Chapter 017 – Premature Marriage Proposal

After Zishan stepped out of the tea room, she stood for a while, took a few deep breaths and looked behind her before taking a step, she wasn’t waiting for Yang Guoying to come out, with Yang Guoying’s status, character and temperament she couldn’t possibly chase him out at this time. It’s not that Yang Guoying is not good at begging, she just won’t pull and tug with people in public, it’s very disgraceful and humiliating.

The reason why she stood for a while is because Zi Shan had some slight dizziness and shortness of breath, and had to stop and rest for a while, her heart is not very good, but it is not so bad that she will have a seizure when she gets emotional, such as her and Feng Dayong’s entanglement in which she did not have any discomfort.

Originally, she thought that when she met Yang Guoying, she would be able to finish her sentence calmly, and would leave peacefully, and would not be sad or angry again, but she really did not expect that when facing Yang Guoying, she was still unable to not be agitated.

Zishan slowly walked towards home, her heart was in a mess but she didn’t know what she was thinking, the mother who had never existed in her life for more than twenty years had appeared, even though she had seen through everything, she still couldn’t treat Yang Guoying as a person who was not related to her. She really did not know that her heart knot on Yang Guoying is bigger than Feng Dayong.

She did not get the natural talk about what to lose or not to lose, but see Yang Guoying’s face, Zi Shan really preferred that she never appeared, at least she can still imagine, at least she still has a glimmer of hope.

More than twenty years ago, Yang Guoying left Zi Shan behind after her divorce. At that time, Zi Shan was still in her infancy, still breastfeeding, and according to the law, she was sentenced to her mother, Yang Guoying. However, Yang Kuoying left her at the courthouse without saying a word or leaving a note.

Afterward, the court couldn’t contact Yang Guoying, so it had to bring Zi Shan’s father, Li Yaoxu, to take Zi Shan back. After all these years, Zi Shan has always wondered what Yang Guoying left her at the court for. She could have declared that she didn’t want a child when she got divorced, so why did she leave her behind after the divorce if she didn’t say so?

Zishan’s father came from a family of scholars, that year is to go to the Eastern Province on official business when met Yang Guoying, after the two married Li Yaoxu originally wanted to settle down there, and then after the marriage broke down he wanted to leave the heartbreak of the matter, but the job transfer is not a word, a big man is not convenient to take the child, only to send Zishan back to his hometown of Lanshui City first.

Li Yao Xu on the past of that marriage never mentioned, even if it is later Zi Shan grew up to ask about him also just smoking and do not say a word, so, when Yang Guoying and Li Yao Xu what happened between, Zi Shan do not know anything.

She had thought that she would question Yang Guoying face to face, but she didn’t ask in the tea room, and suddenly, Zi Shan didn’t want to ask anymore. It had been more than twenty years, no, I should say it was going to be thirty years, what was the point of asking or not asking?

No matter what had happened between Yang Guoying and Li Yaoxu, no matter what Yang Guoying had to do or what ridiculous excuses he had – she, Li Zishan, was the one who had been given up. Nearly thirty years later, she has already become a wife and mother, is no longer a small child who needs her mother’s care, even if the truth to her what is the use of asking.

Knowing or not knowing, now really does not matter. Zishan lowered her head, two tears fell on the shoes, washed away the thin dust on the shoes, leaving two round traces, very soon, the tears will evaporate, the traces will not be so obvious, and then again obvious and not obvious and who cares about it.

Zi Shan raised her head, could not see that she had shed tears, as if the tears did not come out of her eyes, the tears fell in the moment she lowered her head, and did not leave a trace in the corners of her eyes or face. She asked herself not to shed tears, and although two tears fell from her eyes unexpectedly, she would not let anyone see them.

Those two tears were not seen by anyone, that is, they did not exist. Her sadness and wounds, from then on, just like before she met Feng Dayong at the age of eighteen, could only be licked by herself, and would never let anyone else see it. Tears, is weakness, for men and women are the same, and to live people can not be weak only strong.

Zixan stood up his chest, said to himself in the bottom of his heart – you do not insist on, weak to whom to see? No one can lend her shoulder to rest a break, and no one’s bosom can let her tears, then she can only head up and chest forward.

Because, she still has a daughter, she can not let her daughter away from her again, also can not let her daughter taste her once bitter. There is a mother, for the child the sky will not be the whole collapse, once upon a time her young shoulders can not hold up, no one for her to hold up the sky, now she is already an adult, to hold up the sky for her daughter.

Back home, Zixan was so tired that half a finger did not want to move, although she did not do any physical activity today, but just tired, she lay on the bed and fell asleep, dreaming of a handful of umbrellas open or closed.

