Chapter 0448: Born to be Human!

　　Thick blood vessels spread throughout the entire operating room, like the roots of an old tree, wrapping everyone in.

　　The organs on the walls contracted and pulsed, and the ceiling was inlaid with a human face, looking like a large human jigsaw puzzle.

　　Chen Ge had thought of countless scenarios of meeting Dr. Gao, but only never thought it would be under such circumstances.

　　Blood dripped down on the white coat without leaving any traces, Dr. Gao was the most special existence in this world, standing in the middle of flesh and blood and mutilated corpses, but wearing a white coat that symbolized salvation and hope.

　　Looking calm, Dr. Gao looked at Chen Ge and opened his mouth to utter his first words, “You came later than I expected.”

　　”You guessed that I would come over?”

　　”I knew that you would definitely come over, on the twenty-fourth floor of the Fang Hua Yuan neighborhood, I had this feeling when I saw you for the first time, you brought me a strong sense of crisis.”

　　”That’s why you kept speaking up for me at that time, preventing me from clashing with the other members of the Weird Talk Association?” Chen Ge recalled the scene at that time, where Ten had been helping him, and in the end, he even left words under the table, telling him about the location of the Linjiang Blood Defense Station.

　　Dr. Gao nodded, “You are all my patients, isn’t it a normal thing for a doctor to think about his patients?”

　　”Patients?” Chen Ge shook his head, “You’re not qualified to say that, in my opinion you’re the one who’s sickest, the world behind the door doesn’t lie, this completely twisted and deformed nightmare made out of flesh and blood is the true portrayal of what’s going on inside of you.”

　　”A mind filled with the remnants of flesh and blood is not called a disease. Everyone has deformities inside them, and if that’s a disease, then all of us are sick, and you are no exception.” Dr. Gao smiled, he seemed to enjoy chatting with Chen Ge, this young man in front of him was different from normal people in both his thoughts and his perception of things, Dr. Gao found a “kindred spirit” in Chen Ge: “I am a psychiatrist, and I have seen countless deformed and twisted minds, the reason why they become this way is actually not the reason why they become this way, in fact, many times it’s not because of the deformation. I’ve seen countless deformed and twisted minds, and the reason why they become like this is that often they don’t blame themselves.”

　　The voice paused, and the smile on Dr. Gao’s face slowly faded, “When you came here, did you see those pictures on the wall?”

　　Chen Ge nodded, “Those victims are the crimes committed by the Weird Tales Association over the past five years, right?”

　　”Victims?” Dr. Gao tilted his head and looked at a human face on the ceiling, “In my opinion they are the abusers, wantonly acting without thinking of the consequences, living around us in human skin, creating a constant stream of misfortune, each and every one of them has a reason to deserve to die, and all I’m doing is just making their deaths a little bit more worthwhile.”

　　”But is that fair to them?” Chen Ge stood from the perspective of a third party, he didn’t deliberately try to favor anyone, “I saw a half-dead man in the test chamber, according to your doctors here, in order to conduct the test, they would keep him in this state for a long time, saving him while adding new wounds to his body. He endured this endless torture just because in elementary school, he bullied his classmates and stabbed them in the thigh with the tip of a pen, do you think that’s a fair punishment?”

　　”You would question the fairness simply because you didn’t consider it from the patient’s point of view, you can’t see the trauma inside the patient, you can’t understand the despair in their hearts, the pain of being breathless and wanting to tear yourself apart.” Dr. Gao’s speech became faster, he seemed to be thinking of himself, “That kind of pain is long-lasting, the pain that soaks into every nerve, it’s tormenting you all the time, it follows you around, it’s like countless tiny bugs crowding your body, you know that they’re in your body, occupying every inch of your body, but you just can’t release them. ”

　　”No matter what you do when they follow you, they keep multiplying in your body, devouring your every nerve, you can hear your memories being shredded little by little until you end up with a head full of those disgusting bugs, you can see them as long as you close your eyes, and you think of them as long as you live.”

　　”Can you understand that feeling? This is the kind of pain that someone whose mind has been damaged has to endure twenty-four hours a day, now do you still think there’s something wrong with what I’m doing?”

