Chapter 33

The summer shirt was actually very thin, so thin that Jiang Yimiao could clearly feel the warmth of his body heat ironed onto the shirt in the palm of her hand.

Her fingertips dug down uncontrollably.

The movements of the two of them were a bit awkward, so Zhao Shuming had to maintain his original position and quietly wait for her to relieve herself. He straightened his back, his upper body subconsciously tensing.

Jiang Yimiao had a bad little habit since she was a child, that is, she had to grasp something in one hand, and this thing was not fixed, as long as it could be grasped in the heart of her hand, it would be fine.

For example, the corner of her pajamas, the edge of the quilt, the doll’s hand.

However, when she slept with Zhao Shuming as a child, Jiang Yimiao preferred to grab things on his body, such as the quilt he was covered with, his thumb, or the hem of his shirt.

When she slept in the middle of the night, Jiang Yimiao’s posture began to spread out, with half of her leg resting on him, or her entire arm pressed against Zhao Shuming’s chest.

This habit had gradually lessened with age, but Jiang Yimiao still occasionally fell asleep with something in her hands, such as the edge of her current favorite plush quilt.

When she slept in the middle of the night, she still slept in whatever position she wanted, so Zhao Shuming didn’t miss out on getting smashed by her in the past two nights, but her movements didn’t hurt him at all.

Zhao Shuming had also gotten used to the feeling of her limbs touching any part of his body, such as now, even if her hand was on his chest.

He couldn’t wait for her to get a little bit harder, a little bit closer.

Jiang Yimiao felt that her mouth was a little hard, so hard that after her incisors bit her lower lip up and down a little bit, her other teeth started biting at the soft flesh of the inner walls of her mouth.

Her hand on Zhao Shuming’s chest was still trembling gently and uncontrollably, and because her hand was exerting itself, the veins on the back of her hand were even as pronounced as Zhao Shuming’s. She said.

“Miao Miao, how do you feel?” He asked softly.

Because her entire body was leaning over from the passenger seat, her head was resting on Zhao Shuming’s shoulder, and he was able to vaguely touch her hair by merely tilting his head in Jiang Yimiao’s direction.

Jiang Yimiao had washed her hair last night, and some of the fluffy hair still smelled of jasmine, and the invisible aroma mixed with his scent and melted into the air.

She bit her lip again.

“It’s still a little hard.” Jiang Yimiao swallowed her saliva, and the strength in her hands hadn’t been lightened, but it wasn’t too hard to pinch Zhao Shuming.

“Miao Miao, do you want to bite it?”

She blinked towards Zhao Shuming, her eyes filled with surprise.

Zhao Shuming realized that his words were ambiguous, and Jiang Yimiao specified that she thought he was asking her to bite the muscles on his body.

He did have this plan and idea, but now that the two of them were in the car, the glass couldn’t completely block their movements, and he couldn’t do this with her in broad daylight. do that with her in broad daylight.

He coughed lightly, his tone colored with a bit of discomfort, “Well …… River I mean you can bite my arm. ”

Jiang Yimiao froze in place, her brain did just short-circuit for a split second, breaking the mold and wanting to bite the muscles on his body, wanting to bite the part that was in her grasp.

She had thought that Zhao Shuming could be direct enough to allow her to bite there.

Jiang Yimiao licked her somewhat dry lips, and somewhat awkwardly buried her entire head, pressing it against his arm.

Even the hand that had just been gripping his body was loosened, turning to hold his right arm.

“Miao Miao?” Zhao Shuming gently raised his hand.

“No need! Just let me ease myself through quietly.” Her entire face was buried in his arm, so much so that Zhao Shuming couldn’t see her features or expression at all, but he knew that she was now shy in a rare way.

“Then it’s okay if you grip my arm a little harder.”

“Uh-huh.” Her voice was still a little muffled, and sometimes when you couldn’t bite something to relieve it, squeezing something in your hand could also relieve your weirdness.

But she’d already been gripping Zhao Shuming hard for a while just now, and her reaction really wasn’t that strong.

