Chapter 302 – Hope to Disappointment

He stopped crying. She completely saw that keeping her rich and famous for the rest of her life, and keeping her mother’s family well off, were all the conditions Zheng Ji could give her. As for the rest, there would be no more.

Her whole body was like falling into an ice hole, her whole body was cold. This man, let her again and again give birth to hope, but let her again and again disappointed, even despair ……

She hung her eyes in thought for a long time, raised her gaze again, and resumed her usual stoicism, like stagnant water.

She looked at Zheng Ji and said, “Yes, everything is at the master’s command.”

The voice was cold and clear, as usual.

Seeing with his own eyes that the hope in He’s eyes was extinguished little by little and finally turned into dead ashes, Zheng Ji’s heart stung again. He thought he wasn’t a soft-hearted person, but he still couldn’t bear to look at that deathly gray eyes one more time.

He got up and said, ”I’m leaving the capital soon, so I’m going to keep my mother and father company. In the future, if there are any difficult matters, have someone send me a letter, and I will try my best to do whatever I can.”

As his back disappeared behind the door, He pulled off the cloak with one hand, her long nails digging into her flesh.

Mouth repeatedly recited, “The living can not compete with the dead, the living can not compete with the dead ……”

Seeing Zheng Ji leave, Sister Tang, who was guarding the door, was disappointed. She backtracked back into the house and saw He’s one hand gouging the other to the point where blood was pouring out.

She pulled He’s hand away and cried, “Madam, don’t torture yourself. Without a man’s heart, you still have your son.”

He hugged Sister Tang and cried, “Sister, where did I go wrong, why did he do this to me? Why did he push me to the brink of extinction ……”

He was sick again, and Zheng Ji didn’t leave the courtyard before he left.

The Grand Princess vaguely heard about this matter, quietly complained to Sister Xia, “He’s also really letting people look down on, how can you think of a man like this. In other mansions, women over thirty are not interested in the masters, looking for young concubines. Ji’er, no matter what she said, didn’t get a yard of women to fill her up. Not to mention others, it’s Zheng Song of the second house, who has had five or six women who have passed through his hands.”

Sister Xia sighed, “That’s true. People, it depends on how they think. Some people can find a way to live a good life even in a bad situation. Some people, even in the best of circumstances, can’t live well.”

The Grand Princess thought deeply, “Ji’er’s life is bitter, the two women he met are not good. Hu’s is a short-lived ghost, she can’t live long even if she marries her. He has no means of her own, but she is still angry that men don’t like her. If I had known, I would have found a woman from the Li family. Alas, Zheng Song everything is not as good as Ji’er, only to find a daughter-in-law good …….”

The eldest princess also learned smart, again dissatisfaction also dare not complain in front of the son. The son did not talk to her and the prince consort’s side by the side of a team, to be kind to He.

The day Zheng Ji left, outside the city gates came many relatives and friends to send off, including Meng Ruimo and Jiang Xun.

Others regarded Meng Ruimo and Jiang Xun as his nephew and subordinate orphans, but in his heart he regarded them as his son-in-law and godson.

The time is still long, but hopefully when he comes back, his daughter will be able to see him. I don’t want to force my daughter to call him “dad”, I just want her to see him and smile with him.

He also had a wish, hoping that the relationship between Jing’er and Shiji would be as good as that between Jiang Xun and Shiji, so that Jing’er wouldn’t be alone in the future. Now, it seemed that it couldn’t be done.

After sending Zheng Ji away, Jiang Xun followed Meng Zhimo to the Floating Life Residence.

Jiang Xun told Jiang Yishi, “Yesterday, Uncle Zheng Shou led me to the other courtyard to meet Uncle Zheng ……”

Zheng Ji examined Jiang Xun’s strategy and riding and shooting, and also presented a set of good bow and arrows, and said that in the future to maintain the correspondence, Jiang Xun should report to him regularly about his studies.

Zheng big general so valued, Jiang Xun is extremely happy, big mouth happy grinning to the root of the ear.