　　Dr. Gao looked at Chen Ge’s eyes, “Even with such pain accompanying them, they still try to live, but what they get in exchange for gritting their teeth and holding on is not relief, but greater pain.”

　　”A person can be called a human being because of the creation of a sense of self, when a person can affirm himself with ‘I’, he becomes a human being. And those patients of mine, they are slowly losing themselves as that pain slowly eats away the ‘I’.”

　　It was the first time that Dr. Gao said this in front of Chen Ge, and his words not only involved psychology, but also seemed to have something to do with sociology and philosophy, “Human beings are advanced beings composed of multiple contradictions, which isn’t a simple term, and that’s why the harm and pain they suffer can’t be measured with the word fairness.”

　　After listening to Dr. Gao’s words, Chen Ge gripped the skull crushing hammer tightly, probably because of the wide gap in cultural level, he did not understand what Dr. Gao was saying.

　　With a look of help, Chen Ge turned back to look at Dr. Wei next to him, the other party seemed to be hearing these things for the first time as well, he coughed gently and rushed to Chen Ge, “Don’t ever pay too much attention to what the mentally ill people say, don’t think deeply about what they tell you about the worldview, otherwise you’ll go crazy sooner or later as well.”

　　”Don’t use going crazy as an excuse, when you see all the incomprehensible things, you will always use the three words abnormal to describe them, but have you ever thought about who actually stipulates normal and abnormal?” Dr. Gao stood above the pool of blood, he was the center of the room, “What are you looking for when your eyes gaze upon a human form? A person is a person not because of the sounds he makes, his movements, or his appearance, but because of the soul, everything revolves around it.”

　　Although Chen Ge couldn’t understand Dr. Gao’s words, he always felt that what the other party said made sense, and it was an extremely dangerous sign.

　　When a person accepted the worldview of a madman, then he was not far from madness.

　　”Dr. Gao, no matter how reasonable your words are, there is one thing that you have no way to deny. They died because of you, and with blood on your hands, you overstepped the law.” The blood began to burrow beneath his skin, Chen Ge didn’t have much time left as he flipped through the comic book and released all of the haunted house employees, “You’re one of the few people I admire, and because of that I can’t let you go on even more. Dr. Gao, you’ve been sick, and since you pushed open this door, you’ve stopped being yourself. Even if your wife were to come back from the dead, and she opened her eyes and saw you as you are now, she would still feel unfamiliar, this is not the you she wanted to meet.”

　　Dr. Gao stood still and didn’t move, he looked calm, but the veins under his feet began to ripple violently, those organs on the walls were beating frantically, and one by one, the human faces on the ceiling above his head revealed expressions of horror.

　　The world behind the door was constructed based on Dr. Gao’s heart, everything here seemed to be tied to him, and when his mood changed, the entire world would change for it.

　　”You’re not her, so how can you know what she’s thinking?” Dr. Gao was joyful and angry, but the world behind the door that produced a huge change already indicated a lot of problems, and this top psychiatrist in Jiujiang was unable to maintain his own calmness anymore.

　　”Actually, you know it in your own heart.” Chen Ge took a small step to the side, letting out the door panel behind him, “The entire world is filled with stinking meat and dirty blood, the only thing that is normal is this room door that faces the blood pool, if I’m not mistaken, your wife should be right in the middle of the blood pool, right? You want her to see what used to be her home the first time she wakes up, not see all the twisted and deformed things around here.”

　　”Dr. Gao, don’t be evasive, one can only push open the ‘door’ when they are most desperate, and the other side of the ‘door’ is not salvation, but a world of even greater despair.”

　　”You presume to redeem yourself with ten or even a hundred times more despair, this is simply something that cannot be realized.”

　　Chen Ge wanted to continue saying something, but was interrupted by Dr. Gao opening his mouth, “You don’t need to continue, I’ve already understood what you mean.”

　　He resumed the expression he had at the very beginning with a hint of indifference in his eyes, “I told you all of this because I thought that you might be able to understand how I feel.”

　　Dr. Gao gazed at Chen Ge and uttered his last secret: “From the first time I met you, I started to use all my connections to investigate you, and I found that you really are very much like me, in every sense of the word, you think that I was very crazy for five years alone in an underground corpse vault with corpses, but do you know that you are also a complete and utter crazy?”

