Chapter 06

Jiang Siwei didn’t know that Lou Jia was joking with him in this WeChat message, and he stared at the words for a long time doing reading comprehension.

He clearly remembered that when he was reading, she would immediately run out of 800 meters when she saw a dog, so why did she suddenly start to raise a dog now?

Could time really change some of a person’s choices and habits?

Even things that were once feared, or even people that were once loved.

Thinking about this, Jiang Siwei suddenly felt like he had been pumped full of adrenaline, and the whole person instantly broke free from that listless state.

Since people can change and like puppies that they didn’t like in the past, can they also like people that they didn’t like in the past?

He clutched his phone, inexplicably excited, and sent Lou Jia a puppy-excited emoticon.

Lou Jia didn’t reply, and Jiang Siwei didn’t feel disappointed. His high spirits continued until dinner that night. He no longer hid from Lou Jia, and took the seat opposite her.

Lou Jia saw his hidden happiness and asked with a smile, “Did you win the lottery? You’re so happy.”

“Almost, it’s about to be drawn.” Jiang Siwei’s eyes were bright, just like the little dog next to him, who was squatting and eating bones.

Lou Jia inexplicably found him cute, so she picked up a piece of meat and threw it to Xiao Mao, and then picked up a chicken leg and put it on Jiang Siwei’s plate.

Xiao Mao lowered his head to eat the meat, and his tail spun around quickly.

Jiang Siwei also picked up the chicken leg and took a bite.

Why didn’t it have a tail?

Lou Jia looked at Jiang Siwei and subconsciously muttered.

“What?” Jiang Siwei didn’t hear it clearly and looked up.

“Nothing,” Lou Jia shook her head, ‘eat your food.’

Jiang Siwei didn’t feel any difference, and didn’t know that in Lou Jia’s eyes, he was no different from Xiaomao.

He just felt like a gambler standing by the jackpot, trying to figure out the rules and conditions of winning the jackpot, but unwilling to wait passively for the dealer to announce the rules one by one.

It is said that the more you like it, the more passive you are, but Jiang Siwei’s entry qualification was hard-won, and he was willing to be the one who took the initiative.

Even if he lost everything, he would just be back to square one, back to where Jiang Siwei had been for so many years.

Lou Jia didn’t know what was going on in Jiang Siwei’s mind, but she could clearly feel that after that day, Jiang Siwei no longer avoided her.

When there were no classes, she could always see him behind her whenever she turned around.

Lou Jia had never thought about it in this way before, and she didn’t realize anything was wrong. But Jiang Siwei’s affection was not hidden at all, like a blazing flame surrounding her.

Even if Lou Jia were a piece of wood, she could feel his warmth.

What’s more, she wasn’t a piece of wood. Lou Jia had grown up in love, and she could always perceive more love.

But this time, she couldn’t guess when Jiang Siwei’s affection had begun.

Lou Jia had been thinking about this question for a while, and she couldn’t help but look at Jiang Siwei. Sometimes she would be so lost in thought that he would come over and ask what was wrong.

She never says anything, but just looks into his eyes. Jiang Siwei often blushes when she looks at him, and he looks away.

Lou Jia thinks he is really cute at this time, and pinches his face. The temperature of the touch gets higher and higher.

But even so, Jiang Siwei still stands in the same place, as if Lou Jia can do whatever she wants to him.

Occasionally, Jiang Siwei will ask sensitive questions. For example, today, Lou Jia and Jiang Siwei are sorting through a batch of extracurricular books donated by Zhang Lin.

He couldn’t help but ask Lou Jia why he had broken up with Zhang Lin in the first place. Was it because he didn’t like her?

To be fair, Zhang Lin was a really nice person.

When Lou Jia was dating him, Jiang Siwei had also awkwardly imitated everything about Zhang Lin, but it was all a big joke.

Lou Jia liked Zhang Lin as a person, not as an objective existence that could be easily imitated by others.

After clearly realizing this, Jiang Siwei decisively cut off all ties with the past.

She could block calls and text messages, and she could ignore everything about her, but she couldn’t stop liking him.

Jiang Siwei didn’t want to lose this hard-won opportunity, hoping to learn some lessons and experience from Zhang Lin’s failure.

“We broke up not because I didn’t like him,” said Lou Jia, “but we didn’t get back together because I didn’t like him anymore.”