It was just that her fingertips were still gripping hard on Zhao Shuming’s powerful right arm, and his right hand and even his arm were clean, without any scars or wounds, not even moles There was.

Jiang Yimiao’s nails, which had grown slightly offline, instantly caused several reddish-white nail marks to fall on his white arm.

The pain in his arm gradually disappeared, and Zhao Shuming knew that she had relaxed the strength in her hand.

After leaning her forehead against her arm for a while, Jiang Yimiao felt as if it wasn’t as uncomfortable, and even her salivary glands didn’t secrete saliva like crazy anymore, she slowly raised her head.

The car was filled with the sound of her breathing, which was slightly heavy after the attack. Although Jiang Yimiao was sometimes a little bitter about her strange disease, and every time she had an attack, her whole body looked a little strange.

But in reality, her mood would become extremely happy after an attack, perhaps as a result of her brain’s reward mechanism.

For example, she was a little excited after grabbing Zhao Shuming with force. So excited that Jiang Yimiao felt that her heart rate might have become higher than usual.

She forgot to loosen her grip on Zhao Shuming’s arm and just sat quietly on the passenger side and took deep breaths, and it was only after a long time that she completely calmed down.

Only then did Zhao Shuming continue to speak, “Miao Miao, how do you feel now?”

“Feeling much better.”

“That’s good.” Zhao Shuming swept a glance at the arm that had been scratched by her leaving messy scratches and let out a soft laugh.

The force with which Jiang Yimiao scratched him this time was far greater than the last time she had a seizure at the mall from seeing a stuffed baby, but Zhao Shuming knew that the harder she pushed the more intense her emotions would become, and instead, it would be more soothing for her.

So Zhao Shuming hoped that she would pinch him harder, or even bite him harder ……

Even if the direct cause of her seizure this time was just seeing the cute kitten video, he was the object of her seizure.

Seeing Zhao Shuming’s gaze fall on her hand, Jiang Yimiao loosened her hand as an afterthought.

She ran her fingertips over the area she had scratched and frowned, “I didn’t scratch you, did I, I don’t seem to have a light hand. ”

“It’s fine.”

Zhao Shuming smoothly brushed up the hair she had just messed up from burying her head.

“When you were a child, that’s what I call not being light or heavy.” He laughed.

“Go to work, don’t be late, I’ll go straight to the studio later, I’ll send you a message when I get there.”

Jiang Yimiao nodded and checked the objects in her bag and her cell phone before getting out of the car.

When she sat down at the workstation, the rain outside the window seemed to be falling even harder, and there was also an occasional thunderstorm or two in the sky.

The gray-green sky looked like a heavy, thick cloth over the city, as if it would come crashing down if it lost its support.

It was just after eight in the morning, and the lights were on on the entire floor. The temperature of the air conditioner was still set according to the temperature of the previous days, so cold that Jiang Yimiao shivered as soon as she sat down.

She put on the thin jacket that she usually kept as a spare in the office.

“Why did it start raining again today, didn’t it say that the dry season started with a big sunny day after last Wednesday?” Qiu Xiaoyan took a sip of her iced Americano, which was even colder than Jiang Yimiao.

Jiang Yimiao sniffled and looked out the window again, “Don’t trust any weather forecasts in South City.”

She pulled out the mug that Zhao Shuming bought for her from her bag, Qiu Xiaoyan saw her unpacking the box and subconsciously glanced at it twice more with her afterglow, “Yo, you finally replaced that mug.”

“Yeah.”

“This one is also quite good looking eh.”

“Hehehe, I think so too.”

Jiang Yimiao took the cup out of the box, Zhao Shuming didn’t intentionally buy her a cute cup, but rather the same style as the original one in her office.

To be fair, Jiang Yimiao actually liked black, white, and gray, simple but without losing its beauty.

She briefly washed it again with hot water before placing the mug on her desktop, and only after getting lost in her work did she realize that she had missed replying to Zhao Shuming’s message.

Twenty-three minutes ago, he had sent her a message on WeChat, [Miao Miao I’m over at the counseling room].

Jiang Yimiao yawned and unhurriedly sent a received emoticon back to Zhao Shuming.

