Chapter 77: Laugh at

Once in the dragon’s tomb, abandon mortal affairs!

I silently repeated this phrase, and suddenly I collapsed on the large stone, like snow. Does the name of this woman foretell her life? Pure white, holy, falling to earth in winter, in spring, it will eventually turn into water vapor and return to the sky.

How could the snow of Gaoling fall to the mortal world? I was being too extravagant!

I feel like I’ve been leaving all my life. I left home when I was young, I left my teacher when I grew up, and now I’m leaving my lover. Can I live any stronger?

A warm feeling in my palm, and it turned out to be Ru Xue pressing her face against my palm. Her voice was wavering, and she said to me, “Chengyi, when I was a child, I didn’t have much entertainment in the village. The thing I looked forward to most was when my younger sister, who was still young at the time, came back from outside the village, because she would always bring me some good books. When I read them, I always hoped that the good people would have a smooth journey, that the lovers would eventually become a couple and never be separated, and that if they met a tragedy, I would always be resentful and blame the writer for not giving a better ending.

The tears I have been holding back have slowly welled up in my eyes. Looking at her side face, which is like snow, pressed against my hand, it is still so beautiful under the light of the full moon. I can no longer speak of my heartache.

She abandoned the mortal world, and I lost my lover. Are we the sad ending of the book? Should I blame fate, the author of the book?

“But later, I grew up. Although I had never left the village, I slowly understood the human relationships and love affairs in the village. I realized that I had been hoping for a happy ending in the book, just as I had wanted to eat candy when I was a child. Later, I still read the book, and when I saw the tragedy again, I was relieved. The tragedy was telling us that life is really not so perfect, but the emotions in the tragedy are always remembered more deeply than those in the comedy. Thinking about it like this, is this also the perfection of tragedy? Ru Xue slowly said.

My tears had already slipped down my face. No matter how much I said, I was powerless at that moment. I held Ru Xue’s hand tightly and choked for a long time before I could say a word: “I will definitely send you to the immortal’s tomb.”

“It’s your turn to send me off,” Ru Xue said.

Yes, we are reluctant to part in our last days. Let’s stay together as long as we can. On that day, I will give Ru Xue my blessing. This is the end of our story.

Qin Huai and Ru Yue also came with luggage this time, so by the evening we had two tents. After Ru Xue and I finished talking, Ru Yue took me to one of the tents to talk.

Chengxin, Lao Zhang, and Wu Laogui slept in another tent. Xiao Xi and Xiao Mao were not human after all. They were not used to sleeping in tents, and they were still used to being in the wild. They took Bai Hui and went to an unknown place.

I couldn’t sleep, so I sat in front of the campfire, drinking the strong liquor brought by Zhang, which numbed the pain in my body. Qin Huai was by my side.

“Is there really no hope for you and Ru Xue? Is there no other way to replace it?” I have nothing to hide from Qin Huai, and I have already told her the whole story.

Qin Huai sighed and asked me this question first.

I shook my head. What alternative is there? Ru Xue can’t be more talented than Ren Hua, and I can’t even compare to the person who stopped Ren Hua. Besides, that person is probably my master. If there was a better way, they wouldn’t have joined forces to set up this trap that has affected us for hundreds of years.

“Chengyi, if that’s the case, if you’re a man, just put it down! If you can’t make up your mind, Ru Xue won’t be able to rest in peace.” Qin Huai took the wine bag from my hand and took a sip. Then he coughed repeatedly. This northern wine is too strong. This buddy doesn’t even drink Erguotou.

I put my hand on Qin Huai’s shoulder and said, “The matter between Ru Xue and I is settled. I have already decided in my heart. The rest of the pain is up to time. But you, how did you and Ru Yue end up in the snowy forest?”

This is a question I’ve wanted to ask for a long time.

“Ru Yue found me. She was like crazy at the time, saying that something had happened to her sister. She asked me if there was any way to get to the old forest in the northeast as quickly as possible, because Ru Xue had told Ru Yue before she left that she was going to the old forest in the northeast with you.” Qin Huai paused here, took a pack of Da Chong Jiu out of his bag and handed it to me, saying, “It’s good stuff. Someone else got some and gave two to my father, so I got half a pack and have been saving one for you and Su Rou.”

