Chapter 62

When Xu Man first crossed over, he had to adapt to more than just field labor

For a post-modern person, not having internet is just like a smoker not having cigarettes; the withdrawal process is particularly painful, and the mental pain is several times harder to endure than the labor pains

There are many girls like Xu Man, who will be able to recognize rice in a few decades, but she doesn’t recognize rice

How did she get through it?

At one point she thought she was depressed

Depression?

Xu Wen looked at Wang Ying

Could Wang Ying be depressed?

Depression is, to put it bluntly, a disease of the heart

Xu Wen remembered that when some mothers had committed suicide due to depression, she had specifically searched for postpartum depression

In addition to hormonal changes in the body, the biggest reason is the psychological gap

When she was pregnant, her family treated her like a queen

The people around her take care of her in every possible way

After the night, she realizes that after giving birth, the whole world is helping to bring up the baby, only she should bring up the baby

From being an independent woman, a woman in labor becomes a tool trapped by her child with no freedom

She is even forced to eat something she doesn’t like in order to provide milk for her baby

The tight a4 waist turns into a bucket waist, and a small belly that never shrinks back even after delivery

Stretch marks that turn from red to white, you can even scare yourself when you look in the mirror

When I was pregnant, I imagined that after giving birth to my child, I would still step on high heels, put on exquisite makeup, and push a baby stroller to go shopping

But the truth is, you can wear makeup and high heels, but you can’t carry a bag the size of a palm, you have to carry a bag the size of a sack full of diapers, cups and bottles, a change of clothes, and paper towels and wipes

I imagined that the baby would stay quietly in the stroller, but in fact, within half an hour, the baby started to cry and want to be held

Often, with the baby in one hand and the stroller in the other, the baby is still wriggling around in my arms, and I can’t wait to take off my high heels and throw them away when I’m halfway across the street

Pretty dresses get kicked up to a dirty mess at the waist and stomach level

Shopping?

I wouldn’t even pay to go

I also imagined a happy family after the birth of a child

Dad comes down from work and cuddles and teases the baby

In fact, after the father came home, a symbolic greeting to the child, lying on the sofa, holding a cell phone, shouting: “I am tired all day, I will rest for a while how?”

Married are not willing to live with the elderly, in order to have someone to help bring children to wait for the monthly hard to live with the elderly

School vacation with their own mother to get along with a few days will be scolded generation gap into the mother-in-law and daughter-in-law to get along, but also the chicken and dog jumping

The huge gap between imagination and reality is the cause of most maternal depression

After the depression of the maternal, either demoralized, extremely pessimistic, complaining, tearful, a bad look at the idea of suicide

Others become a different person from what they were before they gave birth, not only resentful but also like a hedgehog, who can be annoyed by a single unintentional word from others, and speak with a sharp tongue and a sharp tongue, like Wang Ying, who feels that the whole world has wronged her

Although Wang Ying is not suffering from pregnancy depression, the drastic change in her life may be a blow to her

The more I think about it, the more I think that Wang Ying may be depressed, at least similar to depression or other related heart problems

Xu asked a little afraid, really stimulate people over, can not think to find a short death how to do?

Not waiting for Wang Ying to open his mouth, Xu asked and softened his voice: “Than complaining, I think you should try to rely on their own efforts to get the imaginary life?”

Wang Ying cried out, “How can I work hard? You all look down on me! All say I’m a bad woman! Won’t let me go to college! Won’t let me get a divorce!”

Xu Wen: “”

Xu Wen moved the fruit plate back, used a homemade fruit fork to send a few pieces of fruit to his mouth, and did not speak, waiting for Wang Ying to cry

Usually when Wang Ying cried, everyone was annoyed, either advising her or being mean to her

Even Zhao Gang was no exception

There are not many people like Xu Wen who don’t say anything and let Wang Ying vent

Wang Ying cried, and so did the child in her arms Xu Man took a look at Wang Ying, who was crying her heart out, and then looked at the seven or eight month old child in her arms, took the child from her and stood up to coax him in a circle

Seeing that the child kept staring at Wang Ying and crying, Xu Man softly said, “Don’t be afraid! Mommy is just too sad and needs to vent She’ll be fine after crying for a while won’t not want you”

The child in his arms didn’t know whether he understood or was tired of crying, and after looking at Xu Man and then at Wang Ying, who was burying his head on the table and crying bitterly, he actually stopped crying

Just about just cried too much, a moment can not stop, a twitching

Xu Wen lightly pulled the corner of his mouth, took a room temperature banana that hadn’t been put in the refrigerator, peeled the skin and handed it to the child

A seven or eight month old can eat bananas, right? Xu Wen was still a little unsure

Closing his eyes, he asked the Magic Mirror, “Magic Mirror, Magic Mirror, can a seven or eight month old child eat bananas?”

The Magic Mirror asked instead of answering, “Isn’t your child three or four years old?”

“What do you care? Just say you answer or not?”

“Oh! Can But not too much”

Xu Wen gave a disgusted heckle in his heart: in the novels I’ve read, there’s never been a golden finger as useless as yours!

Nothing!

