Chapter 67
The person in his arms seemed to inhale deeply, Xu Cheng Snapdragon remembered the bitter sweet, rubbed against her soft cheeks, said: “I said, now it’s your turn to say.” In the darkness, his arm tightened, but the tone of voice is relaxed as if living quickly.
Stuart Xu Xu fingers in his heart gently crossed, was his hand a le le embrace more tightly, she reached around his neck, against his chin, “snorting” light laugh: “I was only one idea: leave you.”
Holding her body really stiff, she laughed more happily, said cheerfully: “Who asked you to make me so sad!”
“You didn’t make me feel better either!” Xu Chengchu was unconvinced, “Last month, Fu Donghai got pregnant, Jingze justifiably took my annual leave, they made more of a scene than we did, right? Shen Yuan’s family that little two children will call people, I actually still single! Even an idiot like Qin Song is having a good time! Think about it! Am I miserable?
“You deserve it.” Situ muttered.
“How do I deserve it? Where am I worse than them?” Master Primrose became agitated and insisted that she speak clearly.
Situ Xu Xu broke her fingers and gave him a clear list: “Shen Yuan, people operate their days as a political career, we don’t compare with him; emotional intelligence is something that is innate, you’re not as good as Jing Ze and I don’t blame you; Qin Song? Qin Song is stupid and slutty, but he also had a year white moonlight, but also married his cousin as a relative, how easy never because of this matter to Han Tingting added a trace of blockage?”
“Hey!” Xu Chengchu reminded, they had a gentleman’s agreement, Sun Jingyu this piece of misunderstanding heavy, turned over no longer count. Situ Xu grunted, uncovered not to mention, summarized: “There is a cause and effect, your days are not as good as others, there must be places where you are not as good as them.” Of course she can’t pick herself, she has lived her days as they are now is also a cause and effect – think about Xu Chengchu if she were to change those three, she may not be able to be as tough as Fu Donghai for decades, and it must not be possible to be as bashful as Xu Tantan is about the red rose that will always bloom in her husband’s heart, Han Tingting is even worse, as soon as she thinks of Qin Song that She felt that Xu Cheng Snapdragon was good in every way, not to be replaced!
Xu Cheng Snapdragon was dumbfounded by her, silent for a long time, suddenly said quietly: “So you are not willing to remarry, is it?”
The hand around her neck wrapped tighter, Xu Chengchu felt hot on his chin, it was the breath that spewed out when she laughed: “No ah, you are very bad, but I just like such a bad you.”
Seo Seung Snap, bratty, egotistical, macho, so bad that he was practically the opposite of the man she had in mind, it took two years for Situ Seo to understand that, and then it took her another five years before she had to admit it: this man was so bad, but she just liked him so bad.
Yun Qi’s birth taught her to be honest about her love and hate, and these five years of growing up with Yun Qi taught her to confess.
When was the first time she confessed her true emotions to Seo Seung Snap? Situ Xu Xu sticking to the man due to the excitement of speechless and can not stop up and down the knot in the throat, hooking the corner of the mouth warm and emotional memories …… seems to be Yunqi one year old, more than ten months of the little boy in accordance with common sense should be lively and active teeth, Situ Yunqi and the baby as quiet, most of the time a day in sleep, waking up is Eat, drink, and sleep, adults with brightly colored toys to tease him, he almost did not move, hard into his hands, he seems to give face to adults as if, perfunctorily play a couple of times, thrown away on the deep sleep again.
This way to the almost one year old, Stuart Xu Xu could not resist the doubt in his heart, took the child to the hospital to do a checkup. Doctors can not find obvious organic lesions, check the process of Yunqi slightly woke up, half-open eyelids gracefully yawned, and then fell asleep, the doctor had no choice, asked Situ Xu Xu a few children’s daily performance of the problem, suggesting that first go to do an electroencephalography test.
“Is there something wrong with the brain development?” Situ Xu Xu asked nervously.