This rain came and went suddenly.

Zhao Shuming thought it was going to rain all day, but when he parked the car, the sun showed its head, and the beams of light shone in the puddles on the ground, making the ground look like a steamer with hot air.

Xing Anze was a friend he had only become familiar with after college, and was also the owner of this private counseling studio in the city center, which rounded up to Zhao Shuming’s half-boss.

Zhao Shuming’s profession actually had a higher degree of freedom, and taking on private work like this was allowed. Sometimes the college side would even have cooperation with hospitals or organizations as well.

However, he didn’t come here to work as a counselor to take cases, but to provide supervision for the counselors in the studio.

Supervision of counselors is mainly to point out the problems in the counselor’s work through the cases in the counseling room and help the counselor to understand and improve his/her work.

In addition to professional guidance will also provide emotional value for counselors, in short, it is the counselor’s counselor.

Zhao Shuming studied and worked in the United Kingdom when the mental health services are much more complete than in the country, so his work experience is relatively very adequate, enough to come to be a supervisor.

However, he wasn’t short of money, and coming here to be a supervisor was nothing more than a favor to Xing Anze.

“Coming so early today?” Xing Anze usually stayed in the studio.

His personal office was large, so large that it was like a recreation room, and this kind of work perfectly fit the persona of someone like Xing Anze, who had money and leisure but didn’t want to work.

“Dropping off Miao Miao at work and stopping by your place.” Zhao Shuming sat down peacefully and took a sip of hot tea.

“It’s her again, the person you’ve been talking about for years I don’t even seem to have seen.” Xing Anze shook his head.

“I’ll see her sooner or later, at the latest, maybe when I get married and have a wedding.” Zhao Shuming made a rare joke.

“Getting married and organizing a wedding ……” Xing Anze shook his head and repeated his words conspiratorially.

“I really hope there’s that day, you’re over the national age line for late marriage and childbearing.”

Xing Anze was such a broken-mouthed person, and Zhao Shuming didn’t love to fight with him, muffled and took another sip of tea without continuing the topic.

“Eh, what’s this on your arm?” Xing Anze’s sharp eyes saw the scratches on Zhao Shuming’s hand where Jiang Yimiao had scratched half of his arm.

Zhao Shuming’s skin was white, so the scratches disappeared slowly, and Jiang Yimiao had scratched a little too hard this time, and the cuticle of his arm skin had been damaged by her.

When I was a kid, if I was scratched or bitten by Jiang Yimiao like this, I would probably be fine the next day.

Nowadays, the metabolism of adults is far lower than the age of the body, so this kind of wound may not be healed for a long time.

For example, the last time he was scratched by Jiang Yimiao at the shopping mall, he still hadn’t completely recovered after half a month.

He stared blankly at those shallow scars, thinking that they might leave a very shallow scar.

Zhao Shuming looked at the scratches cluttering his arms in a happy mood, and an involuntary smile appeared on his face.

Xing Anze was puzzled by his expression, ”Did you scratch it? The mosquitoes are a bit plentiful lately, but it’s not as bad as scratching like this.”

“I didn’t scratch it, it’s just a small bruise, don’t worry about it.” Zhao Shuming stood up.

“My time is precious, I need to be home at four in the afternoon on time, so hurry up and start working.”

“What’s the rush.”

“Going home to cook ah, I’m not like you, there’s only one person at home.”

This time Xing Anze was choked by Zhao Shuming, who was in a more pleasant mood.

The water on the ground was quickly sucked away by the sunlight.

“Miao Miao, a rainbow! A rainbow is coming out outside.” Qiu Xiaoyan ran from the office’s small balcony and tugged on Jiang Yimiao’s sleeve.

“Really? There can still be a rainbow in a place like South City?” Jiang Yimiao asked with some surprise, not to mention South City, it was also hard to see rainbows in her hometown in Linshi.

In such a fast-paced big city full of skyscrapers, sometimes there were rainbows, but unfortunately they had long been obscured by the city’s buildings.

The last time Jiang Yimiao remembered seeing a rainbow was the morning after breakfast in her second year of high school, and she saw a double rainbow that time.

