Chapter 43 Restriction

I wasn’t seriously injured, but I was lying on the bed, staring blankly at a piece of paper in my hand. The letter was in a box that looked very advanced. There were three syringes in the box, and the rest was this letter.

At that time, in the Bamboo Grove, Sheng was always doing research, reading and writing. I had seen Sheng’s handwriting before, and it seems that having a good memory is also a kind of suffering. Just as I am now looking at the note, staring at the handwriting that I have not forgotten, I feel like another person is talking to me.

The note first explained how to use the injections in the box, and then it continued with a message from Brother Sheng.

Chengyi;

Now that it’s come to this, there’s no point in hiding it anymore. Perhaps you’ve already guessed something from the various clues.

Don’t try to persuade me. The only two words that I will never have in my life’s dictionary are “regret.”

There is no use in regretting what has already happened. In other words, regretting is the most meaningless thing.

For a scholar, wasting time on meaningless things is a crime and a waste of life.

Although our friendship has been short, it is not limited by time. The best proof that we are not just using each other is that I wanted to talk to you before I left.

I just think that I should share my innermost thoughts with you, and you really have won my heart and my trust.

However, I must admit that even the deepest friendship has its limits. Forgive me for using a ruler to measure everything, including emotions.

So, this is the last time I will try to help you. From now on, we have nothing to do with each other.

I advise you not to get too deeply involved. It is a painful thing to have your life not in your own hands.

Stop your investigation. This is the last time I will say something sincere to you as a friend. Of course, you and I can become friends because we must have similar traits, that is, we will not listen to others’ advice and will only move forward towards our own goals.

I am like this, and so are you.

Please don’t mind my nonsense. Just don’t ever, ever become a stone in my way. That’s the last thing I want to see.

P.S.

There are still many things I don’t understand in my research, and there are too many obstacles in my way.

What I want to say is that, according to general practice, you will not be infected if you are attacked and injured.

After all, I am not completely cold-blooded and I am not willing to gamble with your life, so I am offering you three vials of reagent. I don’t need to explain the scientific principles to you, but after you are scratched or bitten and inject this reagent, there is absolutely no risk.

But this is really the last time!

Finally, I want to ask you, am I being too much? Am I being too much from my personal point of view? On X/X/X, there was an incident of a ‘sandman’ siege. I think you know what was behind it. If you don’t know, go to the information office of your department and look up the information.

Why is it that what a country does is right, but what I personally do is wrong?

They just failed, so the atomic bomb exploded!

But, Chen Chengyi, you remember, I will never fail, absolutely鈥攏ever.

Yang Sheng.

I looked at it again and realized that I was numb. Right and wrong? There is no strict line between right and wrong. I have a fixation, my master has a fixation, and Yang Sheng also has a fixation. Is my fixation noble and his fixation lowly?

I silently put down the letter, but I thought to myself, no wonder that no matter which religion, it makes people let go of their obsessions. This double-edged sword is indeed full of “temptation,” but it is also full of harm.

The summer rain came quickly, and in just a short while, it was already lightning and thunder outside the window. I stood up and walked silently to the window, watching the rain pouring down, and I couldn’t say what I felt in my heart.

The hospital, which was a secret and exclusive department, was so quiet, and its quietness contrasted with my heart.

“There is always something bigger than obsession.” I unconsciously touched the cold glass window and said to myself, “What supports my belief is the silly girl who doesn’t know me very well, Guan Laidi.”

Yes, I had wanted to give up on the idea of getting clues from Master Liu several times because I didn’t want to do anything that went against my conscience. Conscience is a kind and beautiful part of the human heart, and it is an important part of the purest part of the human heart.

It is like this: what is greater than obsession should be your own heart. You can have an obsession, but you should never be manipulated by it. You should have a bottom line鈥攜our heart. That originally beautiful and pure part should be your bottom line.

Perhaps Master has a strong sense of purpose, which is why he often talks to me about the heart.

Perhaps, Master saw that I was having a hard time with love, and that I would not be able to avoid having attachments in the future, so he often told me to cultivate my heart and practice in the secular world.

Brother Sheng, however, was manipulated by his obsession, and gradually lost his most important heart. He was crazy enough to think that he was right, that it was his own pursuit.

Yes, I think I understand. No one’s obsession is more advanced than anyone else’s. Sheng’s mistake was that he forgot the most precious part of a person, and was manipulated by his obsession to go further and further away…

Suddenly, a loud thunderclap echoed from afar, and I found myself smiling faintly. It turned out that the feeling of sudden enlightenment was so good and so relaxing that my aching heart had become peaceful.

