Chapter 139: It’s all about love

Love… This is a word that Dao Tongzi and Wei Chaoyu have never said. This word is so beautiful. The first thing that comes to mind behind this word is to spend a lifetime together, to be together until old age, to help each other, to support each other…

However, at this moment, is it too cruel to say the word “love”… Dao Tongzi is a cultivator. Even though Wei Chaoyu is in his arms and breathing, he can still feel her life slipping away irreversibly.

“Poom,” a mouthful of blood spurted from Dao Tongzi’s throat. This was the mouthful he had swallowed earlier, and now his heart was hurt to the extreme… he could no longer hold back the blood.

The blood splashed on the Dao Tongzi’s clothes, and the stains… also fell on Wei Chaoyu’s face. She grabbed his clothes, gently but tightly, and asked him, “Do you love me?”

“Yes, I love you.” He picked her up and, in the midst of his confused thoughts, something that he had never been able to understand before suddenly became crystal clear.

At this moment, the Dao seemed very far away… If he had another choice, Daotongzi asked himself if he would give up his so-called Dao at the moment he met her, just to spend the rest of his life with her?

However, Dao Tongzi was confused and had no answer… After all, the Dao was his lifelong pursuit, and it would be too hypocritical for him to say that he would give it up. But was he willing to give up Wei Chaoyu in his arms?

“You’re too late. I called you a stone, and you’ve always been a stone. I feel like I’m dying, and you’re finally not a stone… Thinking about it like this, I kind of hate you.” Wei Chaoyu’s mind was already a little unclear, and the hand that was holding Tao Tongzi’s collar had begun to slowly loosen.

“If you want to hate, then hate. Don’t say anything. I want to save you, as long as you are alive… that’s better than anything else.” Dao Tongzi walked down the mountain with Wei Chaoyu in his arms, his footsteps quick… but his voice was trembling. If there is any hope, it is the Master, the Master who is omnipotent in Dao Tongzi’s heart.

“I can’t live anymore… I know, I just regret that I didn’t spend a single day of my life as a couple with you. In the next life, I want you to love me very much… to live with you the way I dream of loving. But I absolutely don’t want to spend my life with you. I want you to know what it’s like to wait, and I want you to know that after waiting, there is a despair that is even more desperate than not seeing.

The Taoist monk was choking back tears. He felt that Wei Chaoyu could not hold on much longer. He picked her up and carried her on his back, almost running on the mountain path. At this moment, the gathering clouds were overwhelmed, and raindrops the size of beans fell. The wind rose, but what it could not disperse, and what the rain could not wash away, was sadness.

“This is how I hate you. Do you know? I am incapable in this life, and can only hate in the next life. The deeper the love, the deeper the hate.” Wei Chaoyu lay on the back of the Taoist boy, muttering nonsense. At this moment, life was about to disappear. What else could not be said?

Love and hate are also expressed to the fullest at this moment. If I don’t say it to this person who is fighting with me, I’m afraid I won’t have the chance.

“Ah…” In the rain, the Taoist boy let out a long cry as he ran. No, that wasn’t enough to vent his emotions. Could he have gone faster? He had used all his life’s power, but unfortunately he couldn’t fly. He was just a boy, and he wasn’t one of the top beings… After more than twenty years of cultivation, he was still very young on the long road ahead, and his methods were limited.

“But, Cheng Dao, I can’t know… I can’t know if I love you more than I hate you, or if I hate you more than I love you… Even if I have waited for a long time, all I have gotten in return is a sentence that you have made me despair. I want to fight with you, but I don’t know if I will be able to let you despair if you wait for me in the next life. If you are still you, and if I am still me… I don’t know if I will be able to do it?” In the Taoist boy’s long howl, Wei Chaoyu said this.

At this moment, the Taoist boy was already behaving like a madman, and it was I who was heartbroken and wanted to cry out. What was Wei Chaoyu saying? Was he talking about me and Ruoxue? A period of loving each other was to fulfill her regret, and not being together for the rest of our lives was her hatred… Then I have been waiting, is it…

Is this how the entanglement of two lives ends? Their end, our beginning!

“I liked you the moment I saw you… Do you remember? You were there alone, looking so serious, and I couldn’t take my eyes off you… Will you like me the moment you see me in the next life?”

Yes, in the next life, I will like you as soon as I see you… From the moment I first saw you, was this the beginning of what is called a fateful encounter, a connection that was formed at first sight?

“Cheng Dao, I’m cold… I’m leaving… It’s so cold. I’m just afraid of walking alone like this. I’ve always been afraid of being alone. In the next life, I really want to be a person who is not afraid of being alone. Even if I walk alone, I don’t want to be afraid.”