Jiang Yishi did not stop them from seeing each other. As long as they don’t recognize each other, as Jiang Chen’s “friend”, Zheng Ji is willing to do his part for the orphan, so let him.

When Meng Ruimo wasn’t around, Jiang Xun added, “I think Grandma listened to Zhou’s words, and she gets upset when she talks about our mother. That day she also called Mother a ‘vixen’ and was stopped by Uncle ……”

Jiang Xun was furious when he talked about this. He was looking forward to the academy starting soon and hurrying to leave that home, there was no place for him to stay at home. Especially when the old lady scolded his mother so much, his heart was clogged.

Jiang Yishi was furious. In front of Jiang Xun’s face can scold so ugly, behind his back still don’t know how to scold.

When she scolded Hu so much, she was also scolding Jiang Chen, as well as their two children.

Jiang Yishi knew that the old lady was cool, the reason why she didn’t care about the old lady’s previous unkindness to her and Jiang Xun, was entirely because of Jiang Chen, and used the old lady to try to do her best to fulfill one of Jiang Chen’s filial piety.

She gasped, “Some people’s hearts can’t be warmed up, and if they don’t want to live a good life, they will fulfill her.”

In the future, the old lady will be cold.

Jiang Xun added, “Mr. Let me go down this fall, said that the autumn exam may be able to win, but next year’s spring exam hangs. I think, as long as I win the martial arts, even if I don’t win the jinshi, I don’t want to wait for another three years, next year directly into the military camp. I want to go under Uncle Zheng, where my father’s bones are buried, closer to my father. Spend a few more years at the border, get promoted fast.”

He often heard Zheng Yu say how vast and boundless Xiqing is, a good place for men to wantonly spread their bravado …… He has long wanted to go there.

Jiang Yishi also knows that the military officials are not like the civilian officials who look at the merit, the civilian officials even with the jinshi will not have a good future. And military officials, as long as there is a real thing, white men can also be a general. But she couldn’t let Jiang Xun go that far.

Said, “You should indeed go to dad’s grave to pay homage, but you don’t need to go there to become a soldier. Going to the fifth regiment camp is good, your brother-in-law is there. You have real skills and your brother-in-law’s help, you will be promoted quickly.”

With the Meng family as a backing, Jiang Xun wanted to enter any military camp, and his future would not be bad.

Jiang Xun still want to go to the border, but look at his sister’s slightly convex stomach, not good to argue with her at this time. Said, “We’ll talk about it when the time comes.”

A few days later, Mrs. Jiang came with Mrs. Jiang, Mrs. Jiang Yirou and Mrs. Jiang Yishan to visit Jiang Yishi. Jiang Yishi’s expression was faint, and she returned the gift when she left. The gift is simple, is back to the Jiang family, did not send the old lady alone.

Time slipped to the middle and end of February.

The earth back to spring, flowers red willow green. Although more green, less colorful flowers, Jin Yuan and Floating Life Residence is still like wearing a brocade coat general dazzling.

Full ten months of little CunCun rare smart, already can hold the wall walking, but also say “mother” “father” “ancestor” “flower The first time I saw him, he said “Mother”, “Father”, “Zu”, “Flower” and several other monotones.

“Zu” shouted the “Great Ancestor” Old Grand Duke and Old Lady, not grandfather Cheng Guo Gong.

Flower was touched, little CunCun so small can shout its name, I did not love him for nothing.

Huang Xin is committed to teaching his little cousin to call out “sister”, Meng Zhao’an is committed to teaching his little cousin to call out “brother”, Meng resigned to teach his little nephew to call out “uncle”, but little CunCun’s tongue is not working well, and he can’t hold back those few words even when he is holding back snot bubbles. But CunCun’s tongue is not working well, so he can’t hold in the words even though he has snot bubbles.

Cun Cun didn’t learn it, but Jojo did learn to call out “Sis”. Whenever Huang Xin comes, he calls “sister sister sister”.