Chapter 1163 – What a Big Cat

　　In the hospital, a mental patient implied that another mental patient’s doctor was a ghost, could this actually prove that they were suffering from a mental illness?

　　In the eyes of a normal person, one would definitely think that the patient who said that the doctor was a ghost had a problem, but Chen Ge didn’t feel that way, he subconsciously thought that the patient’s words were worth pondering over, which meant he subconsciously thought that Dr. Gao had a problem as well.

　　His brain started to hurt again, Chen Ge gritted his teeth in death, he was at a loss now, his way of thinking was obviously different from normal people, could he really be sick?

　　Admitting that one is suffering from a mental illness is a very difficult thing for a stubborn person to do, because once one admits that one is sick, it will directly subvert one’s original worldview.

　　When the worldview and cognitive thinking are changed, a person becomes no longer himself.

　　Without continuing to think deeply, Chen Ge emptied his brain, he did not bother to actively recall his previous memories.

　　The pain slowly diminished, it hadn’t even been twenty-four hours from the time he passed out to the time he woke up, Chen Ge had already mastered the method of avoiding the pain.

　　And this was still in a situation where he had lost most of his memories and everything was based on instinct.

　　Sitting on the bench and adjusting his state, Chen Ge twisted his head to look at Dr. Gao, and he was surprised to find that Dr. Gao was looking at him at the moment.

　　That sharp gaze was staring straight into Chen Ge’s eyes, as if it could directly pierce through his skin and see the thoughts inside his head, which made him quite uncomfortable.

　　”Among doctors of mental illnesses, there is a saying that goes around that patients should not think deeply about anything they say, we only need to believe in scientific data, observe clear pathological changes, and prescribe the correct medication for treatment.” Dr. Gao said slowly, “This is both responsible for the patient and for ourselves.”

　　”That patient really seems to be able to see ghosts? Dr. Gao, do you think there are really ghosts in the world?” Chen Ge knew that Dr. Gao had discovered something, and he was just casually saying that to try to change the topic, but what he didn’t expect was that after he asked the question of whether there were really ghosts in the world, a sharp pain unexpectedly came from the depths of his brain once again! It seemed that this question had been asked to him before!

　　The sharp pain that caught him off guard caused Chen Ge to cover his head, and he fell to the ground, rolling around in pain.

　　Next to him, Dr. Gao hurriedly grabbed Chen Ge’s hand, “Breathe the way I taught you!”

　　After three or four minutes, Chen Ge finally calmed down, and Dr. Gao put the pill bottle back into his pocket, he had intended to be feeding Chen Ge two more pills.

　　”Did you just recall any bad memories again?”

　　”En.” Chen Ge nodded, he wouldn’t go about deliberately underestimating other people’s intelligence, so he didn’t directly deny it, “It seems like I’ve seen ghosts before, I’ve seen all kinds of ghosts.”

　　”That’s normal, the identity you fantasize for yourself is that of a haunted house owner, and your employees are all sorts of ghosts.” Dr. Gao pointed down to the garden fence, “The root of all these fantasies is the haunted house in Shinsegae Land, and you subconsciously substituted yourself into that actress’ identity. The haunted house is doing poorly and the employees are leaving in large numbers, so you fantasize that there are real ghosts and monsters in the world, and have all sorts of real ghosts come in as actors to solve the problem of understaffing for you.”

　　”No way ……”

　　”Why did the employees of that haunted house leave?”

　　”Because there are too few tourists to make payroll.”

　　”With real ghosts as employees, do you need to pay them the money used by the living for their paychecks?”

　　”It doesn’t seem to be necessary.”

　　”That’s the root of your fantasy.” Dr. Gao helped Chen Ge to a chair, “You have everything in your imagination, but nothing has changed in reality, you can still only hide behind the window and spy on that actress, and she is still at risk of closing down her poorly run haunted house.”

　　Dr. Ko sighed, “You know what I’m most worried about right now?”

　　”Worried about what?” Chen Ge was a little confused.

　　”I’m worried that in a short while, that haunted house will really close down, and you might never see that actress again.”

　　Hearing Dr. Gao’s words, Chen Ge’s heart seized hard.

　　”This is reality, it never changes by someone’s will, the wind blows, the grass falls to both sides, you think you’re the wind, but actually we’re all grass.” Dr. Gao’s voice was calm with a hint of sadness, “I also don’t want to pierce your beautiful fantasies, but I know that if that haunted house closes down, you might lose the last bit of your thoughts, which might lead to a sudden deterioration of your condition.”

　　Chen Ge did not say anything, and Dr. Gao understood Chen Ge’s conflicting feelings right now, “What you need to do now is not to immerse yourself in the fantasies you’re weaving, but to bravely walk out and start a brand new life. Instead of waiting until the haunted house closes down and your condition worsens, you will never be able to leave the hospital again. It’s better for you to cooperate with our treatment, recover as soon as possible, and then leave this hospital to find her.”

