Chapter 071 – The Outstretched Hand
Zishan stared at her birth mother, looking at her eyes not good eyeballs, dead on every trace of expression on her face, she didn’t know exactly what kind of answer she wanted, or what kind of expression she wanted to see on Yang Guoying’s face, but she just wanted to hear and see.
Li Yao Xu came over to pull Zi Shan, with a plea, “Zi Shan, listen to dad, go home with dad now, come on, we’re going home.” He really didn’t want to see the scene in front of him, no matter what answer Yang Guoying said, the result would not be good.
Yang Guoying looked at Zi Shan, her tears finally flowed out, “Zi Shan, what do you want me to answer? I know I’m not a good mother, I can’t even afford the word mother in front of you, but I really didn’t mean to hurt you, let’s put down all our grudges and sit down and talk openly and honestly, can’t we?”
“Even if you treat me as a stranger or not, just listen to me say a few words can always be right, I just want to help you, because I know Feng Dayong intends to use the child to threaten you, I ……” her words came out, even she herself felt powerless very much.
Zi Shan took a step back when she heard this, “I said it before, don’t use these as if noble behaviors to cover up your meanness.” Speaking here she suddenly laughed, first a light laugh then a big laugh, finally turning into a laugh with tears, “Yang Guoying, do you know what you did wrong? It’s true that you don’t look like a mother to come to me for your own life, but I am indeed the daughter you carried for ten months and gave birth to, since you know you have a guilty conscience why can’t you come to me without utilitarianism or scheming?”
“All you have to do is say to me that you need a kidney, don’t push me, don’t scheme with people against me, just tell me that my kidney is the only one that can save your life, and no matter how I reacted to hearing that at the time, I will end up donating it to you.” She tilted her face up, not really wanting to let the tears flow at this point, “Just say it to me directly, don’t even have to tell me that you have a guilty conscience in your heart, and that I’ll ultimately make it work for you, just because you’re my birth mother.”
Her tears still flowed down, flowing out from the corners of both eyes, sliding into her temples and disappearing, “No matter what people on the sidelines say or think, I’m just so indisputable that I just can’t let go of the so-called two words of kinship! You can not be a father, not mother, but I can not do that kind of desperate things.”
“Maybe I won’t recognize you, over the years I’ve been more than just resentful of you, it’s already indescribable and unclear, but, I really won’t watch you die in front of me!” She lowered her head, other than slightly moist eyes could not tell that she had shed tears, “But, you chose a way to hurt me to the core, right when you and Feng Dayong decided to work together, you cut off the path for us mother and daughter to believe in, and I, too, will no longer save you.”
Zi Shan looked at Yang Guoying, her tone slowed down to lightly spit out a sentence, causing Yang Guoying’s body, which was already like a leaf in the wind, to almost fall to the ground, “It’s not that I saw death to save you, it’s that you got yourself killed. If you want to blame, you can only blame yourself.”
After saying that, she felt so tired and exhausted, now she just wanted to go home, just wanted to have a good sleep, hoping that when she woke up the sky was blue, the clouds were white, and everything that was not good in the world had disappeared.
Zi Shan gently pushed Li Yao Xu’s hand away, ”Dad, I think it might be the last time I call you that, I did look forward to many years, wanting to be loved by you. Today, I finally came to my senses – how much money did she give you to make you scold Hao Shufen’s mother and daughter for me? How much money did she give you to let you trick me into coming here? I, in your heart am more than inferior to Hao Shufen’s mother and son, but also inferior to money.”
Zi Shan’s voice calmed down, no longer as crazy as it was just now, and no longer let people hear a trace of anger.
Li Yao Xu looked at Zi Shan: “I, I ……” He didn’t know what to say, he really didn’t accept Yang Guoying’s money, Yang Guoying also didn’t mention money to him, why would Zi Shan misunderstand them so deeply? But looking at Zi Shan’s eyes with despair, his tongue was so heavy that he couldn’t move at all, and he couldn’t say any words of defense at all.
Zi Shan closed her eyes, “I really don’t know, why did you give birth to me if you didn’t like me, why did you bring me to this world if you didn’t want me, why did you divorce and have a grudge against each other but let me bear the consequences – am I really that repulsive? Am I really that repulsive?”
Her voice became smaller and smaller, her body swayed and without any warning she fell down softly! In front of Yang Guoying and Li Yaoxu, her body was like a wilted, lifeless flower drifting down towards the ground, not straight, the sound of her fall wasn’t even loud, just like Zi Shan herself who lived without ever attracting anyone’s attention, and now that she had fallen to the ground she still didn’t want to make a loud noise to scare anyone.
Yang Guoying lunged forward, reaching out her arms to try to hold Zi Shan, “No, no!” Her tears finally welled up. For many years, it’s not that she hadn’t thought of Zi Shan as her daughter, but every time she thought of her, her heart would be a little uncomfortable and she would turn away from the thought, never, she had never shed a tear for Zi Shan.
But today, when she saw Zi Shan collapsing in front of her eyes – I believe that Zi Shan did not feel uncomfortable, but she did not ask her for help, but preferred to die rather than ask for help. Her tears finally welled up, she really didn’t know that she still had tears.
Li Yao Xu’s heart ached, he knew he was having a heart attack, he immediately took out the medicine and stuffed it into his mouth, then he took out his cell phone to dial the emergency number, he himself was a heart patient so he knew what was best for Zi Shan. Seeing Yang Guoying pouncing over to pick up Zi Shan who had fallen to the ground, he yelled, “Don’t move her!”
