Chapter 55: Repayment

I didn’t know what to say in response to Lin Chen’s words. At that moment, I even had the thought that if he cared so much about the outcome between us, why not deliberately lose to him again, knowing it was him?

If, this is already his obsession.

In my silence, Lin Chen suddenly withdrew his gaze and looked straight at me: “Are you thinking? If you know it’s me, why not lose to me?”

In terms of scheming, I’m afraid that the two Chen Chengyis can’t even match one Lin Chen. He is much stronger than me in penetrating people’s hearts… He grew up in that environment, and in the face of the organization where Xiao Daishao, who is like a family heir, is an “outsider,” he was able to get this far. I guess this is already his survival instinct.

I was speechless, and denying it to him now was actually a very childish thing to say.

But Lin Chen seemed to want to ask me for an answer, and I could only choose to be sincere and say seriously, “Perhaps, unlike you, I don’t care about this.”

Lin Chen seemed a little agitated, but he calmed down in an instant. He still had his hands behind his back, making him look even more upright. He smiled a little, but compared to before, this smile seemed a little more bitter. Then he said, “You shouldn’t despise me. You really don’t care. If you are in a person or a school, your status is not established by winning battles or handling things perfectly. What you need is a long-lasting relationship. What do you care about winning or losing? The cheapness of people is that they ignore what they already have, and what they can’t get is the most important… I am such a person. Do you think I regret it?

His expression made me feel a little bitter, because we had one thing in common: the woman we once loved came from the same village, and they were both hard to find. The difference was that I had a little hope, but Lin Chen was completely desperate after getting a sentence.

“Don’t think about it anymore. The person is gone. Fate brings people together and separates them. Master once said that if it is fate, perhaps at the next intersection, we can still walk together for a while. Look farther.” I don’t know if these words of comfort are weak and powerless, but they are often the best comfort for me. But they are only comfort, just like painkillers that temporarily relieve pain.

The phrase “thinking but unable to get what you want, remembering but unable to do what you want…” seems to have become a distant memory for the master who said it that year.

“Is that so?” Lin Chen didn’t say anything, and it seemed that even the most effective painkillers were no longer effective for the pain. He was silent for a long time, as if he was recalling the past, or perhaps he was just deliberately avoiding the topic.

And I have already said what I should say, but I am still silent.

Compared to our previous encounter, we have matured and experienced a lot. Our lives are different, but a few years may also be a sea of ​​change… All simple words and silences are enough.

After a short silence, Lin Chen walked a few steps towards me and stopped about two meters in front of me.

He came looking for me, and I knew that it couldn’t be just about the battle. Our relationship was strange, not exactly hatred, not exactly dislike, not exactly anything… but there was a hint of mutual admiration. If he just wanted to fight, he wouldn’t have chosen such a troublesome way.

“You can go,” Lin Chen said to me, as if he was afraid that I wouldn’t understand. He added, “I mean leave here.”

I immediately understood what he meant. I didn’t know what to think, so I said to him, “Maybe I won’t leave, but will you help me?”

This sentence seemed to have touched his funny bone, and his mouth began to rise again. He looked at me and said, “Do you think it’s possible?”

“I don’t know, but I can’t leave, since I’ve already come here.” I said very seriously.

“It’s really hard and smelly. If your lineage has been passed down for ten thousand years, this comment will be useful for ten thousand years.” Lin Chen’s eyes had some anger and helplessness, because my eyes were very calm, calm, and even a little firmness to express my will.

“Maybe, it’s not necessarily a bad evaluation.” I said to Lin Chen with a smile. The feeling of meeting old friends is always strange. After all, the basic component of life is time, and the most precious thing for people is also time. If you spend a little time on a person, you always have to remember it, because that person becomes a component of life.

A truly kind smile is not a sign of weakness. This is why I hope that we can laugh together and forget about our grudges…

“Forget it, we don’t have much in common.” Lin Chen turned and left, then coldly added, “I think you’ll be able to find your way back. There’s no danger.”

I looked at his back and took out the cigarette I had just lit when I saw him. I lit it and took a puff, but my expression was a little relaxed… Perhaps, many things are not hopeless. Thinking this way, I also turned and walked in the direction of my village.

But before I had taken a few steps, I heard Lin Chen’s voice behind me: “Chen Chengyi, I lost Irene, so I feel that the more precious the things that I can’t get, do you understand? Because the price of losing and missing the most important thing is to add the value of the things that can’t be obtained.”

“Mm.” I turned to look at Lin Chen.

“But, this is only the way of people who don’t know how to regret and don’t want to regret! Regret is an emotion that only guides the present and the future, not the past as people understand it. This is a little understanding I have gained over the years. Unfortunately, I still don’t understand and I don’t want to regret.” Lin Chen’s words were a bit deep and inexplicable.

But I understand. I turned to look at Lin Chen and said, “Are you explaining why you won’t help me? Because you are unwilling to give up, so you want to pursue everything you want. It’s because you lost Irene, right? You can’t let go, right? But do you know that this is not pride, but rather cowardice and uselessness, because you have lost your own will?

Lin Chen’s face flashed with anger, and he looked at me and said, “Do you understand what my own will is? Maybe, my own will is this?”

I smiled and said, “That’s really not a good conversation.” Then I turned around and was about to leave again.

“But I still have the ability to repay your kindness, for example… your half-master is in the village.” Lin Chen suddenly said this to me.

Half a master, in the village? My heart began to tremble violently. At that moment, I almost lost the ability to stand. Before, everything was just a fixation to pursue. After that, it seemed that there was hope of getting close, but it had never been like this before. Someone suddenly brought me such an unusual and certain message.

I was stunned on the spot, and Lin Chen didn’t seem to be in a hurry, quietly watching me.

At that moment, I could not describe my feelings at all. Time, space, past and future were all jumbled up in my mind. I didn’t even know how long it had been. When I finally managed to calm myself down, I found that Lin Chen was leaning against a low hill, and he was almost out of cigarettes.

“What do you mean?” I could only say this in a thousand words.

“Literally, that’s all I can say. Chen Chengyi, you were worth the love I once had for you. That’s all I have to say.” Lin Chen stubbed out his cigarette. This time, he simply left. In this maze-like low-lying slope, his figure disappeared quickly.

And I, once again, was weak… inexplicably… and shed two tears. If it were before, I would have cried a lot.

My fists were clenched tightly, as if only in this way could I suppress my urge to rush into the so-called inner village. But at the same time, I was also confused. I missed my friends very much, because Lin Chen’s words really scared me.

What does it mean… half a master in the village?

Thinking about this, I could no longer restrain my impulsive emotions. I ran out of the clearing, but I didn’t run towards my own village, but towards the closest one, where Chengqing was!

Fortunately, it was Chengqing, fortunately, the calm Chengqing was closest to me… The only thought in my mind was that I was running too fast, so the wind kept blowing the tears on my face… I didn’t want to cry, but I couldn’t control it. If it’s not human, can you control it?

It’s not simply about finding my master, but… it represents all the years of longing and searching since he left, all the emotions, all the encounters, all the people and things… it’s like an explosion, and I can’t stop the tears.

Haha, half of my master is in the village!