She was so excited that she even forgot to calculate her jet lag, so she ran to call Zhao Shuming and woke him up hard to listen to her recite a lot of recent events at school.

“Really, none of the buildings near our company are very tall, look, they might be gone later. ”

Ever since she was little, from those fairy tales that coaxed children, Jiang Yimiao had heard that seeing a rainbow would make her lucky.

When she was a child, she thought that there would be a treasure chest full of gold coins under the rainbow, and pulled on her father’s clothes, saying that she could borrow a shovel to dig for gold coins.

It wasn’t until she got a little older that she realized it was just refraction and reflection of light.

Still, she was excited to be led by Qiu Xiaoyan and ran outside the balcony.

Although it didn’t make much sense, Jiang Yimiao still felt out her cell phone and took a picture, making a wish in her heart in the process: quickly let me get promoted and get a raise to save up to a million dollars as soon as possible.

She looked down at the fainter-than-light rainbow in the photo and wanted to take another one.

When Jiang Yimiao looked up again, the rainbow disappeared completely.

“It’s out of sight so soon.” She said somewhat despondently.

Jiang Yimiao lowered her head and silently adjusted the luminosity and exposure to make the rainbow more visible on her phone screen, and then consoled herself with the thought that it was a really good shot.

When she arrived home a little while later, Jiang Yimiao pushed the photo of the rainbow in her phone’s album in front of Zhao Shuming.

“Zhao Shuming, look! I saw the rainbow at the company at noon today.”

It was a rare day when she didn’t have to work overtime, and even if it was a bit hot on the way home, hot as if her hair was wilting, it didn’t affect her mood.

Jiang Yimiao casually threw her bag onto a chair, and the screen of her phone moved in front of Zhao Shuming, the one where she had fixed the color tones.

Zhao Shuming had just finished the last dish, the sound of the range hood slowed to a whisper, and before he had a chance to tie his apron down he obediently turned around and bent over to look at her cell phone, “You guys have a rainbow over there today?”

“Yeah, I thought I’d never see a rainbow in my life in South City.”

Jiang Yimiao took a deep breath, “It smells so good, I can smell the beef, I’m so hungry!”

Her attention instantly shifted from the rainbow to today’s dinner, she couldn’t help but take her chopsticks and eat a piece of meat first.

“Just in time to finish cooking, eat an extra bowl of rice if you’re hungry.” Zhao Shuming untied his apron to spoon a full bowl of rice.

“I can definitely eat two big bowls tonight!” Jiang Yimiao compared two towards him.

“It’s good to be full.” Zhao Shuming laughed.

Muffled thunder began to emanate from the sky again in the evening, ringing out every now and then, but it never rained outside.

Jiang Yimiao accidentally wet her bangs in the shower, and she wanted to stand on the balcony to blow out the wind and dry her hair, but she ended up realizing once she headed out to the balcony that the sky outside was now very dull, like the prelude to a storm.

She turned around resentfully and bumped into a wall of flesh.

“Uh, when did you stand here?”

“I just got out of the shower and saw you standing outside the balcony but didn’t turn on the lights before I followed you into the balcony.” Zhao Shuming held her shoulders.

Jiang Yimiao touched her bangs, “My hair was wet and I wanted to blow the natural wind, but it turned out to be so stuffy outside.”

Zhao Shuming pushed up his glasses and looked up at the sky, “It’s probably going to rain heavily.”

“Go go go back to the living room.” Jiang Yimiao pushed him back to the living room.

“Then I’ll go wash my clothes first.”

The two of them put their clothes in the washing machine together except for their personal clothes, which were usually sorted by Zhao Shuming and put into a laundry bag to be washed together.

“Ohhhh okay.” Jiang Yimiao nodded and sat down on the sofa in a comfortable manner.

She turned to look at the row of dolls on the sofa, and among the dolls that Zhao Shuming had bought at the mall, Jiang Yimiao still liked that flat omelette doll the most.

Although it had very little cotton and didn’t pinch as much as the fat doll did, she just loved it.

Sometimes you don’t need any reason to like a thing or a person.

