring his children to spend the New Year with him
As a result, the family did not have a few meals, and the family was a pile of piles of people all day long, and Song Baoying felt that she had just changed her place to be a nanny
Of course, living in the compound is slightly more comfortable, do not have to wait for the elders
But the year is not over, Shi Lei went away again
As his wife, Song Baoying only got a “I have to go on a mission, about four months back”
Where are you going? What for?
Song Baoying didn’t know
“The best decision I made at that time was that it was fortunate that I didn’t wait for him there” Song Boying said
As soon as Shi Lei left, Song Baoying went back to her hometown
It was already half a year later when she reconnected with Shi Lei
“We’ve been married for almost ten years During these ten years, he hasn’t done any of the things he promised me I lost hope in him a long time ago He kept doing my work before he came to the island, hoping that I would come to the island I didn’t even agree”
Xu Man’s mouth moved, a “Then why are you here now?” He swallowed back when he reached the edge of his mouth
Song Boying saw Xu Man’s doubts and shrugged his shoulders, “My in-laws made a fuss The in-laws are looking forward to grandchildren”
How many times have the soft and hard been used, Song Baoying just won’t compromise
She is not a tool to have a child, why should they have a child when they say so?
But the in-laws see good and bad talk is useless, began to play a crying and hanging
Even good to her unit to go
The principal to talk to her, like her to deal with family relations
The meaning of that is to make so much noise, the school is not good to deal with
Song Baoying had no choice, which promised to go to the island in the New Year
Xu asked, “”
Song Baoying is not the first sister-in-law to go to the island because she wants a child
There was sister-in-law Wang Lingling in front of her, as well as several other sister-in-laws
“However, there’s also one more thing I’m curious about when I come” Song Boying smiled, “Shi Lei wrote me a letter, telling me a lot about the island, and the thing he talked about the most was you I always felt that he lied to me! Which woman keeps giving and is still willing?”
Xu asked, “”
“I’m not that great! It’s just that people are different from each other, and I’m probably suited for this kind of life? Re Instructor Shi?”
Xu Man looked up and saw Shi Lei standing beside Song Boying, dumbfounded
When did he come? How much did he hear?
Song Baoying followed Xu Man’s gaze and twisted his head, his eyes flickered slightly, then returned to his previous calmness, only moving to Xu Man’s side, pouring a place for Shi Lei to sit
Shi Lei looked at Song Baoying with complicated eyes, the knot in his throat rolled, and his voice was a little mute, “These years have been hard on you”
Xu Wen thought, this is about all heard it all
She moved in the direction of Lu Yuanzheng to give the couple a little space
If it wasn’t for this special meal tonight, Xu Wen would have wanted to suggest that they go home and have a good talk
Looking at Shi Lei’s eyes, there was pity and heartache and remorse, so it wasn’t necessarily love dead between the two
Maybe it was simply because there was too little communication and too many misunderstandings
Song Boying did not move, only lifted his eyelids, his tone cold: ”Change your words! So many years and not the first sentence, tired of hearing”
Newlyweds respectively, he said “after the hard work you!”
During her pregnancy, she only got two letters from him, which also contained two sentences, “Tough on you!”
She gave birth to a child, he went home and said, “I’m sorry for your trouble”
So many years, she took care of the old man to take care of the child, suffered all kinds of pain and aggression, from beginning to end is always this sentence “hard work you!”
Shi Lei was silent for a while and spoke again, “I’m sorry!”
He really didn’t know that she had suffered so much over the years
At the beginning, Song Baoying would still talk to him about the family’s trivial matters and the changes in her daughter’s life day by day
I don’t know when she stopped talking
His letter was to tell him that he was safe and to ask about his family
Her letter back is to report peace to wish him peace
It was more neutral than the reports he submitted every month
Not at all like a couple that has been married for over ten years