Chapter 338: Talking tough to the end

Watching Lin Hao hatefully turn around and walk away, Zi Shan glared back at Jiang Tao, “It’s just, it’s just to piss off Lin Hao.” Is that true, is she that boring? Zi Shan wasn’t that kind of person by any stretch of the imagination, but Jiang Tao definitely wouldn’t speak out differently – he knew deep down that he had to sneer when he got a favor.

Jiang Tao is sure that Zi Shan’s feelings for him is not ordinary, but if pushed too hard may be bad, how to say that Zi Shan has suffered too much damage and too big, to give her time, to let her slowly understand their own, believe in their own, the feelings of the two people will be water to the canal.

He is now worried about Zi Shan’s reaction, Ma Li’s words should be very powerful to Zi Shan, right? If Zi Shan closes her heart again because of Mari, he will really beat Mari all over the head. Now, he is considering whether to take the initiative to talk or wait for Zi Shan to ask. If he took the initiative to explain, he was afraid that Zi Shan would think left, thinking that he was weak, cover up or something. With a quiet glance at Zi Shan, he was still a bit uncertain.

Really did not expect Ma Li will appear, although said these years is not broken news, but the two do not see much time, one is he does not want to face some people, two he also do not want to recall some bad things to.

Zi Shan naturally found Jiang Tao’s peeping, want to speak but do not know how to say – ask or not ask it? If you don’t ask, you’re going to have a hard time, but if you do ask, why should you ask? How to say that now she and Jiang Tao is only “ordinary friends” only, if the opening question Jiang Tao words, will not appear too that? Do not ask words, she felt suffocated, suffocated to open the windows can not be resolved – she is convinced that Jiang Tao, but just after the opening of the Ma Li Jiang Tao did not refute, alas, alas!

In fact, even if Jiang Tao and Ma Li once had what has nothing to do with her, right? Ahem, that now Jiang Tao and Ma Li is no relationship, even if they are very close once upon a time, but thirty years old who do not have the past, is not it?

She slipped through a lot of thoughts in her mind, a lot of ideas, persuade also persuaded themselves, but the end result is to make her more and more annoyed – this dead Jiangtao in the end and Ma Li how? It’s not that Jiang Tao can’t have a past, it’s just that Jiang Tao is so silent and doesn’t say what it means in the end. Thinking of Lin Hao’s secret, her heart ached, a man with a secret is really too scary.

Jiang Tao tangled for a long time, finally opened his mouth after parking the car: “That sixteen years old, I was ridiculous for about a year, after dropping out of school, I thought I was learning from others to ‘mix with the society’, the first thing to learn of course is to drink and smoke and so on,” he did not dare to look at Zi Shan. Both hands gripped the steering wheel slightly harder, obviously that period of time was something he didn’t want to think back on, “On my birthday, I drank with my so-called brothers.”

Zisan looked at Jiang Tao and cursed in her heart – talking out of turn, but the loss in Jiang Tao’s expression made her not say anything, but listen quietly. This man’s past was too heavy, what was behind that smiling face? Was he really happy, or was he really that childish or cheerful, or was that just a mask?

“That night I got drunk, for the first time in my life, that kind of feeling, hey,” Jiang Tao wiped his face: “It felt like my whole body relaxed, all the weight was gone, what father, what mother, what junior’s son and so on, all left my, I was so relaxed, never had been relaxed, I cried out. never been so relaxed, I cried out, and I laughed out loud.”

He glanced at Zixan, “Then, the next day I woke up next to Mari. I don’t remember what happened in between, although I do remember I was drunk, I cried and laughed, but I don’t remember when Mari showed up, the memory is of drinking a glass of something, whether it was water or something I can’t tell, anyway a glass was handed to me and I drank it, and then I don’t remember anything else.”

“What happened was all told to me by Mari and the two brothers.” He stopped here, and after a while he said, “I’m not trying to pass the buck, or say that Mari is a bad person, she, well, wasn’t bad, was she? At least she treated me okay back then, argued and even fought with people over me, but I couldn’t face something like that, wasn’t prepared for it at all, so I left.”

He took a long breath, “I went to my father and left that city to board and study out of town, and Mari had a boyfriend afterward-she had one before I was sixteen, and I got beat up by his boyfriend, and all in all it was just a mess, and I, I ……, Zixan, if I had known what I wanted back then, I wouldn’t have done the ridiculous things I did, but I can’t really change the past, so let’s just say that the person I am now and the immature kid I was before really aren’t the same person.”

Zixan turned her head to look out the car window, “You were under a lot of pressure at that time. But what are you doing talking to me about this, don’t think I won’t let you treat me if you’re in a bad mood, you won’t be able to escape this meal.” She was still happy about Jiang Tao’s opening, but she made herself ignore that feeling.