If you get a good night’s sleep, you’ll feel much better when you see the sun again, especially on a good day, and you may be able to leave all the unpleasantness behind.

Today was an excellent day, the sky was so and so blue. Zishan looked at the white clouds on the blue sky, remembering that the sky after ten years was no longer such a blue color, her heart naturally gave birth to the idea of cherishing, she wanted to cherish not only the blue sky, but also everything that she still had.

How many people can go back to ten years ago at the age of forty? Zi Shan then left Yang Guoying’s matter behind her, and got up after playing with the baby in bed for a while, then she heard the doorbell ring.

Lin Hao looked refreshed and when he saw the baby he first picked her up and spun her around, “I have a gift for you.” Only then did he greet Zi Shan. He was a very polite and measured man, letting Zi Shan and her daughter know that he meant well while not putting any pressure on them to be overly affectionate.

A morning meal ended with the baby’s cheers, and Lin Hao’s insistence on sending the baby to kindergarten made the baby happy: “Look at the plateau before it stinks!” Lin Hao’s BMW 7 series car was obviously more racy than Feng Dayong’s Volkswagen.

Zi Shan did not expect the child so young already have climbing, this is not a good thing, was about to open his mouth to hear Lin Hao asked: “Plateau, little boys, right? Their family car is very good well – but that is also their family car, but not his car, the baby said right?”

“Right.” The baby answered loudly, obviously happy to have found a way on how to teach Gao Wish a lesson, but soon she caved in, “But I’m still small, how can I buy my own car?”

Lin Hao laughed, “You can. Well, as long as the baby learns to wash socks and handkerchiefs within a week and does it cleanly and quickly, then Uncle Lin will give you a car, okay? If the baby can’t do it, you’ll have to wash mommy’s socks for the next month.”

The baby was not happy to hear, “Good, good!”

Zi Shan hurriedly said, “No, Lin Hao, this ……”

“I know. Although I do not have children but does not mean that I do not know how to teach children ah, this is also to let the baby know that there is something to work for something to get, you can rest assured, it is only a toy car just, the baby is happy and know a little bit of the truth, compared to that a little bit of money to buy a car is not more important than a lot more important?” Lin Hao interrupted Zi Shan’s words, “Also, Zi Shan, we were classmates from high school to college, it’s not a big deal to give the baby something, right? Don’t be too formal with me, old classmate.”

Zi Shan looked at the big rabbit that the baby was holding in her arms, “I’ve already given it away, you can’t spoil the child.”

Lin Hao smiled, “I know, Zi Shan.” Speaking to the kindergarten, Lin Hao took the baby out of the car and kissed her hard, “A gentleman’s word is a promise.”

The baby looked at Lin Hao: “A team of horses? Uncle don’t lie, a horse and four horses to chase are the same, can’t catch up is can’t catch up.”

The child’s words caused Lin Hao and Zi Shan to laugh, and the baby explained what is called a team of horses and watched her walk toward the kindergarten, just at this time, a cool little boy from a car down: “Baby, you want to think about it or not, today want to marry me?”

The voice was crisp, the strong childish flavor was very pleasant to the ear, however, that sentence almost made Zi Shan bite her tongue. Is that so? Children nowadays mature so early? How can I say, the baby is still a bit too young for their age.

The baby had already walked into the kindergarten and turned around when she heard the cool boy’s words, her little face very serious: “Don’t you call me baby, I’m just mommy’s baby. I’m not marrying you, my lawyer Uncle Lin said so, it’s not like your family’s car is your car. Also, I’m about to get my own car ……”

Zixan was relieved to hear the baby’s words, luckily, her own baby didn’t understand such “complicated” things yet.

“I’m better than you, Highlander, you’d better marry me!” The baby suggested with a serious face, listening to the two adults, Zi Shan and Lin Hao, who were all speechless – kids nowadays!

That cool boy, Highland, walked into the kindergarten tornly, it was obvious that he wouldn’t agree to marry the baby either, and the two kids went into the classroom holding hands and discussing the issue of to marry or not to marry, leaving the three adults at the entrance of the garden to stare at each other a little awkwardly.

“Hello, I’m Highland’s father, Gao Gang.” Gao Yuan’s father is not cool at all, but a man who is fat as a ball, but even if he is so fat, Zi Shan has to admit that this Gao Gang is a very handsome fat man, “Children’s childish talk is reckless, huh, you, you won’t care, right?”

Zixan smiled and shook her head, “Hello. Will not care, children. We still have things to do, so we’ll leave first, Mr. Gao, bye.” She greeted politely and left with Lin Hao.

She didn’t think it was early love for a child, a five year old wouldn’t know what “marriage” really meant, maybe she had watched too many TV dramas, right? At most, that little cool boy liked to play with the baby, and that was it.