“According to your description, the child is unresponsive to auditory and visual stimuli and has impaired language development, which are the two major clinical manifestation symptoms of childhood autism.” The doctor opened the checklist to her, “It’s a bit late today, why don’t you bring your child here again on Monday.”
“Is autism …… autism?” Situ Xu Xu asked with a sore throat.
“Yes, it is commonly known as autism. But now it’s just a preliminary suspicion, don’t be nervous, I see this child has a smart look.”
The doctor’s comfort is better than nothing, Situ Xu Xu returned home the more she thought about it, the more horrible it was, and then she saw Yunqi was again asleep without knowing anything, she put her face against his little face, and softly called his name, Yunqi sucked on her finger and slept even more soundly. Situ Xu Xu’s tears rolled down, the only sound in the quiet room was the child’s even breathing and her suppressed whimpering, extraordinarily poignant, she felt her body flying down, like she was going to be trapped in some horrible situation, she didn’t know how to save herself, helpless and panicked to the extreme.
Xu Cheng Snapdragon called her at this time, he was already back to China, as the central defense group No. 1 group leader and the special training officer of the special brigade, in the career is red-hot, hot.
He was there in the evening after the end of the mission to relax, group members knocked him to treat the evening, he raised the phone said to take a vacation first, who knew that once the phone is connected to hear the phone on the other side of the Situ Xu Xu suppressed sobbing.
Xu Chengchu’s heart tightened, but his voice was more calm and gentle, “Situ? What’s wrong?”
Soft footsteps, the sound of the door closing, and then the suppressed choking turned into an irrepressible cry of pain, Situ Xu Xu nearly broke down and told him the doctor’s diagnosis, bawling and asking him what to do?
In fact, afterward, Situ do not remember what she said at that time, perhaps did not say anything, she hugged the phone and cried bitterly, as if that was the only thing she could do at the moment, her helplessness, panic, confusion, heart like a knife, only the person on the other end of the phone can be resolved.
As for Xu Cheng Snapdragon, he had been very patient and kept talking, telling her not to be afraid, that he would be back tomorrow, telling her to take care of Yunqi, rest early, and wait for him to come back.
In fact, Xu Cheng Snapdragon rushed back that night, and in the early hours of the morning, he asked someone to go to the airport to pick him up, which alarmed the family, and early in the morning, the old lady got up and asked, but the person had already left.
Xu Cheng Snapdragon went to the south of the city to buy her favorite shrimp dumplings and Yunqi love to eat milky buns, to their door time is still early, he stood outside the door for more than an hour, listening to the inside of the movement before calling her, listening to the inside of the footsteps can be described as eager to open the door, he seized a whole night of heart warmed up some.
Situ Xu Xu of course can not be like someone hope that jumped into his arms, crying and begging for comfort and touch, her eyes are a little red and swollen, slightly haggard look at Xu Cheng primrose heart a pain, the voice unconsciously gentle: “Yunqi where?”
“In the room.” Her voice was a bit muffled, looking very tired. Xu Cheng Snapdragon handed her breakfast, subconsciously put his arm around her shoulder, and consciously embarrassed, pinched her shoulder instead, said to her in a gentle low voice: “Take it to warm up, I’ll go to hold Yunqi to wash his face, after breakfast we’ll go to C city together, Rong Yan his sister-in-law has raised an autistic child, domestic and foreign experts in this area she is very familiar with, there are a few through her matchmaking are now working in the hospital of C city, we’ll put Yunqi to work. hospital, let’s bring Yunqi over and show him to the experts.”
Listening to his methodical arrangements, the terrified Situ Xu Xu holding shrimp dumplings and milk dumplings, bewildered suddenly dropped tears. Xu Cheng Snap lifted his hand to wipe her tears, he himself was overwhelmed with emotion, red eyes, a hold her into his arms.
