Chapter 92

Zhu Yan Shu every heard a sentence of other people scolding Yang Xu He words, all feel the weight of their own body is carried by the weight of one or two, she is carrying things for three years, three years, more than 1,000 days and nights, she did not one day no longer suffer from the burden of it.

At that time, she couldn’t curse out every word, couldn’t spit out every mouthful of spittle, nowadays, all by others for her to curse out!

She was happy, immensely happy.

She didn’t care whether what the newspaper said was true or false, no matter how many women Yang Xuhe had seduced, whether they were pure or innocent.

Honestly, she didn’t care!

She is only happy that someone is scolding Yang Xuhe!

Yang Xuhe was scolded by everyone, just as he was scolded by no one when he published his divorce in the newspaper, betrayed his family, and abandoned his wife and daughter.

Both things are full of absurdity, black humor.

What is the difference between them?

She didn’t think so.

But people didn’t care about what had happened to her before, and couldn’t tolerate what was happening today.

Isn’t that absurd?

It’s all about a man and a couple of women, so why are the outcomes different?

Countless literary scholars had studied mankind itself. She had also studied such articles and writings when she was a teenager, and had discussed them with her father’s classmates.

But apart from discussing it, they couldn’t come to a solid conclusion.

At the time, she was still curious about these things, and had the leisure to discuss them.

Now that it was happening to her, she still didn’t understand.

Tonight, Zhu Yanshu had a rare interest in writing.

She sat under the lamp, spread out the paper, unscrewed the pen, using herself as a blueprint, writing down her own feelings.

However, when she re-read it in the middle of the night, she realized that she had been scolding Yang Xuhe, scolding her for three pages, a woman who had lost her rationality, and the rest of the content was meaningless.

She crumpled up the manuscript paper and prepared to go straight to bed.

After years of not using her pen, she might have long since lost the sensitive strokes she had back then.

At this time, she realized that the light in Yang Yucan’s house had not been turned off.

Thinking about this daughter’s character called her to worry. Two daughters, Yang Yuyan after Yang Xuhe thing, and then look at all things in the world are covered with a layer of dark shadow, she believes that human nature is evil, to men and love naturally have a resistance to psychology. If she hadn’t met Su Chunjun at the height of her hormones, she probably wouldn’t have gotten married honestly in her life.

Yang Yucan, however, has become the pursuit of more flawless love and feelings, demanding that men do not have a single shortcoming, demanding that love reach 100 percent purity, there can not be a trace of impurities. She will break up with Ma Tianbao, precisely because she began to suspect that Ma Tianbao’s love is not from the heart, even if he has 99 percent of the heart, as long as one percent is from the family, money, or her youthful and beautiful appearance, it will not work.

She didn’t know what kind of sin she had created, but she had given birth to these two debt collectors. Could it be that just because she was blind when she chose Yang Xuhe and failed her parents, the heavens had sent down these two sisters to give her a taste of what it was like to be a worrywart of a mother as well?

Now, Yang Yu Cicada must be sad for Yang Xu He again, will she become even more bullheaded?

Zhu Yanshu thought of this, and on the spur of the moment, she pushed open Yang Yucan’s bedroom door.

“Big sister, why aren’t you sleeping?” Zhu Yanshu walked in with a smile.

Yang Yucan was sitting in front of her desk, staring blankly, with the account book in front of her. When she saw Zhu Yanshu come in, she hurriedly closed the account book and said, “Mom, I’ll do the math.”

Zhu Yanshu gently pulled her up, and the two mothers and daughters sat on the bed together.

Zhu Yanshu took the account book away, “Don’t forget, the red and white affair is the most costly, because when doing business, no one is good at bargaining, but also specialize in picking the expensive ones, which can only show the intention. You buy food and pick the cheap one called saving, do the red and white affair pick the cheap one, everyone will scold you.”

Yang Yu Cicada smiled a little, her smile not reaching the bottom of her eyes.

Zhu Yan Shu stroked her hair, “Are you in a bad mood? Thinking of your father?”