It’s just not easy to realize you like it.

Not far from the laundry came the dripping sound of a washing machine operating. Jiang Yimiao subconsciously looked up, thinking that Zhao Shuming should have poured the laundry detergent.

She tugged on the doll’s small hand and muttered to herself, “Why is it so cute?”

Jiang Yimiao herself didn’t even know what was truly cute, but the brain itself would just judge the cute this nature, and then the cuteness aggression kicked in excessively.

Jiang Yimiao held the doll in her arms and squeezed it. Although she wasn’t young anymore, she still had the right to play with the doll.

Sometimes Jiang Yimiao would even quietly think in her heart that these dolls were her babies, even if she had long since passed the age of playing house.

She thought that it might be her follicular phase recently, and with the rise in estrogen, her whole mood was much better.

On a whim, Jiang Yimiao took down all the dolls laid out on the sofa, wanting to try to see if she could hold all of them in her arms with her two arms, and then give them a firm squeeze with her arms.

Zhao Shuming had just walked out of the laundry room when he saw her sitting on the sofa in a somewhat awkward manner, her entire body bent over, her two hands struggling to stuff all the dolls into her arms.

Zhao Shuming laughed out loud at how cute she looked, “Miao Miao, what are you doing?”

“I want to hold all the dolls in my arms and squeeze them together.”

Zhao Shuming had always known that every time she came home, as long as she sat on the sofa, Jiang Yimiao couldn’t help but secretly kiss the dolls or touch each other with the tip of her nose and its little nose.

And now she can’t help but hug the doll and kiss and pinch it, and it would be even more comfortable if she could take a bite out of it.

Jiang Yimiao somewhat wanted to go back to her room to take a few bites of her bite gum, “I’ll go back to my room first.” She scattered the doll in her arms and ran off to her room in a single bound, skillfully taking out the cleaned bite gum from the box and laying on the bed with her eyes closed for a while.

When she opened her eyes she realized that Zhao Shuming had taken all the dolls into her room.

Jiang Yimiao rolled over and sat up, “Why did you bring in all the dolls.”

“Miao Miao, do you remember what I said before about cute desensitization therapy, usually we don’t exercise very systematically, tonight is free, we can try it out. ” He grabbed her favorite one, the omelette doll, and dangled it in front of her.

It was actually a way of having a seizure against something cute, easing the intensity of the reaction, and constantly stimulating it to make it potentially less intense when you had an attack afterward.

She nodded her head as if she were pecking at a chicken.

The two sat cross-legged in the glow of the room’s lights, each other’s eyes bright from reflecting the light.

One or two muffled thunderclaps still came from outside from time to time.

Zhao Shuming took his glasses off and put them on the nightstand, “River, I’ve noticed that the intensity of your seizures with dolls is actually not as high as with cute creatures.”

“Ah, is that so?” Jiang Yimiao had never noticed.

“For example, the intensity of your reaction to having an attack when you see a kitten is significantly stronger than when you see a doll, but of course it could be because your brain thinks kittens are cuter than dolls.”

She nodded thoughtfully.

“But desensitization therapy doesn’t work well with creatures as objects, so you might as well make use of the dolls as much as possible. ” Jiang Yimiao had clearly developed aggressive behavior, so naturally, kittens and puppies should not be allowed to touch her.

“Uh-huh.”

“So we can vent to these dolls together and not suppress our emotions too much. Here’s a couple of baby soother dolls that I just cleaned a couple days ago, so you can bite them if you want.”

She went on to nod again.

Jiang Yimiao trusted Zhao Shuming, and although she didn’t know if this would help, she knew that at least Zhao Shuming wouldn’t harm her. After all, releasing one’s emotions wasn’t a bad thing in the first place.

Those dolls were all hers, possessed by her, and it wasn’t like she was doing anything bad by wanting to hug, pinch, and bite them.

Thinking like this, Jiang Yimiao relaxed and fell onto the bed, then she hugged the two larger dolls and placed them in her arms to ravage them. She then held the two larger dolls in her arms and ravaged them.