It was not an unexpected answer, but it still made Jiang Siwei taste some bitterness. He asked persistently, “If you still like him, why did you break up?”

“Everything he gave me was something he weighed before giving it to me,” said Lou Jia as he put a stack of books on the bookshelf. “I don’t need this kind of love.”

Jiang Siwei squatted on the ground and looked down at the books in the box, “Then if someone can give you a love that doesn’t have to be weighed, a love that is all of him, would you be willing to consider him?”

Lou Jia said without hesitation: “Of course I would.”

“If this person is…” Jiang Siwei looked up, his eyelashes trembling, and his heart beating abnormally fast. “Is it someone you’ve never thought of, and you’d still be willing?”

Lou Jia looked down at him, and after looking at him for a while, nodded and said: “Yes.”

Jiang Siwei seemed relieved, but also a little excited. He suddenly stood up from the ground, but because he had been squatting for too long, his calves were a little numb, and he fell back into the box of books.

Lou Jia was startled, and when he looked at his disheveled appearance, he felt funny and then squatted down: “Are you okay?”

“I’m fine.” Fortunately, all the books in the box had been taken out by Jiang Siwei, and he didn’t bump into anything, but he just felt a little embarrassed.

Lou Jia stood up and reached out to him: “Then get up quickly. If we don’t finish organizing these today, we won’t be able to eat tonight.”

Jiang Siwei did not hesitate, and reached out to hold his hand. The warmth of their palms overlapping made his heart beat even faster. He even felt a little weak, and unconsciously put all his strength into the two hands that were clasped.

The next second.

Lou Jia followed the boy’s strength and fell over.

Jiang Siwei only then came to his senses, and frantically caught the person. The originally tattered box could not bear the weight of the two, and was completely crushed.

His head hit the ground hard, and the back of his body was poked by an unknown corner of the box, but Lou Jia was safely in his arms.

The flurry of activity ended.

The world seemed to have quieted down.

Jiang Siwei’s head hit the ground hard, and he was a little dizzy for a moment.

Lou Jia didn’t have to listen to it deliberately, but she could hear the “thumping” sound, and each sound was shouting for her to like it.

She sat up silently and leaned against the bookshelf.

Jiang Siwei also sat up, facing Lou Jia. The evening light fell in through the window, and the air was filled with dust.

He felt inexplicably that his eyes were slightly warm: “Did you guess it all?”

“Yes,” Lou Jia did not lie, “you are so obvious, I am not a fool.”

Jiang Siwei wanted to laugh, but tears came first: “I wanted to hide it, but I couldn’t help it. I just couldn’t help it.”

“I didn’t say you had to hide it,” Lou Jia laughed first.

“Then…” Jiang Siwei felt that it was quite lame to say these things with tears streaming down his face, so he raised his hand and wiped his face in a haphazard manner, “What were you thinking?”

“It was a bit of a surprise,” Lou Jia said.

“That’s it?” Jiang Siwei’s eyes were red, “Don’t you think I’m like a… pervert?”

Lou Jia didn’t know what Jiang Siwei was thinking, so he frowned and said, “If you like me, I think you’re a pervert. What’s wrong with my brain?”

“No, that’s not what I meant,” Jiang Siwei explained in a flustered manner. Today, none of this was in his plan. He didn’t know what to say, so he was silent for a few seconds before he said frankly, “I just feel that you’ve always treated me like a younger brother, but I have these thoughts about you, and it seems very wrong.”

“I just see you as my brother.“ Lou Jia thought it was funny. ‘You’re not my real brother.’

Jiang Siwei felt a little sad and wanted to cry, but he didn’t want Lou Jia to see it. He lowered his head and asked, ‘So what should we do now?’

Lou Jia really laughed this time. ‘Jiang Siwei, who likes who in the end?’

”I like you,“ he said sullenly.

”Then I’ll think about it.”

Jiang Siwei suddenly looked up: ”Think about… what?”

“Think about whether or not to accept your feelings.“ Lou Jia leaned forward and got very close to him. ‘Siwei, I don’t think your feelings are wrong. I like you very much, too. It’s just that my current feelings may be a little different from what you want.’

”You have to give me some time to change.” She touched his moist eyes with her hand and wiped away a little tear. ”Okay?”