I don’t know what’s so good about this Da Chong Jiu, but I lit one up as soon as I opened it. I don’t understand the good taste of these rich kids like Qin Huai and Xiao Chengqian, but I think Qin Huai might be able to make friends with Xiao Chengqian.

The smoke spread out in the cold night sky. I said, “Can you mess around in this cold and snowy forest? And it’s a deep forest with few people. Are you messing around with Ruoyue?”

“Hey, you know me, I must have found some connections to get here! As a result, the people escorting us met the old man and his gang. I don’t know what they used, and I didn’t see them make a move. The people escorting us fainted, and Ru Yue still wanted to resist, but I heard them mention you, so I told Ru Yue not to resist…” Qin Huai talked endlessly.

I waved my hand to interrupt Qin Huai’s words. In fact, after Qin Huai said that, I was probably clear about the process. After all, Qin Huai was a young master, and he could still use some energy to help Ru Yue. Then, relying on this, they walked to the old forest and met the people from He Long’s faction. After all, Qin Huai and the others were ordinary people. In the face of evil cultivators with “ghost heads,” how could they resist?

So, as Qin Huai said, they had already “lost” before they even saw a move.

Later, it was probably Qin Huai’s cleverness that wanted to use these people to find us, and that’s how the coincidence happened. We came out of the tomb of the great demon and just happened to meet He Long and the gloomy old man with Qin Huai and Ru Yue.

To this day, what I don’t understand is why the gloomy old man knew about the worms. And from the few words he said, he knew a lot.

I can’t figure out the connection, but I don’t want to think about it. After all, the result is already set, and I will always meet them again.

Thinking about this, I took a puff of smoke and another drink of wine before saying, “The point is not to ask you about the process. The point is, why did you agree to let Ru Yue mess around like this? Don’t you know the danger?”

“How could I not know? I had no choice but to agree to Ru Yue’s request because she said that if I helped her this time, she would marry me. Of course, I had to wait for her to calm down before she would marry me. Also, I guess I would have to live with her in the village for a while. She said that if her sister really had an accident, she would have to help train the next generation of girls in the village. I think I would still be willing to do that.” Qin Huai said these words without looking at me, but instead lowered her head and said to herself.

I froze for a moment, and my hand holding the wine bag stopped in mid-air.

Qin Huai said softly, “I also know that Ru Yue didn’t marry me willingly. If I were to take advantage of this little help and ask Ru Xue to marry me, I would be a beast. But I can’t refuse the hope she gives me. You understand.”

I really understand. For so many years, Qin Huai’s feelings for Ru Yue have been very real and true, so real that he, a rich young man, has been willing to go to Yunnan to live.

The hand that was suspended in mid-air suddenly patted Qin Huai’s shoulder, saying, “Don’t worry about anything. I sincerely hope that you and Ru Yue are both happy. I wish you both well.”

Qin Huai looked at me with a look of emotion and said, “I understand!”

At night, when you are waiting for the dawn, it always seems to pass by especially slowly, but when you are sad, it will pass by before you know it.

I was almost unable to sleep all night, and Qin Huai stayed with me until the eastern sky turned pale. We were dragged back to the tent by Cheng Xin Ge and slept for a while.

This day would be a new journey, the only difference being that Ru Xue and I were walking the countdown to our separation. I thought I needed some time to heal my heartache.

Yesterday’s heavy snow stopped falling only at night, but today the sun came out for no apparent reason. Just like life, there are of course separations as well as reunions. Perhaps reunions are like the sun today, which comes out unexpectedly.

No matter what our relationship will be in the future, our past cannot be denied. I firmly believe that after we part, we will eventually meet again, no matter in which life.

Thinking and not being able to act, thinking and not being able to get what you want, that’s just a period of time. The master told me long ago that people can’t just see what’s in front of them, and they can’t give up the peace of mind they should have because of what’s in front of them.

So, looking at the sun, I tell myself that I should face it with a smile at the beginning of each day.