But she just squeezed those dolls a bit hard, the soft filled cotton shrunk into a ball because of her strength, squeezing such soft things made her feel pleasurable.

But she momentarily forgot the amplitude of her movements, and after rolling twice on the bed accidentally got the doll that Zhao Shuming had given her as a child under the bed.

Zhao Shuming’s quick hands bent down to pick up the doll and patted any dust on it that might not be there.

“Miao Miao, your Bei Bei fell under the bed.” Jiang Yimiao liked to call it Beibei when she was little, so Zhao Shuming followed suit.

Jiang Yimiao sat up violently, wanting to take the doll from Zhao Shuming’s hands, but her knees pinched the edges of the pillows, and with the fact that she had just hugged the doll and sucked it in, over-breathing made her a little dizzy, and her entire body lost its center of gravity and generally fell forward.

Zhao Shuming happened to be sitting directly in front of her.

He saw Jiang Yimiao’s flickering expression of panic, Zhao Shuming reflexively stretched out his arms to try to catch her, “Miao Miao, be careful.”

Holding on to the heart that falling on the bed wouldn’t hurt, Jiang Yimiao simply let herself fall straight over.

When she thought that Zhao Shuming would be able to firmly catch her, she continued to fall backwards along with Zhao Shuming.

Jiang Yimiao was pressed directly onto his body, and her head seemed to have hit one of his bones – his chin or perhaps his lower jaw.

Jiang Yimiao only heard a muffled grunt as he was hit, and she was trying to get up, but she fell back on top of him because she hadn’t found a good support point.

Zhao Shuming raised a hand to support her waist, “Miao Miao, are you okay?”

“I’m fine, did I bump into your face, does it It hurts.” Bones in the face are usually painful when they are hit, Jiang Yimiao’s hands were busy trying to check.

“It’s fine.” Zhao Shuming directly hooped his hands around her waist and lowered his head to look at her, “It’s good that you didn’t fall.”

At the same time Zhao Shuming fell, the doll in his hand also detached and flung out, now landing right next to Jiang Yimiao’s hand.

She glanced at the doll, then at Zhao Shuming who had been flung down by himself, her left hand resting right on his chest, her palm pressed against the slightly bulging chest.

Zhao Shuming’s pajamas were all washed once a day, so this one on him was a little different from last night’s again.

However, his pajamas still possessed a spacious neckline, and from her viewpoint she happened to be able to see some hidden flesh. . body.

The hard-to-ignore scent of his body gently stroked the tip of her nose like a hand.

Jiang Yimiao looked at his collarbone and his face, and that familiar feeling came back …… Body trembling, heart tingling, teeth astringent.

When she was held in her mother’s arms as a child, Jiang Yimiao would also have this feeling, and she would also want to bite her mother. Because her mother always had a fragrance that she loved, and her mother could only be her mother alone, she wanted to bite her mother.

From that time onwards, she should have known that she didn’t just have an attack on things that were cute in an objective sense, she would also do this to people and things she liked.

Jiang Yimiao gulped and glanced at Zhao Shuming’s left arm that was unfolded and placed on the bed, the scar on the arm facing right towards her.

“Miao Miao, do you want to take a bite out of it?” He narrowed his eyes as he moved closer to her, his chin pressed against her head as he asked her in that gentle but guided tone.

“Do you remember what I said? During the desensitization treatment, don’t try to restrain your emotions extremely, try to just let them out and do whatever your body wants to do.”

The vibration of Zhao Shuming’s chest shook her as he spoke and she felt a little numb, Jiang Yimiao raised her head to look at Zhao Shuming, his deep black pupils were like a vortex that sucked her consciousness in ……

“Can I bite?” These were the last words she said before she lost her mind.

“Of course you can, River.” He raised his hand and brought his small arm close to her face.

Jiang Yimiao’s clenched fisted hand loosened and tugged Zhao Shuming’s arm to pull it in front of her, Zhao Shuming’s chest and shoulder sockets had that scent that belonged to the strongest part of his body.

And it was only when it came to the tip of her nose that she realized his arm also had such a faint scent.

She blinked and finally couldn’t help but open her mouth and lean against the blurry scar.