　　Everything Dr. Gao said made sense, and was also completely from Chen Ge’s perspective, and all seemed to be for Chen Ge’s benefit.

　　”Is my past really just a piece of fantasy?” When Chen Ge thought about the collapse of the haunted house, an inexplicable pain would arise in his heart, a pain that was different from the physical pain, indescribable but painful to the core.

　　”In fact, you should have realized it long ago, there are countless realistic imagery in your fantasy story, and have you noticed one thing, there are several psychiatrists and mental illness doctors in your story? They follow through with your entire story and are at the point where your story turns, do you think that’s really a coincidence?”

　　”Isn’t it?” Chen Ge’s eyes were slightly blank, several psychiatrists did exist in his fragmented memory, and each of them seemed to have their own story, all very important characters.

　　The one who killed his young self was the doctor in the white coat, the president of the association was Dr. Gao, the friend entrusted by his parents to take care of him was Dr. Chen, and it seems that there was also a …… Dr. Fang?

　　The brain violently seemed to be stabbed by a needle, Chen Ge winced and held on hard.

　　”The turning points where those doctors appeared all happened to be when we intervened in your treatment, your fantasies are actually just a continuation of reality, you’ll slowly realize it.” Dr. Gao chatted with Chen Ge for a while longer, and then as if something had happened in the other wards, he fed Chen Ge two pills before leaving in a hurry, leaving Chen Ge alone in the hospital garden.

　　”I want to go to that haunted house so badly.” After swallowing the pills, Chen Ge’s thinking became sluggish, the pain felt much less, time seemed to slow down, and drowsiness gradually rose: “This kind of life is indeed more comfortable compared to the kind of horrible life in the story.”

　　As time passed, the temperature slowly rose outdoors, there were many fewer doctors and patients, and there was even no one around Chen Ge.

　　And just then, the sound of OO@@@ came from the flowers, and Chen Ge slowly turned his head to look there.

　　The flower stems were squeezed apart, and a cat head poked out from the bush.

　　This cat was snow white with two eyes of different colors, and when it saw Chen Ge, it immediately ran over and jumped onto Chen Ge’s knee.

　　The plastered leg was pressed by the white cat, and Chen Ge bared his teeth in pain, “What a big cat.”

　　This cat was probably because of its special breed, twice the size of a normal house cat, and was dead heavy.

　　More crucially, this cat did not have any self-awareness at all, and was very skillful in trying to climb towards Chen Ge’s shoulders.

　　Grasping the white cat with both hands, Chen Ge put it on the chair next to him: ”Why is there a cat in the hospital? Is it a stray cat from outside?”

　　Chen Ge and it stared wide-eyed at each other, the cat’s eyes were very spiritual and contained many different emotions.

　　”Does your master not want you?” Chen Ge rushed at the white cat and said, what he didn’t expect was that doubts appeared in that cat’s eyes after he said that.

　　”Really? Fake? Am I seeing things wrong? Why do I feel as if this cat is making eye contact with me?” Chen Ge muttered with a harmless look.

　　The white cat tilted its head and sized up Chen Ge for a long time, a hint of cunning flashed in its eyes, it suddenly jumped up and swung its claws to hit the back of Chen Ge’s head, and then as if it was worried about Chen Ge’s retaliation, it scurried out of the room in a “dabbing” manner.

　　Sitting on the chair, Chen Ge was dumbfounded, he covered the back of his head: “I’m twenty-six years old, and I was hit on the back of my head by a cat?”

　　The white cat was hiding in the flower bushes a few meters away looking at Chen Ge, the doubt in its eyes deepened a lot more.

　　”If I didn’t have a cast on my leg, you’d be finished by now.” Chen Ge’s drowsiness from taking the medicine had long since dissipated, he was particularly energized now, looking at the white cat in front of him there was still a special sense of familiarity, but it was only familiarity, there were no fragments of cat-related memories in his mind, and it seemed that this cat never existed, whether it was in the story he had woven himself, or in reality.

　　In other words, the memory fragments in his mind were only human-related, not cat-related.

　　Listening to Chen Ge’s threat, not only was that white cat not afraid, it actually ran back.

　　”You’re so bold.” Chen Ge looked at the white cat’s confused eyes, and he himself felt strange that this cat seemed to recognize him, “Are you the stray cat I kept before my accident? Or did I often feed you things when I was hospitalized?”

　　

　　”Don’t rub it, it’s so strong, don’t crack the plaster for me.” Chen Ge carried the white cat to his lap, he looked at the white cat’s heterochromatic pupils, that familiar feeling was getting stronger and stronger, but he just couldn’t recall it.

　　Perhaps seeing that Chen Ge was not quite right, the white cat kept purring, and it also bit Chen Ge’s pants leg, as if it wanted to lead Chen Ge somewhere.

　　Leaning on his armpit crutches, Chen Ge stood up and followed the white cat towards the depths of the garden, they crossed the entire hospital garden and arrived at the hospital fence.

　　On the other side of the road was the New Sea Paradise West Campus, and the white cat got through the gap in the fence before looking at Chen Ge.