She just couldn’t find the right words to comfort Jiang Tao, plus she had a little bit of that in her heart, in order to cover up or escape it, she talked like this, and at the same time, she also wanted to bring Jiang Tao’s attention back, those past things shouldn’t affect the present anymore.

Jiang Tao listened to look up, looking at Zi Shan’s eyes slowly brightened up, some things in fact do not need to personally say out, do not need to do it – can only mean that is also a tacit understanding, he understood, so he knows now should follow the words of Zi Shan front to go.

Mari, would not be an obstacle between him and Zixan.

“I only brought twenty dollars with me, so feel free to just eat.” He said as he pushed open the car door, got out and locked the car, Zi Shan never waited for anyone to open the car door for her, it wasn’t that she didn’t know some sort of etiquette, she just didn’t think it was necessary.

After Zi Shan put down the matter of Jiang Tao and Mari, she thought about Lin Hao coming, “He thinks he can disgust us by getting a Mari out? Hey, let’s see if I don’t piss him off. Jiang Tao, he is a big lawyer, will you ……” she worried about Jiang Tao’s future.

Jiang Tao looked at her: “You do not have to be so contemptuous of me, even if it is not necessary to say so understand it? Can’t be polite, people’s hearts are also fragile.” Being twisted by Zi Shan’s arm fiercely, he immediately got serious: “It won’t be, don’t worry, he’s a dried up person, but I’m not a vegetarian, moreover, I think he’s too annoying in Lan Shui, and the lesson he was given last time didn’t make him really understand, I think it might be a good idea to let him leave Lan Shui City.”

Zi Shan was indifferent: “It’s best, it’s really annoying to have such a person popping up every now and then, you have to be more careful, he really does have some skills, or else it wouldn’t be possible for him to have such a great reputation in Blue Water City for so many years.”

“Don’t worry. He understands me, but I understand him just as well.” Jiang Tao pointed at the dishes, “Eat more fire-clearing ones, lest you get on fire when you’re busy. Uncle Li’s side of things I think it’s almost over, Hao Shufen they should not go looking for trouble again, but there is something you have thought about?”

Seeing Jiang Tao’s so serious eyes, Zishan was a bit strange, “What is it? All ready, there shouldn’t be anything, as for the cemetery, I think it’s the same if I don’t know or don’t know Hao Shufen, right now she doesn’t have time to pay attention to my dad’s things, she should be focusing on taking care of her scared daughter.”

Jiang Tao’s chopsticks scratched the plate a few times, “Zishan, Uncle Li called someone before he died.” There were some things that couldn’t be bypassed, he thought it was better to remind Zi Shan.

Zishan’s eyelids drooped, “That has nothing to do with me, if people really have that heart, I ……” she sighed, “It’s just that you’re guessing, she was so sick how could the people in the Shen family let her come? Even if Shen Zhi’s heart is broader than that, he wouldn’t be broad enough to send her to offer condolences to my dad.”

Jiang Tao looks at Zi Shan, “Not necessarily come, there is also a possibility that she will give you a call or something, Zi Shan, I’m not asking about what’s going on between you and whoever, I just want to remind you not to let yourself go.” He looked at Vixen worriedly, knowing full well that Vixen was vulnerable right now.

Zishan was silent, until she finished eating she raised her head and smiled bitterly at Jiang Tao: “There are many things that you can’t get just because you want them and you work hard for them, there are too many things in the world that can’t be forced, maybe, that fortune teller years ago was right, my parents’ fate in this life is shallow and my six relatives are unreliable is true, it’s predetermined by heaven-… -You can’t ask for it. Yang Guoying, hey, from beginning to end she is always her, I am always me, that’s all.”

Jiang Tao worried to look at her did not persuade, lest she be more sad, after dinner Zishan insisted on going back to the hearth to see, for fear that Hao Shufen will not go to the wake, that night to let her father stay by himself in that strange place, I believe that her father will be very sad, at least, the last ride she did not want to let her father have any regrets.

The funeral hall has already been arranged, the brightly lit lobby, Hao Shufen in the company of Li Rongpeng sat there staring blankly at the coffin of Li Yaoxu.

Zi Shan and Jiang Tao’s arrival just in exchange for a glance of Hao Shufen, and then she turned her head and did not say anything, it seems that she is really learned a lot, see Hao Shufen and Li Rongpeng in, Zi Shan is not what is not at ease, the past to burn a few medieval coins to his father, then stood up and Jiang Tao is ready to leave.

When she stood up, she happened to see the door of the lobby came in a person, the two people look at each other in the eyes of the people have tears in their eyes, while Zi Shan subconsciously looked at Hao Shufen.

Yang Guoying actually really came! Zi Shan did not think that Shen Zhi’s heart is really so broad, pushing his wife to worship her ex-husband, she no longer want to see Yang Guoying can not prevent Yang Guoying worship, because her father’s last call before death is to Yang Guoying, it is clear that her arrival will make her father also smile in the grave.

However, Yang Guoying came at the wrong time.