Yes, in your next life, you really won’t be afraid of being alone. You will guard the village alone, so quiet that it is a bit cold… In the end, you will leave alone, leaving behind a back view. My endless cries will not bring you back.

The Taoist boy ran in the rain, tears streaming down his face, and at this moment, I was crying with the Taoist boy.

In the end, Wei Chaoyu didn’t say anything… his hand slipped from the Taoist boy’s back, and his body sank suddenly. The Taoist boy’s tears had dried up by this point, and he just ran numbly, running… gradually, the mountain gate was almost in front of him.

He never let go of Wei Chaoyu’s body. Before the mountain gate, he once again held her in his arms and walked towards the mountain gate step by step… His expression was more numb. He couldn’t respond to every word Wei Chaoyu said, and he didn’t know how to respond.

Because he couldn’t choose, how could he respond to Wei Chaoyu’s passionate love?

The monk, at this moment… is standing in front of the gate.

Amid the heavy rain, the Taoist acolyte stopped holding Wei Chaoyu in his arms and looked at the Master. At this moment, I still couldn’t see the Master’s face clearly, but I could feel a kind of sad sigh coming from him.

“Cheng Dao, this time, you have done wrong. You have indeed gone astray.” The Master’s voice reached the Taoist boy’s ears.

He looked up at the Master and said, “I have respected and loved you all my life, and I have always regarded you as my father and teacher. You say that my faith is unstable… I always want to resolve it.”

“Are you blaming me?” The Master’s voice seemed to carry an unbreakable sigh.

The Taoist monk held Wei Chaoyu in his arms, gradually increasing the pressure, but looked at the Master, stubbornly pursing his lips and refusing to speak.

“Cheng Dao, I once told you a story. Listen to this story carefully again and see if you can understand what I want to say in it… Once upon a time, a man loved to eat pork since he was a child. However, in their place, people thought that pork was very dirty and that only vulgar people would eat it. People liked to eat beef because it was very noble… So, that person pretended to love beef in order to in order to make himself as noble as the others, he pretended to love beef, but in fact, he secretly ate pork every few days…” The Taoist boy stood still, unable to dispel the sadness in his heart. It was because of habit, or because he really was used to listening to the Master telling this so-called story, that he listened to the Master’s words at all times, paying attention to every word.

My heart is as sad as the Taoist boy’s. The entanglement of two lives, I am him, he is me… so the sadness is the same.

But I don’t understand why the Master chose to tell such a ridiculous story at this time. Does pork or beef have anything to do with our sadness at this moment?

But the Master seemed to be unable to see our sadness and continued telling his story. He said, “Because of the power of human words, he also felt that eating pork was a bad thing, but his heart longed to eat pork. How could this be changed? He also tried to force himself to quit eating pork, but he couldn’t. So, he could only pretend to love beef during the day, and still eat pork every few days. This secret was kept by him alone. At that time, everyone thought he was a noble man who loved beef, and he almost thought so himself… But the truth is that he was still a pork lover.

“I still remember the ending of this story… You told me that one day, this man happened to see a live pig rolling in a pile of manure. He suddenly felt really dirty, and suddenly he felt that he didn’t want to eat pork anymore. He was very confused, and he deliberately cooked pork to eat. This time, when he ate it, he found that the pork was not as sweet as before, but had an indescribable strange taste… From then on, this man really stopped eating pork and became a true beef-eater. But now, you tell me why this is so?” The voice of the Taoist monk was full of pain, but he could still remember the story that the master had once told him.

“Why? At the time, I remember you answering me that I told you the story of the Tao is about what matters, and that one must experience it for oneself in order to change… At the time, I laughed and said nothing… Now, I can tell you that you answered completely wrong… The real answer is that, for anything, one can only listen to one’s own heart. The decision made by the heart is one, and pretending to be two will not change it… Unless there is an opportunity to understand, then change will occur. Master Cheng Dao, you are now blaming me for pointing out that your heart is unstable, but if you want to see the branches of your destiny, you will understand that your heart has already written down a one… Whether I point it out or not, you will still write a one in the end… Unless you have the opportunity to understand.” The Master’s voice was very sad. At this moment, I could feel that he was suppressing his sadness.

“What do you mean?” the Daotongzi asked, confused.

“That is… I am not the cause of this, and your outcome is the same! If you continue to get along with this girl, no matter what happens, no matter how much time passes… as long as you don’t understand in your heart, your ending will still be the same. You have taken a detour, but you don’t know it. I can’t interfere with your destiny, everything is your own choice. Even if I value you and can’t help but remind you… but in the end, you still choose the detour. If you don’t believe it, come with me, come with me to see the branches of fate.” After saying this, the master sighed.

The Taoist monk was holding Wei Chaoyu in a daze, and no matter what happened, no matter how much time passed… was this the end?