Yang Yucan’s face instantly turned stiff, her shoulders and back were stiff, Zhu Yanshu sighed when she touched them.

“Good boy, are you going to gaslight yourself to death for him?” She said.

Yang Yucan quietly said, “Mom, how can he be so bad?”

Zhu Yanshu didn’t say anything, letting Yang Yucan vent to her heart’s content.

Yang Yucan’s voice was very soft, she didn’t want to wake up Yang Yuyan in the next room.

She said, “I should have thought of this. No one can live to forty before suddenly deciding to become a bad person, he must have become bad a long time ago, and has been this way for a long time. He treats us as enemies for the sake of a female student, ruthlessly harming us, and I still regard him as a father ……,” she laughed icily, ”Yan Yan all said that he was obsessed with youthful flesh, and I still regarded her as saying too much. I don’t see things as clearly as Yan Yan does.”

Zhu Yan Shu shook her head and said softly, “Yan Yan doesn’t call it seeing clearly, it’s called being cynical. She’s a little girl who hasn’t even been out of the house, what kind of deep insight can she have? What she reads in the book is applied to people. Didn’t you say she’s never seen a man’s body? What does she know about flesh?”

Yang Yu Cicada was hardened and amused.

Zhu Yanshu: “Don’t follow Yan Yan’s example, if you’re like her, you don’t know anything and only talk nonsense, then I’ll be worried to death.”

Yang Yucan did not quite dare to believe it, looked at her and said, “I still think you …… like Yan Yan more.”

This was a small thought that Yang Yucan buried in the bottom of her heart and only occasionally rose. But every time she thought this she would immediately snuff out the thought.

Zhu Yan Shu glared at her, “Are you saying I’m biased?” She wrapped her arms around Yang Yucan, “Mom isn’t biased, you and Yan Yan are both my daughters, I love them both equally. You suffered the disadvantage of being born two years earlier, this is not my fault.”

Yang Yu Cicada cherished leaning in Zhu Yan Shu’s arms, her body, from body to heart was warm.

“I don’t blame you.” She said softly.

Zhu Yan Shu shook her, “Well, that’s good.”

She said, “Yang Xuhe that person ah, in fact, not much bad, he is a small man, but also timid, but also want to live a good life, want to glory and wealth, want to fame and fortune. He wants too much, and he can’t earn it, the result is that people become like this now, he now this end is all his own fault.”

“There are many, many shortcomings in him, and these shortcomings are all human shortcomings, he is not the only one who has them. People like him, turn around on the street and 80% of them are just like him. It’s not rare. So don’t think our family had bad luck to get Yang Xuhe. On the other hand, your student Wu Xiaoping, whose father is a gambler, is close to selling his wife and daughter to pay off his gambling debts. But I don’t think it’s a good idea to talk about the Wu family that way.”

Zhu Yanshu spoke slowly, “Mr. Su’s dad is also like that, moralistic, ruthless to his wife and son, Mr. Su’s mom died because of that, that’s why he ran away.”

“Zhang Ma, her parents sold almost all the children in the family, none of her sisters stayed behind, all of them were sold. Not a good thing either.”

“Professor Dai, was also sold by her parents, said she couldn’t eat, but you can’t say you’re a good person when you sell your children, right?”

“Master Jin is going to sell Miss Jin to the Japanese, can’t say it’s a good father either.”

Yang Yucchan smiled bitterly: “Looking at it this way, Yang Xuhe at least hasn’t sold us?”

Zhu Yanshu slapped her, “Don’t take the bull by the horns. He has no way to sell us, not that he doesn’t want to sell us. If my name wasn’t Zhu, do you think he wouldn’t have sold us? I’m afraid he would have sold us already. My last name is Zhu, I am not stupid, the family’s money in the hands of all, he can only run away, but also first scolded me, the upper hand, before daring to show his head.”

Yang Yu Cicada was pondering.