I didn’t expect to be able to understand this on such a stormy night. At this moment, I heard footsteps behind me, and I saw a nurse walk into the ward.

Before she could say anything, I walked over to her, took the three syringes out of the box, explained how to use them, and then said to her, “Wait a minute, you can give each of us a shot of the prepared liquid.”

The nurse took the syringes without asking any questions. Working in a hospital like this, the staff have learned a few things, such as not asking too many questions or saying too much. After taking the syringes, she said to me, “Go to the director’s office. You have a phone call.”

I didn’t ask any more questions, turned around and walked out of the ward, and then went straight to the director’s office at the end of the corridor. The director smiled at me when he saw me come in, then stood up and said, “Someone is looking for you. Take the call. I’ll be out for a while.”

It seems that he is also afraid of hearing secrets. Knowing too many secrets is not a good thing, but a burden.

When he left, he gently closed the door and said sincerely to me, “The calls here are safe.”

I smiled at him and thanked him, then picked up the phone. Just as I said “hello,” a calm and composed voice came from the other end of the line: “Little guy, not bad, you poked a hole in the sky, but you’re still alive.”

“Jiang, honestly, I’m really tired of people like you, who speak without emotion. I have a lot of questions I want to ask, but the first thing I want to ask is, what is the purpose of this call?” I ignored this kind of teasing without emotion. I always felt that Jiang Yi was an old fox, so I thought it would be better to figure out his purpose first.

“The purpose of the call is to tell you not to give up the investigation of the little devil. I got the news that Yan Yi is actually carrying the little devil’s clone around and bragging about it. Do you think there is no one in China?” Jiang Yi may have accepted my opinion, and his speech finally had a hint of humanity. At least I could hear a hint of anger.

“You say you won’t give up? Let’s see, what have you assigned me? A warehouse that almost got us all killed. What right do I have not to give up?” I was also a little angry. In fact, I didn’t plan to give up, but I had to make Jiang Yi give me more “benefits.”

“That was a mistake in our intelligence. Company A has been very active recently, but we didn’t expect…” At this point, Jiang Yi’s voice paused for a moment, and then he said, “But it definitely doesn’t rule out the possibility that there is a demon here. Chengyi, evidence is very important, and don’t you feel that you don’t have the qualifications to give up just now?”

“Yes, evidence is very important, because everyone hates the little demon. Even Yan Yi, who is so arrogant, doesn’t dare to admit that he is a little demon, right? As long as there is evidence, you can mobilize a lot of power to destroy your eyesore in one fell swoop. You are really hypocritical! If you are unhappy, just beat him. This is the correct attitude towards life.” I was talking nonsense.

Jiang Yi was probably a little embarrassed over there, and it took him half a day to say, “Are you lecturing me?”

“No, no, no, how dare I? You just said that I have the qualifications to understand that I will not give up. Are you talking about that Jenny, the leader of the gang? She, she is a bit weird, isn’t she?” I suddenly remembered the scene where she flirted with Huigen, and I always felt that this leader was too weird.

“She’s weird? Huh…” Jiang Yi laughed for the first time, and then asked me, “Isn’t your master weird?”

My master? I immediately felt guilty and broke into a cold sweat. The image of my master came to mind: he was a cheater, a slob, a glutton, a lecher, a smart-ass, a bully, and a man without any integrity… To say that he was weird was an adjective that gave him face.

“You don’t have the confidence, do you? Kid, you’re not qualified to understand Jenny right now, and I’m not qualified either. Maybe the more genuine someone is, the more complicated their appearance will be, but it can’t extinguish their true nature. Remember this,” Jiang Yi said to me.

“But why did Jenny suddenly appear there? Isn’t it too coincidental?” I suddenly asked. After all, life is not like making a movie.

I can’t expect a hero to appear from the sky at any time when I’m in crisis, can I?

“You ask that? You may also want to ask why Yan Yi was there and why the police appeared so quickly. Can I tell you that shortly after you entered the warehouse area, there was an ‘earthquake’ outside, and all the forces rushed there and crowded there?” Jiang Yi quickly answered me.

“If that’s the case, why didn’t Yan Yi and Jenny take action beforehand? Did they wait until the critical moment to come out and play the hero?” I asked, somewhat puzzled.

“It’s simple, because of constraints!” Jiang Yi said in a single sentence.