Chapter 159: A Dream of Life and Death

Our boat was thus propelled into the air by the power of water under the mysterious water control of Xuan Zi.

The wild waves followed one another, pushing our boat high into the air as if it were flying. Is this what playing with your heart is like?

But my heart is about to stop beating. Although it is beating very quickly at the moment, I can feel that it is different from the powerful rhythm it usually has… It has become very weak.

Even though we are in the air at a high speed, this danger cannot stimulate me. My eyelids are so heavy that I can’t open them anymore.

I heard my master calling my name, telling me not to fall asleep, but the sweet smell of sleep and the deep darkness were like the greatest temptation… I had no way to resist.

My master’s hand held my cold hand tightly, giving me warmth. I held onto this unquenchable warmth and finally closed my eyes.

At that moment, I felt the boat plunge into the water again, causing my body to jerk uncontrollably. The pain in my chest or heart was so intense that it felt like it was tearing me apart.

I could hear myself moan, and I could even feel the strong current under the boat pushing it forward rapidly… It must have used the power of the waves to leap over Yang Sheng and the others, then flew out a distance, and then used the power of the current to send us away quickly.

“The art of controlling water is superb.” Although I didn’t know what state I was in, I couldn’t help but think of my master’s evaluation of this phrase.

Although I seemed to be conscious, my eyes were indeed unable to open. I felt as if I had fallen into a deep dark quagmire and could not escape… When I was submerged, my consciousness would also go out.

The unquenchable warmth from my left hand was my only support. I couldn’t help but hold it tightly, and then the darkness engulfed me.

It was a dream without knowing the time, or it was not a dream at all.

In the dream, I had no specific thoughts, and I couldn’t see any specific scenes. I just felt that there was a road under my feet, and the surroundings were all dark. Moreover, that kind of darkness was like a solid substance, forming an impenetrable barrier. I could only walk along the road under my feet, and I didn’t know when I would arrive.

In this constant walking, I was extremely numb, not tired, and even less lonely… I felt that this walking was just instinct, and I didn’t think about where the destination was.

I couldn’t feel the passage of time, so I couldn’t calculate anything. I didn’t know how long I had been walking, but finally I saw a glimmer of light in the distance.

Because it was not just a ray of light, but behind the light there was a colorful world. If I could cross to the light, I would be able to escape the eternal darkness and endless loneliness.

I suddenly ran like crazy. I didn’t feel tired here, but the light was a little far away. I ran for a long time before I felt that I was getting closer to it… However, its existence was like my hope, my obsession that I couldn’t let go. I had no other thoughts except for pursuing it…

Finally, the light was getting closer and closer… When I was a few meters away from it, I couldn’t help but reach out and touch the light.

Unlike the cold and gloomy darkness, that ray of light was so warm and gentle. I couldn’t wait to immerse myself in it. Behind it would be a colorful world of happiness. I didn’t know why, but I was convinced of it.

But at this moment, my body became stiff. I saw a film floating in front of my soul, as calm as a lake, with a drop of water falling on it, causing ripples… An inexplicable force overflowed from it.

I felt that it was that force that was stopping me. I felt an indescribable anger in my heart, and I desperately wanted to break free. But at this moment, a thunderous shout suddenly rang out in my heart: “Cross this door and sever all ties with the mortal world. If you want to cross, then cross. After all, you are me, and I am you.”

What is this? What? You are me, I am you… In this darkness, my thoughts were completely restricted, and I couldn’t think of anything. The voice in my mind made me feel strange.

“Hey… never mind, everything is predestined, I’m forcing it… you can decide what to do.” The voice was previously emotionless, even though it was a literal reminder, the tone was calm.

But this sigh seemed to contain a heavy emotion… and the words “everything is fate” were ringing in my ears.

As soon as the voice fell, the thought disappeared like a tide. The film that had rippled instantly became calm and disappeared into the depths of my soul. At the same time, the power that had bound me also disappeared like a tide, and my body could move again.

Can I finally approach the light? I was overjoyed and moved forward a step. However, my heart was inexplicably reminded of the words of the thought, and I began to feel inexplicably sad.

But this little pain could not stop my desire for the light, because I didn’t know why I was in pain, and I couldn’t even remember what the person or thing was that was so painful.

But I didn’t expect that the moment I stood still, the pain suddenly exploded. I couldn’t move forward at all, and suddenly I was crouching on the ground, covering my chest. Along with the pain, there was a strong sense of reluctance. There was no reluctance, just a strong sense of reluctance that couldn’t be dissolved.

What am I not willing to give up? I can’t think of anything, but in the deepest part of my heart, many voices keep overlapping.

“Sanwa, get up and do your morning exercises.”

“Sanwa, can you stop being so naughty? Next time your father beats you, I won’t beg for you.”

“Watching the dancing light, the red leaves in the wind… Chengyi, is it nice?”

“Chengyi…” “Chengyi…”

Countless voices intermingled, and my heart ached as it exploded in a continuous series of explosions. But I couldn’t think of anything. I finally couldn’t take it anymore, and I yelled, “If I don’t cross over, what am I going to do? What am I going to do? Who am I?”

The lonely black space was filled with only my voice echoing, but I could no longer cross over to the light… I began to move back a little, the further away from the light, the less my heart ached.

Finally, I stood up and began to walk back the way I had come without looking back. The darkness before my eyes was so hateful compared to the ray of hope, but it was so insignificant compared to the pain in my heart.

I walked, then I started to run… Even if I were to be trapped in this endless darkness, I would never again feel such pain.

A sigh came from the bottom of my heart: “Foolish, foolish, foolish… I am such a fool. Which one is me?”

I couldn’t think about what this voice was saying at the moment. I just wanted to escape the pain that was cutting into my flesh, no, it should be cutting into my soul!

Once again, I don’t know how long I ran. In a world without fatigue or loneliness, I felt a hint of sweetness in my mouth for the first time. Then, more and more sensations returned… My face felt like it was being caressed, my sense of smell detected the sweet smell of grapes, and my heart felt a burning pain.

But it wasn’t a feeling of heartache, but a pure physical pain!

At that moment, my mind was opened, and memories flooded into my mind like a flood… The last image was of the moment when our boat flew up in the air at Guidaowan!

I suddenly remembered everything. I, I am Chen Chengyi! I was almost pierced through the heart by that god. Was I dead or alive?

My body felt numb, and I felt a sharp pain. But I also felt the weight of my eyelids. Slowly, I heard sobbing in my ear, and something soft and sweet was stuffed into my mouth. I swallowed it subconsciously.

“Ah?” The sobbing sound in my ear suddenly turned into a slightly shocked “ah” sound.

The sound was so familiar, and my throat kept moving. I almost exhausted all my strength, and finally spat out a word from my throat: “Sister…”

Yes, that “ah” was my second sister’s voice! How could my second sister be here?

My eyes were still closed, but I heard a sound of sobbing in my ear, followed by the sound of something being hastily put down, and then the sound of hurried footsteps, accompanied by the excited shout, “Chengyi is talking! Chengyi is calling me!”

My eyes suddenly opened at this moment… I unconsciously looked around at my surroundings, but my heart subconsciously whispered, “Bamboo Forest Villa.”