Zhu Yan Shu touched her face and said, “A woman has to be strong enough on her own, so she doesn’t have to be afraid of men. No matter how bad he is and how deep he pretends to be, as long as a woman is strong enough, she can save herself from his hands. Whether it’s life or life, it’s safest to rely on yourself.”

Zhu Yanshu persuaded Yang Yucan for most of the night, and in the end, the two mothers squeezed into one bed and slept.

In the morning, Zhang Ma saw this scene and quietly retracted her head.

When Yang Yuyan got up, Yang Yucan and Zhu Yanshu were still up. Zhang Ma pulled her into the kitchen and told her to be quiet and not disturb her mom and her sister from sleeping.

Yang Yuyan just washed up in the kitchen, too lazy to run again, she occupied the dishwashing sink to brush her teeth, so Zhang Ma had to let her.

“They both slept together last night, huh? Why?” Yang Yuyan asked Zhang Ma as she wiped her face.

Zhang Ma put steamed buns in the steaming pot and said, “Your sister took the bull by the horns, and your mom is trying to persuade her. Alas, your sister, her feelings for your father are really deep.”

Zhang Ma was quite unimpressed.

Yang Yuyan spoke up for Yang Yucan, “My sister is older than me and remembers a lot. I don’t even remember the surname Yang.”

Zhang Ma: “Just two years older, how much more can she remember than you? Alas, she is always trying to get your mom back together with Yang.”

Yang Yuyan was startled: “My sister doesn’t think so!”

Zhang Ma whispered, “Don’t tell your mom and your sister. I think so, your sister wants both mom and dad to be around. Unfortunately, the mistakes your father made were too unforgivable for her to say that. Otherwise, believe it or not? She will definitely persuade your mom to make up with Yang.”

Zhang Ma said, “The more mistakes Yang made, the angrier your sister got, the more she hated him, and the more she took the bull by the horns.”

Yang Yuyan understood. She could understand Yang Yucan’s feelings. It was just like she was back then.

She had also questioned her parents countless times in her heart, why couldn’t they be a good father and mother like other people’s parents?

She all wanted to yell at their minds: be a good person! Be a good person! Change the flaws in your body and be a good person!

But it was no use.

She wasn’t worth them changing themselves. Marriage wasn’t worth changing themselves. Not worth it one iota.

So they firmly did what they wanted to do and wouldn’t change for her.

Yang Yu Cicada also wanted to shout this to Yang Xu He: Be a good man! Be a good husband and father! Don’t I deserve you to be a good person?

Unfortunately, her questioning is not going to be fruitful, and she will eventually have to admit that there is nothing she can do to change Yang Xuhe.

It’s too, too hard to cut from herself and admit from the bottom of her heart that her parents don’t deserve her love.

It took her a change of worlds to figure it out, to split up clearly physically, geographically, and temporally, before she completely abandoned her parents.

It was much more difficult for Yang Yu Cicada.

She was experiencing everything she had ever experienced.

The compassion that surged up and the friendship that had belonged to the same trench made Yang Yuyan steeply transform into the most considerate and good sister.

After Yang Yuyan woke up, she reaped the benefits of her own sister carrying her hot water bottle, carrying her toothpaste, leaving pumpkin pie for her, pouring milk, and a host of other thoughtful services.

Her sister even asked her if she would like some cookies.

Yang Yucan, who had received warm hospitality all morning, didn’t go to do the math first after breakfast, but picked up Yang Yuyan’s workbook.

Check.

Yang Yuyan didn’t understand! She had done good deeds all morning, how could she get this in return!

Yang Yuchan seriously checked if she had honestly completed the copying task every day. After checking, she called Yang Yuyan over and asked her to recite it.

Yang Yuyan: “Aren’t you busy? Why do you still have time to check me!”

Yang Yuchan’s sharp gaze stared at her, “I didn’t care about you for the past two days, today is just a spot check, memorize it.”

Yang Yuyan huffed and stood in front of her reciting.

In her heart, she cursed.

The heavens were unjust!

Why did she have to have a sister! Why is she the younger sister! It’s so unfair to be born late!

Un-fair-fair!