　　Chen Ge hadn’t really thought that he would have such a high evaluation in Dr. Gao’s mind, he had always felt that he was very ordinary, and there was nothing particularly sparkling about him.

　　”The deeper I investigated, the more I found out that there are problems in you, maybe even you don’t realize it yourself, but I can tell you very clearly that the madness in the deepest recesses of your heart is even hotter than mine, it’s a never-extinguished flame that is capable of burning all things to ashes.”

　　”Is this me you’re talking about?” Chen Ge wasn’t sure what Dr. Gao was saying this for, and the other party didn’t seem to have a reason to deceive him.

　　”It doesn’t matter if you don’t believe it, the method of verification is simple. There’s a ‘door’ in the bathroom of your haunted house, push him open and you’ll be able to see your true self.” Dr. Gao’s gaze was still cold, but there was a smile on his face, “That night, I entered that door, and I saw your world, so I know very well that you are the real madman if we two are put together and compared.”

　　”That door has something to do with me?” Chen Ge didn’t know if Dr. Gao was steering him in the wrong direction or if he really wanted to divulge some information to him, “According to you, I have also pushed open a ‘door’?”

　　Only in the deepest despair could one have the opportunity to push open a ‘door’, Chen Ge didn’t feel that he had done anything desperate in this first half of his life, in his opinion that ‘door’ should have been pushed open by someone else.

　　”I can be sure that that ‘door’ was pushed open by you, because I saw yourself inside that ‘door’.” Dr. Gow’s smile hid a very inconspicuous wince, and his lips were slightly unnatural.

　　”I’m the one pushing the ‘door’?!” Chen Ge’s heart sank, “What else do you know?”

　　”I still know a lot, as long as you promise to help me do three things, not only will I tell you everything I know, but I will also enter that ‘door’ with you at that time and help you find what you need most?” Veins surged in his head, the floor was full of spreading blood, and the blood in the pool behind Dr. Gao’s back began to bubble up, it was clear that his mood had changed at this moment, as if he was expecting Chen Ge’s answer.

　　”This is a mutually beneficial over weigh, I believe you will definitely not refuse, right?”

　　Chen Ge was indeed very curious about the world behind his own door, and as he pondered, his gaze swept over to the pool of blood that was still appearing to change.

　　”When I came in just now, the color of that blood pool wasn’t this vivid.” Chen Ge looked elsewhere, the organs on the surrounding walls were withering like flowers, becoming dull, and something was constantly pouring into the blood pool from the veins, as if he was preparing to pour all the “nutrients” from the entire blood-colored world into the blood pool: “Is Dr. Gao intentionally delaying? ”

　　As his mind turned, Chen Ge thought of a safer way, as long as he controlled Dr. Gao or his favorite wife, then he would take the initiative.

　　”What are the three things? You tell me first, then I’ll consider whether or not to agree.” Chen Ge took a few steps forward as he said this, seemingly to show his sincerity.

　　”The fact that your steps are one fifth smaller than usual when you take them shows that you have a desire in your mind to accomplish something that you are not sure of. Your hand holding the hammer is harder than it was just now, and although you showed as much ease as possible, there was about zero point three seconds before you realized this, and your knuckles subconsciously gripped the handle of the hammer.” Doctor Gao took out the black wooden box from his pocket, “It seems that you have realized that I was stalling for time, but that’s fine, I’m not doing this because I don’t have the certainty of victory, I just want to give you a chance, a choice.”

　　The wooden box lifted up, the thick smell of blood washed away the original stench in the room, the surrounding blood vessels began to crumble, countless strands of blood gushed out from them, converging into the wooden box.

　　About one or two seconds later, a blood-red palm full of scars stretched out from the wooden box.

　　With hatred and rage, a monster with half of its body twisted in horror and covered in scars crawled out.

　　The crimson eyes stared at Chen Ge, and the half of its face that seemed to have been cauterized by a large fire cracked out an ugly smile.

　　Without the need for Dr. Gao to give any orders, it rushed towards Chen Ge like a madman.

　　”Bear Green?” Chen Ge gripped the skull-crushing hammer with both hands and didn’t take half a step back, “Just in time, after eating you, I’ll be able to have another Redcoat!”