Magic Mirror:””

Xu Wen took a clean mat and placed it on the ground, placing the child on the mat and finding him two Dongsheng toys

The mat was one she made herself, quite thick It would be used occasionally for yoga

Dongsheng toys were not many, after all, the conditions were here, basically it was the wooden hand wooden barn that Lu Yuanzheng had made for him and the trinkets that the other officers and soldiers had given him

This little baby has not yet reached the age of having toys, especially happy, chattering

Sitting for a while, unwilling to be trapped by the cushion, lying back, and then rolled, into a lying position, and then arched his back trying to crawl forward

But, I don’t know if it’s not enough months, or what, anyway, has been mayfly chrysalis did not move much farther

After about half an hour, Wang Ying’s cries finally diminished

Xu Wen moved back to sit on the side of the stool, so that both can look at the child, but also can look at Wang Ying

Wang Ying raised her head and looked at her with tearful eyes

Xu asked her, ”How did you work hard? And what did you do to make people like you? By virtue of you counting their comrades? Or by your laziness? Even if you want to go to college now, all you think about is how to get into college? How much have you paid for getting into college?

Of course, you may say that I did not give you the review materials But, Wang Ying, you have to understand one thing, I do not owe you, I am willing to give you to help you is in the face of Zhao Gang, not willing to give you is this We don’t know each other well and I have no obligation to help you, understand?

If I were you, I’d ask the people on the supply ship to buy for me Please, not an order from on high No one owes you, and no one has to help you!”

“I ” Wang Ying subconsciously wanted to retort, opened her mouth and didn’t know what to say

Her efforts to escape the farm were utilized by Zhao Gang

She married Zhao Gang in order to live in the family building and not work Zhao Gang was a comrade-in-arms of these officers and soldiers, and there was really no reason for people to like her

She took Zhao Gang’s allowance of thirty dollars a month, and did not honor his parents, usually eat and drink almost no money, she all Zhao Gang’s allowance to buy clothes to buy cosmetics, Zhao Gang never said a word against her

She wanted to go to college, want to be a college student assigned to work in the organization to eat public food, it is best to find a man who also eat public food, and then want to divorce

But how to get into college? Wang Ying only felt that everyone did not allow her to take the test so she did not study on her own

Xu Wen is right, she does not like the current life, but did not do anything

But, Wang Ying is still a bit aggrieved: “What’s the use of trying? All are against me going to college Zhao Gang wouldn’t have divorced me”

Xu Wen saw that Wang Ying’s tone was not as intense as just now, knowing that this was listened to, thinking that it was more or less saved

“Who says it’s useless to work hard? Let’s not talk about the distant ones, just look at this island You should remember what it was like when you first came to the island, right? It was a deserted island It was those officers and soldiers who cleared out this empty space and set up tents, so we had a temporary place to stay

Now they’re building houses in the hinterland below the mountain, and you’ve seen them rise up Isn’t this the fruit of hard work?

Hasn’t the vegetable planted by the cooks in the open fields grown quite large? The sheep they raised are giving birth to lambs Are these not efforts?

Are these efforts useless? Hasn’t our life changed?

And so have you

No matter why you married Mr Zhao, no one held a knife to your neck, it was your own choice You’re a wife who only thinks about enjoying your rights and doesn’t intend to fulfill your obligations, so who are you to blame others for not liking you?

And it’s just as well if Squad Leader Zhao doesn’t treat you well As far as I know, he’s been exceptionally good to you and the kids Knowing that you don’t want to pay attention to these people on the island, as soon as he wrapped up work, he hurriedly called for a meal and went back to his tent, first letting you eat and he took the child I also saw him wash your clothes more than once

Ask yourself, how is a man like Captain Zhao, who can carry a wooden barn on the battlefield and cook and bring up a child at home, not good enough for you?

Yes, it’s true that he’s just a soldier now, and his allowance is not high, and he may not be as educated as your ideal young man who eats public food But Zhao has already won two third-class awards, and he’s so down-to-earth and capable, it won’t be hard for him to work hard for a few more years and get promoted What? What’s wrong with a cadre in the army? They’re also on the same ration, but what’s the difference between a soldier and a cadre?

In my opinion, Captain Zhao has a much better chance of getting promoted than you do of getting into college

According to your thinking, when Zhao Ban Chang has been promoted to the cadre, shouldn’t he divorce you before marrying a young and beautiful one?”

“I ” Wang Ying was speechless again, squeezing out a sentence in the middle of the day, “Zhao Gang is not this kind of person”

Xu Wen snorted coldly, “So just because he is honest and good at bullying, he should let you bully and squeeze and exploit him to death?”

Wang Ying hung her head, both hands surrendering to the hem of her coat, “It’s not like I don’t know that he’s good to me I sometimes regret it after arguing with him But he always complies with me and spoils me, so I slowly feel like I’m right about everything”

Zhao Gang, who never disobeyed her, refused to let her go to college

The more she got angry

Xu Wen pointed to the child playing happily on the mat, “He’s the one who should be the most aggrieved Wang Ying, you’re not young anymore! You can’t keep living in your childhood, and don’t always feel that the world has wronged you If you hadn’t come to the countryside, you’d still be in the city Can you guarantee that you’ll go to college? Can you guarantee that you’ll marry the Prince Charming of your choice?

Even if the prince marries you, the prince has a mom Is it that easy to be a phoenix on a branch? Can you make sure that after marriage there will be no mother-in-law and daughter-in-law conflicts, can live the life of a rich wife instead of serving the family like a maid, buy a pair of shoes to look at the face of the in-laws?

By then won’t you have to give birth to and bring up children?”

Wang Ying bit her lip and her face changed a few times

“Now there are still two months before the college entrance exam, if you are not convinced you can try”

Wang Ying shook her head, “Zhao Gang won’t let me go”

“I can help you to talk about this I only have one condition”