Situ Xu Xu muffled out a cry, “It’s my bad ……” she said in a small voice crying, “I always mope when I’m pregnant with him, thinking about so many things, and he’s the one who… . it’s my fault ……”
“Don’t think nonsense, congenital autism is not directly related to the mother except for genetic inheritance and infection during pregnancy.” Seo Seung Snap had been checking the relevant information on the plane back, and at this moment, he was holding her tightly, his head lowered against her tearful, wet cheeks, his voice bitter and hard to hear, “Besides, if it’s because of that, it’s also my fault, I didn’t take care of you and Yun Qi, I made you sad.”
The wet cheeks that were pressed against his chin slowly shook, her voice was low, but her words were clear and painful, “It’s me, I obviously couldn’t let go, but I couldn’t bear it, I delayed myself and you, and I also harmed Yunqi.”
Situ Xu Xu finally dared to say it, in such a heartbreaking embrace moment. She was finally able to tell him how sorry she actually was. Although if she could do it all over again, she would still choose her own pathetic and miserable pride, and even if she could do it all over again, she would rather not fall in love with him anymore, but for will him, for this marriage, for this child who was born out of wedlock all his life, it’s not like she doesn’t have shame and guilt.
Two people are embracing each other, heartbroken hard to part, the old lady’s mighty voice in their very close behind the ringing, scared this pair of bitter lovebirds a big jump: “I say you two! Have you gotten bored enough?”
Xu Cheng Snapdragon couldn’t believe that he hadn’t realized when the old lady had come so close behind him, staring at the shiny key in the old lady’s hand, Mr. Snapdragon enviously asked, “Where did you get that key?” He, however, even knocking on the door to come in to visit his son depends on Situ Xu Xu’s face and mood.
The old lady gave him a despicable look, meaning do you think everyone is as wimpy as you?
Situ Xu Xu wiped her tears and said in a mute voice that she gave it to the old lady. Xu Chengchu could only hold his tongue.
The old lady couldn’t stand to see these two with sad faces, frowning, she asked Situ, “Where’s Yunqi? Still sleeping?”
Situ Xu nodded and couldn’t help but shed another tear, informing the old lady that she was going to take Yun Qi to C City in a while.
The old lady looked at the ceiling, endured for a while, and couldn’t stand it anymore, “I think you two are the ones with problems! What experts are you looking at! I’ve seen no less children than any pediatrician! Situ Yunqi is so smart! What’s wrong with him sleeping more? Doesn’t it take time to grow his body? Doesn’t it take time for his brain to grow? He can’t learn anything by watching him while he’s awake, while you two are always messing around! It’s better to get enough sleep and save up his energy!”
The old lady roared, inside the house of Yunqi as if in response, “wow” a cry, was roared dumb Situ Xu Xu and Xu Cheng primrose each received the old lady a cane, only to run in a panic to embrace the son, a hug a coaxing, Yunqi containing a bottle immediately stopped crying, who knows the old lady walked in, not very gentle bottle from his mouth, a pull, the little guy smashed the bottle, the little guy smashed the bottle, the little guy smashed the bottle, the little guy smashed the bottle, the little guy smashed the bottle, the little guy smashed the bottle, the little guy smashed the bottle, the little guy smashed the bottle. The little guy smashed his mouth and opened his black grape-like eyes to stare at the old lady, who coldly grunted and shoved the bottle back: “This is called stimulation of slow response? These eyes are more intelligent than his grandfather’s when he was a child, bullshit autism!”
Xu Chengchu opened his mouth and was blocked by the old lady with a sneer, “Don’t try to compare yourself to when you were a child, you look so stupid now, you have the nerve to compare yourself, my old man is still ashamed of it!”
Situ Xu Xu broke into tears and laughed, immediately by the old lady a back to pick over: “Laughing fart! I’ll turn around and tie up Situ Ming and beat him up again! I’ll tell him to give birth to a fool like you!”