Not knowing any first aid, all he and Yang Guoying can do now is to let Zi Shan lie on the ground, moving her around randomly is dangerous, Li Yao Xu anxiously waits for the phone to be connected while enduring his illness, seeing Yang Guoying’s tearful face, he suddenly remembers something out of urgency, “My medicine …… ”
Words spoken half remembered what the doctor had said, heart disease is not so simple, some people fainted because the heart beat too slow, while some people just because the heart beat too fast and fainted, in case of taking the wrong first aid medicine that is going to kill people. His outstretched hand retracted again.
Just at this time, he heard “Hello” from his cell phone, excited, his voice choked up.
“In the small garden in the middle of Garden Road, my daughter is having an acute heart attack, you guys save her, I beg you guys save her quickly.” Li Yao Xu hugged the cell phone, two lines of old tears also flowed down. He really didn’t want to see his daughter die in front of him, or die of a heart attack because of him.
If things could be done over again, he would definitely not listen to Yang Guoying and would not arrange for Yang Guoying and Zi Shan to meet, he would never let Yang Guoying see Zi Shan again in his life.
He put down the phone and saw that Yang Guo Ying had opened the bottle of medicine and was fumbling around trying to feed Zi Shan, his heart was shocked, he pounced over and slapped the medicine out of Yang Guo Ying’s hand, “Do you really want Zi Shan’s life?”
“I told you, I never wanted Zi Shan’s life, I was saving her, didn’t you see?” Yang Guoying sat on the ground and cried, no longer caring about any image, to hell with etiquette and all that, “Why do you all think I’m here to harm her, I never thought of harming her even if I wanted to save myself.”
Li Yao Xu dragged her to the side, “You stay away from Zi Shan.” Seeing Zi Shan’s pale face, seeing Zi Shan’s increasingly black lips, he held his head and squatted down without losing his temper to Yang Guoying, what’s the use of losing his temper now, if Zi Shan has an eventuality, even if Yang Guoying scolded him, it won’t change anything.
The ambulance didn’t arrive right away, it would take a little bit of time to come over, but every second that passes is like Zi Shan’s life passing away, this kind of waiting can make people go crazy, Li Yaoxu crouched down, stood up, took a few steps and crouched down again – he simply didn’t know what to do to be good.
His phone rang at this time, startling him for a split second he picked up the phone, “Ambulance?” He did not look at the number and asked sharply, “Garden Road ah ……, you? Your sister fainted, you shut up!” He slapped the phone hard on the ground, because it was a dirt floor phone did not break. At this time Li Rongqi called, no matter what things he did not have the heart to pay attention.
Yang Guoying and he looked at Zisan on the ground, on the wet and cold ground, the only daughter they shared was lying there quietly, if it wasn’t for the abnormal color of her face and lips, it looked as if she was sleeping, but now Zisan wasn’t sleeping, on this cold and hard ground, her vitality was fading away little by little and little by little.
Li Yaoxu and Yang Guoying knew that Zixan was in a life and death situation, but they could not do anything, except to watch or watch, once upon a time, they did not do their duty, and it was not easy for them to touch Zixan’s heart and want to ease the relationship with Zixan, but Zixan was made to hover on the line of life and death by them.
They were, as Zi Shan said, really not good parents.
Looking at Zi Shan’s rapidly closing eyes, she remembered that Zi Shan had just asked her over and over again, “Do you want it or don’t you want it?” Yang Guoying suddenly let out a loud cry, “No, no, why, why?” Why couldn’t she say no, why wouldn’t she say no? She kept saying that she didn’t want Zi Shan’s life, but wasn’t Zi Shan now victimized by her in this way.
She suddenly raised her hand and slapped herself twice, two handprints immediately appeared on her face, if Zi Shan really had an emergency, how could she face her conscience? Even if she found a suitable kidney, would she be able to live with peace of mind?
In those past years, she left Zi Shan behind and lived with peace of mind, living so happily, so openly, thinking that the wealth accumulated day after day was all she had, and now, after seeing Zi Shan and killing her, could she still live as heartlessly as she did?
Li Yao Xu didn’t care what Yang Guoying was doing, he just looked at Zi Shan and kept praying, he didn’t know who to pray to, as long as he could think of any god or Buddha, he begged them all.
The ambulance’s beeping sound finally came over, Li Yao Xu jumped up, “You watch Zi Shan, I’ll go and draw the car over!” After he finished running, he took two steps and suddenly stopped again. Seeing the tears on Yang Guoying’s face, he gritted his teeth and ran outside – now that Zi Shan was still alive, he really couldn’t delay any longer, a second earlier might be able to save Zi Shan’s life.
Yang Guoying is still Zi Shan’s biological mother, so she won’t do anything to Zi Shan at this moment. Li Yao Xu had to leave Zi Shan in Yang Guoying’s care, and he ran to fetch the doctors and nurses.
When the ambulance arrived, Yang Guoying looked at the still lying Zi Shan on the ground, and then looked at Li Yao Xu who ran away, her trembling hand reached out – after Li Yao Xu warned her not to touch Zi Shan, what did she want to do with her hand at this time? Can’t it be that even after shedding tears of regret, what she cares most about is her own life and death?