　　”You want me to leave with you? You want me to leave this hospital?”

　　Chen Ge looked at the two-meter-high fence and shook his head.

　　His current body was very weak, one leg was still in a cast, and it was hard to walk, so it was impossible for him to climb over the two-meter-high fence.

　　Seeing Chen Ge ready to go back, the white cat drilled in again and bit his pants, just not letting go.

　　After about five minutes, footsteps came from the distance, and only then did the white cat let go of its mouth and drilled out of the fence to escape.

　　”Chen Ge? What are you running here for?” Dr. Gao stood behind Chen Ge.

　　”I wanted to take a closer look at that paradise, and if I’m lucky enough, I might even be able to see her.” Chen Ge had a hint of anticipation in his eyes, and his reasoning made sense, so Dr. Gao didn’t doubt it.

　　”We should head back.”

　　”Okay.”

　　Chen Ge followed behind Dr. Gao, he walked out a few steps and turned back towards the fence, the cat was hiding in the bushes outside the fence, revealing half of its head, its heterochromatic eyes kept staring at Chen Ge.

　　Back in the middle of the hospital room, Chen Ge saw that Zuo Han was still lying on his side on the hospital bed, and even his posture hadn’t changed much.

　　”You didn’t go eat?” Chen Ge felt that he was naturally a warm man, even after losing part of his memory, he would still instinctively care about strangers.

　　”I’m not hungry.” Zuo Han sat up from the bed and opened the door of the hospital room by a thin slit, he was relieved to see that no one was outside: “Where did that doctor take you in the morning? Did he hypnotize you? Or maybe he forced you to take some kind of drug?”

　　”We went to sit in the garden, and in the middle of it, Dr. Gao seemed to have other things on his mind and suddenly left once.” Chen Ge sat on his own bed with a smile still on the corner of his mouth, “By the way, I also encountered a very interesting thing today, there’s a stray cat in the hospital, it’s very clingy to me, as if it’s a cat I’ve raised.”

　　”Stray cats are the most vigilant, they won’t specifically stick to a stranger, that cat might really be related to you.” Zuo Han pulled the zipper on the back of the pillow open, and took out a few pieces of shredded paper from it, and there seemed to be something written on the paper, “Animals are sometimes much more reliable than people because they don’t have complex emotions, and more often than not, they act according to instinct.”

　　”But I have absolutely no memories of that cat, to be precise the memories in my mind are all fragments, as long as I think back to the past I get a headache.”

　　Chen Ge’s words resonated with Zuo Han, he put down his pillow and quietly walked to Chen Ge’s side: “You’re in a similar situation as me, although my memories are not missing, there are logical errors in my memories!”

　　”What does that mean?”

　　”It means that my memories have been tampered with! Dammit! I’m familiar with this feeling! I don’t know why!” Zuo Han said viciously, “There are some contradictory details in my memories, the person who altered my memories probably thought that it was the first time I had encountered such a thing, so he was careless, and he didn’t realize that I would even doubt my own memories!”

　　”Brother, although your various symptoms are indeed similar to victimized paranoia, I still think you’re amazing.” Chen Ge felt that Zuo Han had a special aura about him, and compared to Zuo Han, he was too mediocre.

　　”Don’t you say that, I’ve asked around, that white potion is not something that anyone can eat, occasionally a patient is out of control the doctor will only feed them some powder, and you? Two tablets at a time, three times a day? I suspect this hospital is trying to kill you through drugs!” Zuo Han’s gaze at Chen Ge was filled with scorn.

　　”It shouldn’t be.”

　　”Forget it, I’m just giving you a reminder, in addition you pay attention, it’s best to talk less during the day, the walls have ears.” Zuo Han said and then lay on his side on the bed again, he still didn’t take off his shoes, seems to be ready to escape at any time.

　　He had a meal at noon, and in the afternoon, Chen Ge received psychological counseling from Dr. Gao, and was continuously fed medication.

　　A calm and beautiful day ended like this, and the sky slowly darkened.

　　After taking the medication, Chen Ge fell asleep early, and around zero o’clock, he was woken up by Zuo Han.

　　”What’s wrong?”

　　”Shh.” Zuo Han pointed to the ward door, signaling Chen Ge to listen carefully.

　　Lying on the door of the room, Chen Ge strained his ears to listen, and a man’s screams could be vaguely heard in the corridor, and he seemed to be repeating the word – ghost – over and over again.

　　”Zhang Jingju?”

　　”You know him?”

　　”I met him once during the day, he grabbed my hand and shouted ghost, ghost, ghost at me.” Chen Ge told Zuo Han what he encountered during the day.

　　”He’s in a lot of pain right now, the hospital is obviously torturing him in some way.” Zuo Han frowned, “The hospital can’t possibly torture him for no reason, it must be because he made a mistake.”

　　After saying this, Zuo Han looked at Chen Ge, “Could it be because he leaked information to you? This hospital can’t really be full of ghosts, right?”